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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    06 Jun 2026

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    AU — The Centaurs’ plane crashes. No deaths are reported, and that should be a relief.

    Ilya survives. He just isn’t waking up.

    As Shane waits, the world continues on, and he’s forced to confront just how fragile their life truly is.

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander comes out and unleashes Shane Hollander Hysteria across the NHL.
    All-stars circle like it's free agency and he’s the only contract available.
    DMs combust. Rival captains get bold.
    Connections start forming faster than anyone can keep up.
    The Metros couldn’t care less because Shane keeps dominating on the ice while getting fucked in multiple time zones.
    It becomes the worst-kept secret in professional hockey: everyone wants their turn.
    Or:
    Shane Hollander comes out and discovers freedom can look like a lot of things.
    Sometimes it looks like sex across time zones.
    Sometimes it looks like queer community forming around him across the league.
    Sometimes it looks like becoming the most confident version of himself he has ever been.
    Shane Hollander is having a great time.
    This fic is loud, messy, and sometimes a little ridiculous until it isn’t.

    Shane-centric.
    Multiple partners/poly dynamics.
    Character studies of many different men.
    Finding queer joy and community.
    Autism, mental illness, and different attachment styles.
    Or as I like to say..
    A slow emotional horror story inside a romcom porno.


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    23 Apr 2026

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    In hindsight, Shane should have known that it could not last, that he should not trust the apparent ease with which they found a rhythm, a set of hard boundaries they silently drew and tacitly agreed not to push against. He should have foreseen the unsustainability of building walls over growing feelings. Shane should have known, but he didn't.

    Or, an extended study of Shane's marvelous journey of self-discovery as he fucks his way into a committed relationship.

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    18 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 33

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    90s pop band AU - touted to be the "Next Big Thing" - new pop band "Rivalry" have been manufactured to be the public's perfect boyband - Ilya (the bad boy) and Shane (much to his frustration typecast as the perfect heartthrob) meet at the first casting call. Through photoshoots, choreography camp and then a cross world tour, they fall in love but have to hide it from their bandmates, over-invested management and legions of screaming fans.

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    10 Apr 2026