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    ...oh,” his mom says. “Oh, honey, you were seeing someone? You never said anything.”

    “It’s-it’s complicated.” He catches the present tense too fucking late to do anything about it, and he barely resists the urge to either groan or slip forward to start beating his head against the coffee table.

    Fuck his fucking life.

    “You’re still…seeing this person?” His mom asks, and the amount of control he can hear her exerting is almost painful. “Who is-”

    “Yuna,” his dad cuts in, voice quiet, “maybe give him a second, yeah?”

    Yeah, Shane agrees in his head. Give him a second.

    Maybe give him a decade while they’re at it.

    (when shane's old fake id falls out of his wallet around his parents, he has to explain that it was to book hotel rooms before he was 21)

    (...and then he has to explain why he needed to book those hotel rooms in the first place)

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Blue Line by orphan_account

    A rookie's bad hit sends Ilya into the boards during the Boston-Montreal game. Shane's three weeks of broken Russian are barely enough to calm him down, but it's something.

    But when the scans reveal something much worse, Shane and Ilya have to figure out how to be there for each other in ways totally unforeseen.

    Or: nothing like facing mortality for two idiots in love to be honest about how they really feel!
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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

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    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    Of course Yuna has a burner account, not just one, many in fact. She uses them for her job as Shane’s manager, to keep tabs on hockey news, the league, rumor mills, and on occasion, Rozanov.

    ———

    How Yuna comes to care for Ilya through twitter before ever meeting him. AKA Ilya clinches the title ‘favourite son’ arguably before Shane’s parents find out about their relationship.

    Spans the entire timeline of Heated Rivalry.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    A Mother Always Knows by Meishali

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Sweet Music Playing in the Dark by theki11erandthefina1gir1

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    In late 2014, celebrity photos start dropping. Ilya deletes his texts, his photos, a video he should never have taken. It isn't soon enough.

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    30 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has spent ten years circling Shane Hollander. Ten years of hotel rooms and secret phone calls. Ten years of pretending he doesn't feel it, doesn't need it, doesn't wake up reaching for someone who's already gone. Ten years convincing himself he's not good enough. That he's not worth it.

    Then a plane needs to make an emergency landing near Montreal, and Yuna Hollander is on it.

    So when Shane calls him from a bathroom floor, unable to breathe, Ilya stops pretending.

    After five hundred miles of frozen highway, three and a half hours of driving like a man possessed, a hospital waiting room full of people who have every reason to hate him, and a boy who looks at him like he's something worth keeping, Ilya may have learned a thing or two about what it means to be loved—and to let himself love freely.

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    30 May 2026

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    The Distance Between Us by Bruja_oscura

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    Shane: I need your help and I need it now.
    Shane: I’m sure you’ve all seen the video.
    Shane: I need you to bury it.

    After the fanmail video leak lands at the worst possible time, Shane has to gather his allies and turn to social media to try to change the story.

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    Yuna getting stuck in an elevator with Ilya for two hours doesn't change everything... but it changes some things. Like Yuna getting to be on a first-name basis with Ilya a full year before her son is.

    (Part 2 (the smutty part) is not actually essential reading if you are not in the mood for smut!)

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    28 May 2026

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    It starts in an elevator by Sporkess

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    23 May 2026

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    Shane lies, that first night, to keep Rozanov to himself a little longer. The changes spiral out from there.

    the coast is clear by WriteThroughTheNight

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    21 May 2026

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    The problem is, no one knows how to market Ilya Rozanov's (in his own words) sexy Euro masculinity to an audience of white straight men.

    He needs the best. And if it happens to be his secret lover’s mother who despises his very existence, so be it.

     

    Influence by 409_conflict

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    Shane has decided to join Ilya at his Halloween Party. Not as a couple but as another small step forward in changing their narrative. Shane has finally worked up the courage to meet Ilya's new team.

    Meanwhile the Centaurs have decided to use the party as a chance to solve the mystery of who is Jane? Ilya's mysterious girlfriend who he seems to have moved countries for.

    Except
    When Shane called him back the next day after practice Ilya was ready to try to talk him into it. And also ready to be disappointed. He just knew Shane was going to say no.

    But then Shane surprised him. God he loved Shane. Apparently he had gone through a whole pro-con list and decided it wasn't a bad idea. The whole point of Ilya moving to Ottawa was to change their narrative. For them to appear more friendly.

    A Halloween party was a step in that direction. They weren't ready to go to the party as a couple yet, but Shane could go as Ilya’s friend. It was a small step but it made Ilya so loved.

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    18 May 2026

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    It figures that even half-way across the world Ilya's dick manages to ruin Cliff's day. The real surprise is that it isn't the only dick involved in this mess.

    Featuring an ill-timed outing, a supportive but clueless team trying its best, panicking over Russia's LGBTQ laws, too many group chats, an unhinged 3am brainstorming session on how to get your captain a new citizenship (asking for a friend) and Roz' inability to answer his fucking phone.

    Or: Ilya disappears in Sochi. Half-way across the world his team does its best to help. Their best is more than anyone could have foreseen.
    maximal confusion, some believability by petroltogo

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    Sock @ilyarozanovssocks
    Mate, I can guarantee that absolutely no one would be lucky to have you.

    Lily @shanehollandersrealgf
    Ah, and Rozanov is better than me?

    Sock @ilyarozanovssocks
    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya wants to thirst and brag about his boyfriend in public, so he finds a way to do so.

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    10 May 2026

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    Yuna MF Hollander by fffpppp

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    07 May 2026

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    Shane says Ilya's soulmate words. Ilya vows to never speak a word to him to keep him from finding out. They fall in love anyway.
    get carried away by ummrys

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    Shane: Hi. This is Shane Hollander.
    Lily: ???
    Shane: From the bar? You left me your number.
    Shane: This is Lily right?
    Lily: Sure.
    Lily: Hello Shane.
    Shane: Hi.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    in which the boston bears are sick of their captain making them do early morning drills and vow to get him back with his ex, the girl they only know by the name of jane.

    fixer upper (the boston remix) by yourlocalsurrealism

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