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Stigma (or Lie?) by orangememory
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Mar 2026
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Shane Hollander has been in love with Ilya Rozanov for twenty-eight years and has never said it once.
When Ilya's nineteen-year-old son Nicholas - same face, same body, same cock, same ruinous Rozanov gravity - drops to his knees in a locker room shower and says "I've wanted you since I was fourteen," Shane doesn't stop him. He closes his eyes and pretends.
This is not a love story. This is a sin repeated across two generations, and Shane is the altar. All characters are adults (19+).
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13 Jun 2026
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The Things the Dead Leave Behind by S_D_Blackthorn
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
13 Jun 2026
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When Shane stops answering his phone, Ilya drives to Montreal expecting irritation, maybe a fight, maybe another one of Shane’s ridiculous explanations
Instead, he finds Shane dead in their bed.
After the funeral, Ilya tries desperately to survive the grief, leaning on teammates, family, and the life they built together. Then Shane starts appearing in places he shouldn’t be, asking Ilya to do small, ordinary things that slowly begin erasing their shared history from existence.
Ottawa disappears first.
Then the cottage.
Then the MLH.
Then Shane himself.
And somewhere beneath the unraveling nightmare waiting for him is the life Ilya Rozanov was supposed to have if he had never met Shane Hollander at all.
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- English
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- 76,006
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- 16/16
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29 May 2026
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Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.
Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”
Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”
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Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever
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- English
- Words:
- 59,096
- Chapters:
- 13/13
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- 1,519
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- 3,950
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- 81,301
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29 May 2026
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all's well that ends well (to end up with you) by writelove
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Apr 2026
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Ilya Rozanov wakes up to a best friend, a team, a family, a puppy, and best of all, a husband that loves him. The only problem? He doesn't remember any of it.
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An amnesia fic that sees Ilya wake to a life that he loves, one that he fought for even if he can't remember what that fight looked like. With the hesitant help of Troy Barrett, he'll do everything he can to keep it.
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- English
- Words:
- 53,227
- Chapters:
- 7/8
- Comments:
- 349
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- 1,795
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- 712
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- 50,372
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29 May 2026
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Hayden Pike found out who Boston Lily was through a mishap of his own making, in Boston, 2014.
Cliff Marlow figured out the truth behind Montreal Jane through the power of friendship and vodka, in Montreal, 2015.
In 2017, they found themselves working together to cover for the Most Obvious Secret in NHL, while Boston Raiders and Montreal Metros were trapped together during a snowstorm.
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- English
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- 72,060
- Chapters:
- 16/20
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- 1,306
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- 4,899
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- 1,661
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- 148,577
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28 May 2026
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if you drink my pain, you can swallow my pride by writer_in_theory
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jun 2026
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Alexei Rozanov was dead.
Shane Hollander may as well be.
After a hit gone wrong, Shane must pay for killing Alexei Rozanov. Ilya Rozanov, heir to the Rozanov empire, has a plan for the man.
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- English
- Words:
- 90,267
- Chapters:
- 23/?
- Comments:
- 2,561
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27 May 2026
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When Ilya Rozanov goes down on the ice, the Boston Bears are already moving to defend their captain. No one expects Shane Hollander, captain of the Montreal Voyageurs, to be the one who throws the first punch.
Or: the Boston Bears figure out Ilya and Shane's relationship first-and decide that instead of letting their captain move to Ottawa, they'll just kidnap his boyfriend instead. Shane Hollander would make a better Bear anyway.
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- Part 1 of (We Could Be) Something Great
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 230,038
- Chapters:
- 13/?
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- 2,370
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25 May 2026
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Wrong Room, Right Person by Menty_B_Fairy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 May 2026
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Shane's supposed to meet Ilya in room 1221, but a wrong number lands him at Scott's door instead. What starts as an accident becomes something Shane didn't know he needed—someone who understands, who doesn't hide, who makes him feel like he can be honest.
