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courage [it couldn't come at a worse time] by veilofimagination
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
22 Feb 2026
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"Why are you not scared?"
"I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."
"Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.
"Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.
Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."
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Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.
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- English
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- 81,933
- Chapters:
- 9/9
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- 4,479
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- 21,150
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07 Jun 2026
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the ten step plan by WriteThroughTheNight
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Mar 2026
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In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.
But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.
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Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.
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- Part 2 of the coast is clear
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 95,714
- Chapters:
- 14/14
- Collections:
- 21
- Comments:
- 4,374
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- 22,503
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Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
29 May 2026
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“Come on, you’re telling me you wouldn’t consider sneaking into a storage closet with me?”
“Obviously, I would!” Eddie was whisper-yelling now, and Buck wasn’t sure exactly what point he was trying to make, but he was enjoying every second of this. “But one of us is going to have to have restraint and it has to be the—the one with the most experience.”
Buck felt his mouth drop open in delight. “Eddie,” he admonished. “Are you calling me a whore?”
“No!” said Eddie, looking increasingly flustered. “I just mean—clearly you have the power to do—” he gestured at Buck, “that, so you have the—the responsibility to, like, use it. Responsibly.”
“Did you just quote Spiderman?”
Eddie propped his elbows on the table and dropped his head into his hands, groaning dramatically. “I’m going to die. The first date, and I’m going to die.”
“Been there, wouldn’t recommend it.”
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Buck and Eddie and the first date.
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- English
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- 19,690
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- 1/1
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- 359
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04 May 2026
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Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Jun 2026
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2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.
2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.
When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.
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“So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”
“We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”
“No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”
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- Part 6 of Heated Rivalry
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 296,453
- Chapters:
- 18/?
- Comments:
- 8,805
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- 17,948
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- 6,873
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Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
29 Apr 2026
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Newly traded to the Ottawa Centaurs, Ilya Rozanov is so close to having everything he’d never thought he was allowed to want. He can see the man he loves more than four times a year, he’s surrounded by a team who supports him through his injury, and Shane’s parents have unhesitatingly accepted him as part of the family.
Except his lingering concussion symptoms have kept him sidelined from hockey, his boyfriend is still two hours away, their schedules are a disaster, and Shane’s team is, well…it’s full of assholes. There must be a way to make this all work out.
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A sequel to a whump fanfiction with more whump…that is also, secretly, a fix-it.
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- Part 2 of Return-to-Play
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 50,450
- Chapters:
- 20/20
- Collections:
- 9
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- 7,034
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- 21,180
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Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
17 Apr 2026
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"Can I try something?"
"Yeah, sure, g-go ahead, man." Buck cringes, and even that is adorable.
"Close your eyes."
"E-Eddie," Buck croaks helplessly.
"I'm not gonna bite, Buckley. Trust me?"
Buck closes his eyes. Squeezes them shut, really.
Eddie tugs his face into the curve of Buck's shoulder before he can lose the nerve, Buck's pulse fluttering wildly against the tip of Eddie's nose.
Buck is struggling after the events in New Mexico. Eddie decides to move in with him about it.
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- English
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- 25,890
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- 1/1
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- 191
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17 Apr 2026
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it felt like we were something by some1_around
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Jan 2026
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Ilya’s perspective of a few scenes from “something you can build” (and one scene that came after). Featuring: intense yearning for your committed long-term partner, supportive but confused himbos, Yuna Hollander’s momager energy, Scott realizing he’s a side character in someone else’s even crazier story, and a quick trip to California for Very Boring, Extremely Casual, Not-At-All-Romantic Reasons (aka, the epilogue).
(Companion piece! You will need to have read the rest of the series for this to make any sense—here be spoilers!)
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- Part 3 of something you can fix
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 10,992
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Comments:
- 719
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- 15,581
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- 152,127
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
12 Apr 2026
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Bobby’s last words leave Buck lost in grief and guilt, slowly pulling him inward.
As he retreats, Eddie is left on the outside, grasping for a connection that keeps slipping through his fingers.
Sometimes, distance hurts more than loss.
And sometimes, it takes everything breaking apart to bring two people back together.- Language:
- English
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- 38,433
- Chapters:
- 13/13
- Comments:
- 149
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- 490
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- 124
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- 12,693
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
11 Apr 2026
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i'd rather be sad with you (than be anywhere away from you) by dinosar
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Apr 2026
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after the plane incident and realizing just how fragile life can be, shane and ilya come out to their teams, with varying levels of success.
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He tries to sit and do a puzzle David had given him for Christmas, but he’s too anxious and agitated to do much more than just the perimeter in the end. Then he tries to eat some lunch, but he doesn’t have much of an appetite, so most of it ends up in the garbage. His stomach is in knots thinking about Shane.
And then, around two hours after Shane’s last texts, he gets a text from Jackie Pike.
Jackie: Hey, Ilya! Have you heard from Shane? He’s ignoring Hayden’s calls, and we’re a bit worried.
Ilya’s brow furrows. Shane’s supposed to be practicing with his shitty team, why is Pike trying to call him? A pit of dread opens up in his stomach at the implications.
Ilya: I haven’t heard from him since he arrived in Montreal
Ilya: Did something happen, Jackie?
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- English
- Words:
- 20,485
- Chapters:
- 2/2
- Comments:
- 269
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- 3,281
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- 501
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07 Apr 2026
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The Game Plan by FestiveFerret, pouringinsheets
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
24 Dec 2022
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Shane Hollander is the number two overall NHL draft pick and a newly minted Montreal Voyageur. He’s also laser focused on his goals: being the best by beating the best. For him, this means a continued rivalry with number one draft pick—and new Ottawa Centaur—Ilya Rozanov. But when a problem with Rozanov’s immigration paperwork threatens his future in the NHL, what does that mean for Shane’s own career? He can’t risk finding out…so they get married. Just for immigration. A fast, practical, mutually beneficial solution.
