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    He watches Hollander’s eyes track over the laundry detergent sitting on a shelf, the amount in the hamper and back to the machine, and it’s as obvious as if he’s got a little thought bubble actually hovering above his head— “you want to start a load of laundry,” he says, snickering a little.

    “It’s just— we’re on the road again in two days, and all my normal stuff is dirty,” Shane says, reaching for the hamper and sifting through to grab only the lighter colors.

    “Okay,” Ilya says. He’s still hard, and he presses a hand to the bulge under his pants, ostentatious, a blatant display as Hollander turns to look at him. “You do your household chore in middle of sexy hookup. I will go get naked and lie in your bed, and if you can tear yourself away, maybe you get there in time for me to get inside you before I come.”

    Hollander’s eyes darken, flickering down to Ilya’s hand pressed against his groin. “Uh. Give me like. Thirty seconds. A minute.”

    And, indeed, it can’t be longer than a minute later that Hollander is naked and climbing on top of Ilya on the bed, the low rumble of the washing machine providing a soundtrack to their embrace.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    12 Jun 2026

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    When you’re going up in flames, sometimes other people can smell the smoke. On the flip side, at least: when you’re on fire, sometimes other people can feel the warmth.

    Or, scenes from Home Economics, told from the perspective of everyone else.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    29 May 2026

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    Hayden just wanted to surprise Shane with a guy’s night in. Shane had been flat lately, and he and JJ thought it would be nice to distract him with friendship.
    How they ended up stuck in a fucking closet watching Shane get dicked down harder than anyone in the history of the world has ever been dicked down, Hayden would never quite understand.

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    29 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    25 Apr 2026

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    Autistic Shane's get drafted in Boston. So so so so good. Angst with happy ending.

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    “Lily,” Hayden says automatically. “You know about Lily?”

    Something flickers across Rozanov’s face. His jaw twitches. “Yes, I know about Lily.” He raises his eyebrows.

    Hayden feels like a complete asshole, all of a sudden. There’s just been too much going on to even think about Shane’s mystery girlfriend. “Shit, I should probably, like, call her, or something? I don’t know this girl at all, but Shane’s been obsessed with her for years. If she was watching the game, she would have seen him get hurt.”

    “You don’t need to call her,” Rozanov says, and when Hayden glances at him, he still looks fucking miserable but now he’s rolling his eyes, a much more familiar expression of disdain on his face. “She’s sitting right here.”
    --
    Hayden Pike and Ilya Rozanov are waiting for Shane to wake up after he took a bad hit on the ice. They get to talking.

    Chapter 2: Ilya and Shane talk about what it means, now that someone knows their secret.
    Chapter 3: Shane and Hayden hash out the big reveal.
    Chapter 4: Ilya tells Svetlana the big secret.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    He swiped quickly past his mom and Hayden’s messages, each including various degrees of surprise and reassurances.

    Mom: Have you heard anything from Coach Theriault? I’m sure the announcement is coming any day. You’re the obvious choice and—

    Swipe.

    Hayden: Dude did you see this shit? I can’t wait when they announce yours and we get to—

    Swipe.

    Lily: Did you see they make me captain before you?

    Lily: ???

    Lily: In two weeks you will be saying “please please captain can I suck your dick”

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    Shane visits Ilya’s Boston penthouse for the first time after they become newly-minted captains.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    “How can Montreal be snowed in?” Ilya asks. “They are not ready for winter?”

    “It’s Montreal, man,” Marleau snickers, like that's an explanation.

    Jane- 9:44 a.m.- Look on the bright side. If you’re stuck another day, you can come back here.

    ________

    After Ilya leaves Shane’s apartment for the first time, he knows he’s on thin ice and at risk of falling into more serious feelings. He’s ready to put distance back between them.

    A Montreal blizzard has other ideas.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    The Voyageurs ask Shane to join FanMail in order to foster a better connection with fans. Internet sleuths start to notice some interesting details in the background of Shane’s videos, and then the internet does...what the internet does.

    Or Shane and Ilya are granted an opportunity to come out on their own terms. Sort of. And in they do it in a very Ilya way. (Surprisingly, it is Shane’s idea)

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    26 Mar 2026

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    “Am I a bad friend?”

    Hayden has always been the guy Shane joked with, the guy he trusted to feed him without mocking him, the guy he roomed with on the road, and Shane is the only man who has ever seen Hayden cry, and Hayden loves Shane. He fucking loves him. They are like brothers, and they have been for almost ten fucking years. He’s always been Shane’s guy, Shane’s best friend.

    Except all along, maybe that wasn’t true. Ilya Rozanov, apparently, had been the guy. Before Hayden had ever met Shane, Ilya Rozanov had been there. And Hayden had never even noticed.

    Shane is all over every inch of Hayden’s life. Hayden thought that was reciprocal.
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    “You know I think about you all the time,
    And my deep misunderstanding of your life,
    And how bad it must have been for you back then,
    And how hard it was to keep it all inside.”

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    25 Mar 2026

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    Telling people about Ilya is an even bigger deal, somehow, because even those few who are fine with Shane being gay have a difficult time with the Rozanov of it all. Shane doesn’t like dwelling on how much it bothers him because… well, it’s inevitable, isn’t it? He’s always gonna have to defend his decision to be with his boyfriend, like Ilya’s not the kindest, strongest, most beautiful person Shane knows. Like he’s not the love of Shane’s life.

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    Or, Shane tells Rose about Ilya.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov sucked cock the way he played hockey.

    Fast and dirty, absolutely ruthless, and most infuriatingly — really fucking good.

    ———
    An angsty blowjob where Ilya and Shane both want the same things.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    He sometimes imagined what might happen if he caught it in his mouth. If he moaned at just the right moment so the tiny gold crucifix would fall into place on his tongue.

    An accident.

    Plausible deniability if Rozanov found it weird.

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    Shane has a lot of feelings about Ilya Rozanov’s necklace.

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    20 Mar 2026

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    A video of Shane sucking Ilya’s dick is leaked. Over the next twenty-four hours, Ilya goes on an odyssey.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    Ilya POV angst, video leaked, guilt and untold feelings.

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    Sarah
    Does anyone have the number for Shane's girl from Boston? I feel bad that they've been seeing each other for this long and we've never added her here.

    Jackie
    Oh good point! Let me ask Hayden.

    Jackie has added Lily to the conversation

    Lily
    what
    what is this

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is, apparently, one of the girls.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    Jane: Do you have to go straight to the hotel?

    Yes, he thinks. I do. I should. We need to stop doing this. None of it changes the fact that Shane is the only person in the world that he wants to see right now. His thumbs hover over the keypad.

    Lily: No.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    We rarely see tender moments between Bulma and Vegeta, but they have been together a long time. At some point they have to speak to each other, and it's most likely after sex when they're lying in bed. This is the story of their relationship told from mostly pillow talk, starting during the three year gap and stretching into their married life.

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    17 Jul 2025

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