One night changes everything. Now Shane wants more than stolen moments in dark hotel rooms. He wants this—both of them. And Ilya, finally realizing what he stands to lose, is ready to fight for him too.
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- English
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- 139,411
- Chapters:
- 24/?
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- 857
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24 May 2026
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cornelia street by alphalupi
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
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During his first World Juniors, Canada's Shane Hollander met America's Carter Vaughan in the hotel lobby and the rest is history.
This story is a look at a Shane with a best friend who tugs him out of his shell, a friend who pushes him to expand his circle, who helps him find the confidence to stand up for himself. His journey isn't without pitfalls, but one change, one extra person solidly in his corner who loves every jagged piece of him, takes him to new places and lets him take new risks.
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Or: what would happen if Carter 'Ally' Vaughan was Shane's best friend and maybe, just maybe, the gays were a little messier?
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- English
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- 12,213
- Chapters:
- 3/?
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- 292
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- 1,104
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24 May 2026
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all thoughts, all passions (all delights) by vividblossom (drtymdbld)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Jun 2026
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"Special enough to come out of retirement for?"
Ilya looks at the space between his legs that had once been occupied by dark eyes and a constellation of freckles and a smart mouth. He feels bereft.
This sub, Shane Hollander, is special. Not quite a brat, though not sweet and obedient either. The thought of fighting for his submission, of smacking that smart mouth and then kissing praises against it, is tempting.
And he’d only had the sub at his feet for minutes. Ilya left the Mastigery for many reasons, but Shane Hollander is making him forget all of them.
“I will have a room ready for him in the morning.”
Or; Professional Dom for Hire, Ilya Rozanov, struggles with his sadistic desires and meets his match in Shane Hollander; the failed Montreal trainee.
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- English
- Words:
- 39,123
- Chapters:
- 4/?
- Comments:
- 421
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- 2,645
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20 May 2026
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the same team by JSwander
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
14 Jun 2026
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“This might have been a bad idea.”
“You think so?”
“Hollander’s pissed.” Marlow said, stating the obvious.
“No he’s not.” Ilya answered easily. “He’s just nervous.”
“About what?”“About asking if he can watch you fuck me.”
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Ilya and Marlow have been hooking up for years - though it was never personal (until it was too late).
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- Part 3 of the system
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 52,962
- Chapters:
- 11/?
- Comments:
- 1,835
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- 3,644
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- 811
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- 78,031
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16 May 2026
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Different. Better. by lisliliya
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
13 Jun 2026
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_____What if Troy Barrett met Shane Hollander first?
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_____By the second period, it was clear even to fans in the farthest, cheapest seats that something unusual was taking place on the ice.
“The Centaurs haven’t looked especially in sync all season, but this is something else,” one commentator said. “Rozanov and Barrett do not look like line-mates tonight,” the other commentator agreed, disbelief in his voice.
“Seems like Rozanov’s forgotten which team he’s playing for.”
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It went on like that well into the final period, until Barrett finally had enough. One more snub, one more chirp, one more empty lane Rozanov should have covered, and Troy was on him. Gloves hit the ice.
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- English
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- 12/29
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- 227
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- 460
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- 256
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10 May 2026
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The Breakaway by Ishipthisshitokay
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.
No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
No one knows he’s planning to run.
No one knows how much he’s breaking.And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.
Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.
Shane is learning how to live again.
Ilya is learning how to feel again.
Both are learning how to trust.But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.
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Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.
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- English
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- 492,165
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- 96/?
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- 16,144
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- 10,364
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04 May 2026
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“Is someone chasing you?” Ilya drawls.
He turns, and yeah, this guy doesn’t look like much of a smoker. Ilya’s learned through time and experience that stoners come in all shapes and sizes, but it’s clear that he isn’t one: hair cut neat and short, straight-laced, brows furrowed into a scowl, shoulders all tight—too squared away. He’s probably not much of a drinker, either, if Ilya had to guess.
And he’s wearing a fucking suit, for Christ’s sake.