No one will ever suspect, let alone find out, that the NHL’s greatest rivals are secretly married. And there’s certainly no risk of feelings getting involved. They have a game plan.
- Language:
- English
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- 64,024
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Comments:
- 2,168
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- 31,704
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- 10,319
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Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
29 Mar 2026
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“Who the hell is Evan?” Buck asks.
“Ummmmm, you?” Eddie draws in his bottom lip as a giggle makes an attempt at freedom. Doing this while wine-tipsy is making it significantly more difficult. “That’s your name.”
“That’s not my name to you.”
“That’s the name on our marriage license.”
What if you were GAY and at WINE NIGHT and you called your husband his LEGAL NAME to win MONEY… Eddie Diaz can relate.
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- Part 2 of You're Still The One
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28 Mar 2026
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love in exile has nowhere to go by justhockey
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Mar 2026
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“We’ve made a trade,” Coach announces. “For Shane Hollander.”
It’s like the ground drops out from beneath Ilya, and his heart falls from his chest. It tumbles past rock bottom, down to the cavern that shattered open inside of him on that night five years ago. The night when Ilya walked away from Hollander for the last time.
He can’t breathe.
(Or: Shane doesn’t get hurt, they break up, and they don’t talk for five long years. Until Shane is traded to Ottawa.)
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- English
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- 22,904
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 15
- Comments:
- 1,820
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- 22,492
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- 6,001
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- 216,983
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
26 Mar 2026
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These are the kind of concerns about how he can’t let himself do all of the things he wants to. About how Buck might leave him if he gets too much, too clingy, too greedy.
Eddie can’t let himself be greedy.
or: after buck and eddie get together, eddie struggles with how much he wants to touch buck. for flufftober day 17, only one bed!
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- Part 8 of buddie flufftober 2024
- Language:
- English
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- 5,022
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 51
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- 1,646
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- 230
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- 13,593
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
25 Mar 2026
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Shane’s heart drops into his stomach. “Ilya,” he breathes. His vision goes blurry, throat tight. He tries to swallow it down and focus, shove his swirling thoughts into a neat little box, but it’s impossible. He feels—he might throw up, actually. “Are you seriously telling me you tried to fucking kill yourself?”
“Yes,” Ilya agrees blandly, “It did not work.”
Ilya calls Shane from the hospital. Shane handles it very normally.
- Language:
- English
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- 5,118
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- 1/1
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- 682
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- 4,234
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- 134,768
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20 Mar 2026
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It's all Canadian Vodka's fault by FriPie
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Feb 2026
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In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.
The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 26,385
- Chapters:
- 3/3
- Comments:
- 2,331
- Kudos:
- 39,835
- Bookmarks:
- 9,417
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- 447,873
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15 Mar 2026
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All I Ask of You by isaidsaddleup
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 Apr 2026
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When Hayden and Jackie Pike are killed in a sudden accident, their four children are left without parents - and, to everyone’s shock, the guardians named in their will are not family, but Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov.
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- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 50,794
- Chapters:
- 10/10
- Comments:
- 875
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- 4,986
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- 1,376
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- 85,056
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
14 Mar 2026
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"You're really just gonna sit there and act like it didn't happen," he mutters.
Eddie looks up at him, a small fond smile on his face that's reserved only for Buck.
"I'm going to marry you someday," Eddie murmurs. "Do you want French toast?"
Buck nearly chokes on his coffee. There was no way he heard that correctly…right?
"Uh," he splutters. "What did you just say?"
"Do you want French toast?"
"Before that," Buck clarifies.
"Oh." Eddie's smile only grows wider. "I'm going to marry you someday."
or: Buck and Eddie share a bed, a kiss, and a pancake. In that order.
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08 Mar 2026
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Please don't leave (I won't ever) by 17darwinism
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Mar 2026
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“What did you actually think?”
He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”
“Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.
Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”
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Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.Series
- Part 2 of Please, God, I'm finally loved
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 33,429
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Comments:
- 307
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- 2,527
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- 497
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- 30,519
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
04 Mar 2026
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Five Conversations Yuna has with Ilya, and one conversation she has with Shane. Ch. 6: Back at the cottage.
Yuna had made checklists and organized budgets and shook coaches’ hands and learned how to negotiate and delegate and advocate, all in service of protecting and preserving Shane and this precious, enormous gift. There were a million ways for his journey to go wrong, and only one way for it to go right. She was competent, she was capable, she’d done everything right, everything by the book — and twenty years later, she feels like she didn’t rise to the moments that truly mattered. She mentored the career, at times, she did not mother the boy.
And yet Shane, a marvelous miracle all his own, had figured out those lessons anyways.
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- Part 1 of Adaptation
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 19,741
- Chapters:
- 6/6
- Comments:
- 581
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- 5,627
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- 1,194
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- 59,833
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01 Mar 2026
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After the longest season of his career, Ilya retreats to the cottage with Shane, expecting rest, recovery, and a month of stolen peace. Instead, exhaustion lingers. Small things feel wrong. And the body that has always carried him through pain begins to falter in ways he can’t explain.
As concern grows and outside eyes begin to notice, the life Ilya and Shane have carefully built—careers, borders, futures—starts to feel fragile. When a medical crisis shatters their summer before answers arrive, love is no longer something they protect quietly. It becomes something they fight with.
A story about what happens when the body speaks before you’re ready to listen, and the people who refuse to let you face it alone.
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- Part 1 of The Quiet Fight
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 55,266
- Chapters:
- 30/30
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 631
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- 5,899
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- 2,050
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- 170,391
Bookmarked by lil_mrskle
01 Mar 2026