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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    10 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 66

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    Zaychik (зайчик): bunny/little rabbit, Russian term of endearment.

    Shane asks what a term that Ilya’s been calling him means, and gets more than he expected as a response.

    or, Shane bunny agenda

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    07 Jul 2026

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    Vincent Lemaire has been the best player on every team he's ever been on, so it makes sense when he's nominated for Rookie of the Year. Ethan Korogyi has been winning national championships since he was twelve years old, so it's only logical that he goes third in the draft overall.

    But those achievements don't really matter. They don't mean anything when they are perpetually behind Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov.

    At least they have each other. That's something Rozanov and Hollander will never understand.

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    02 Jul 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 16

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    "You can—you can do whatever you want to me," Shane panted, his mouth hot and wet like an open wound.

    Shane dangles a generous offer in front of a hungry, manic Ilya.

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    26 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 84

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    Shane is lonely. He knows this because there have been multiple attempts by different people in his life to make him acknowledge this. It has been an increasing concern for his parents, who previously kept their comments sparse, before his career kicked off in earnest and they could finally iron out some of his social flaws. This manifests in increasingly farfetched and undesirable suggestions - you should join a running club; you should email this influencer - you never know!; you should see if that brand ambassador could be your plus one to this event.

    His friends, too, keep poking their noses in his business. Some of his them are easier to shake off - Hayden goes quiet after a few noncommittal hums from him at the suggestion of a double date. JJ is happy if they get a beer once in a while. Rose however - Rose buys him a dog.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Partying and pining in New York, situationship-era flirting, and semi-ironic marriage pacts.

    Just a day in the life of Ilya Rozanov.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    A love story, told through Google reviews.

    (or, Shane leaves a negative review on a restaurant in Saint Petersburg and spends the next decade being haunted by the owner's son.)

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    15 Jun 2026

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    it’s a known fact that Ilya’s devotion to Shane knows no bounds. But there are some it seems, that wish to test that theory. Good thing Ilya has no qualms in reminding them - with split fists and a tongue that yearns to taste blood.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Forester (Admirals🔛🔝)
    So the true way to combat the Bisexual Russian Terminator isn’t with homophobia...
    It's actually with even more gay
    ...
    You're a goddamn genius.

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    The NHL rookies have joined forces to strategize now that two of the greatest hockey players of all time are on the same team and Ilya Rozanov must suffer from the unintended consequences of making hockey more woke.

    Mainly, the way everyone keeps implying that they want to fuck his husband.

    or: a group of rookies unionize and employ chirping as a form of psychological torture against a one Ilya Grigoryevich Rozanov.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “Hello,” Ilya repeats, still kind of stuck on those freckles.

    “Hi?” the man says.

    “Hi,” Ilya says—again.

    Oh god, he's said hello three times now. He should literally say anything else. His name, probably. His phone number, preferably.

    “Hi,” Ilya says again, because he can’t help it. “I am—”

    “Are you Nick?” the man asks, and it comes out as a breathless sound.

    OR: Shane gets stood up on a blind date, and Ilya comes to the rescue, and proceeds to make a series of questionable decisions.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    08 Jun 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 26

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    "I was so pissed about that awards season," she admits, and then goes further, face burning. "Me and my friends burned a Rozanov voodoo doll before the Oscars that year. Not that it worked. Obviously."

    Humiliating to admit, maybe, but she's rewarded by the way his pink lips split into a suprised smile, hand coming up to his mouth like he can't believe what he's hearing.

    "Oh my god," she says. "Sorry, I shouldn't have told you that. That's crazy. I should have kept that to myself."

    Rose meets Shane at a bar and she thinks this time, it might be destiny.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.

    Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.

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    06 Jun 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 15

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    “You ought to face me for what you’ve done,” the boy repeated, stepping closer.

    And it took Ilya a moment to recognize who he was, for he was wearing plain clothes, and few ever heard him speak. But the face of the emperor’s young consort was unmistakable, even warped by grief and rage and fear all at once as it was. Dark haired, freckled and still soft-faced, the most beautiful brown eyes the galaxy had ever seen.

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    Or, a royalty/star wars AU in which Ilya overthrows the emperor, and Shane is the emperor's surviving consort. What is to be done?

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    05 Jun 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 54

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    In 1987, during a brief thaw of the Cold War, David Hollander falls in love with the right person at exactly the wrong time.

    For a few impossible months in Montreal, David and Soviet exchange student Grigori Rozanov build a life in the space between closing doors before the pressures of reality tear them apart. One of them learns how to open another. The other spends the rest of his life standing in front of the one that shut.

    Decades later, their sons inherit the consequences.

    Spanning continents, generations, and thirty years of history, this is ultimately not a love story but a meditation on what happens after one falls apart. On the futures we lose. The ones we build instead. And the choices that echo outward through families for decades: whether loving deeply means accepting the risk of loss, or whether loss is proof that love itself is too dangerous to survive.

    Because grief can either lead to a locked door or an open one.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    ilya feels it when shane slams a gloved palm onto the ice to stabilize himself, echoing an earthquake through ilya’s skates and up to his sternum. his heart clenches with every heaving breath shane takes, bloodstained petals pouring past his lips. he’s hurting, and the need to hold him burns through ilya’s veins.

    ilya was supposed to protect him, but he didn’t even see the hit, only the aftermath, just marly skating slowly away with terror on his face as the ice gets painted red.

    or: it's april 2017, and cliff marleau just checked shane hollander into the boards. he doesn't break his collarbone, but he does start coughing up petals. a post-tuna melt hanahaki au.

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    04 Jun 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 74

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    Ilya Rozanov won't pretend like he hasn't noticed Shane Hollander. He's noticed him every week since Hollander took his hand at the Junior's competition. He has seen every commercial, every poster, and every paparazzi photo. He watches Hollander's post game interviews and has dreams of licking the sweat off his body.

    ... But he does find it interesting that Hollander is the only hockey player to make Ilya feel this way--the only dream that rivals all his other distractions.

    After seven years of his hopeless—frankly, lustful—crush on Hollander, they meet for the all star game in Tampa Bay. All it takes is a handshake, two drinks, and the best game of Ilya's life for him to decide he's going to give it all up.

    He decides to move to Hollander's hometown and steal his heart.

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    04 Jun 2026

  18. Public Bookmark *

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    Ilya hurts Shane.

    It’s an accident, of course, but his mind goes to the only place it knows how afterwards: He deserves to hurt too.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya's feelings were always too big, too scary, and too difficult to discuss. After going their separate ways at the end of their time in Tampa, and building their lives without one another, Ilya makes the decision to call Shane in an effort to catch up after over 20 years apart.

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    01 Jun 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 53

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    Shane never gets his injury and Ilya breaks up with him like how he had planned it.

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    01 Jun 2026

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