So boring, Ilya thinks, strangely delighted. He wants to take him by the collar and scruff up his hair, if only to see what he might do in response.
Or, Shane's struggling with anxiety. Hayden thinks his grumpy weed dealer might be able to help.
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- English
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- 50,224
- Chapters:
- 6/7
- Comments:
- 565
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- 1,307
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- 485
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04 May 2026
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when montreal is pitted against boston once again, cliff marleau finds himself knocking at shane hollander’s hotel room door with an apology for laying him out last time their teams met. only, hayden pike opens the door with a scowl on his face.
(my dear reader, smut does, in fact, ensue.)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 77,756
- Chapters:
- 7/?
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 769
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- 7,182
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- 1,781
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- 143,020
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04 May 2026
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mine (in another lifetime) by luverslilac
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 May 2026
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“Don’t marry her. Don’t leave me.”
Ilya Rozanov has planned dozens of perfect weddings.
This one just happens to belong to the man he's been in love with for his for years.*Reuploaded after random deletion a while back*
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- English
- Words:
- 40,152
- Chapters:
- 16/16
- Comments:
- 576
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- 2,163
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- 752
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- 54,420
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04 May 2026
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“How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”
“It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.
Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.
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After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.
A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 126,906
- Chapters:
- 28/?
- Comments:
- 7,975
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- 18,710
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- 840,937
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28 Mar 2026
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Public Bookmark 7593
Mystery Work
Part of AZRAELRIEGO
Summary
This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!
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28 Mar 2026
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My Best Friend Ilya by Curiosity_and_Candor
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 Mar 2026
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This is Shane's POV (new!Shane) of the fic 'so it's gonna be forever' by Lila_Mac.
You must read that fic first!
This is a working title and will probably change.
I will not start posting here until Lila's fic is complete. Posting just the prologue now so that this fic has a home, and anyone who is interested can follow for updates.
05/25/26 edit: At the end of Ch 18 of "so it's gonna be forever", Lila_Mac added this note:Real life is catching up to me, guys, so updates probably won't come as often and consistently as they did until ch 18. I think I'm probably also nearing the end of this story. I won't give an estimate of how many chapters left, as I don't really know myself, but I took a little break from writing, and when I came back to it, I very seriously considered changing it to complete at ch 18. I feel as if I achieved a satisfying conclusion to the time travel and Shane and Ilya's relationship in ch 17 and ch 18, and I don't want to drag it out if it doesn't feel natural. We'll see what the plot muse says, I guess.
I trust they will mark the fic complete when it's time, and until then I will keep writing :)
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28 Mar 2026
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we didn't even kiss... so i kissed him instead by purplepenguin87
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
07 Apr 2026
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Ilya crouched down until he was at eye level with Shane.
He reached out and brushed his hand along Shane’s jaw gently. Shane’s eyes fluttered closed as he leaned into Ilya’s touch.
Ilya watched it happen, how it was so instinctive… the same way Shane always softened immediately under his hands or when in his presence.
“You’re so responsive for me, Shane,” he murmured, lifting Shane’s chin slightly to face him. Shane slowly opened his eyes to look at him.
Ilya leaned in, bringing their faces close enough that he could feel the hot air from Shane’s breath.
“So tell me something,” Ilya said quietly. “Does Hayden ever get to see you like this?”
“Or is he just playing with my property?”
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OR: Hayden finds Shane after the MLH Awards in Vegas where Ilya left him sub dropped & hurting. Hayden makes Shane feel better and the lines between their friendship get blurred. Ilya gets incredibly jealous and fights to win him back. They all end up hurting until they learn how to communicate.
There are both Shayden & Hollanov spicy scenes but *no threesomes* - This fic gets VERY messy and toxic but has a happy Hollanov ending!
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- Part 1 of We Didn't Even Kiss (Series)
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 198,009
- Chapters:
- 30/30
- Comments:
- 2,897
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- 4,114
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- 1,278
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- 167,351
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27 Mar 2026