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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

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    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    08 Aug 2026

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    Of any reaction Shane expected, it wasn't this.

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    Actually, Yuna does have a problem. Not just with Rozanov, but with the whole thing.

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    04 Aug 2026

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    Shane knows his mother would love him if he left the Metros, but he also knows that he could never give her a reason good enough for him to do so. She'd have an excuse, have a reason, have a way to make any event be something he could handle or deal with. They could probably make him commit murder, and she'd brush it off, let alone if Shane finally got tired of the weirdly racist and definitely homophobic comments that got made daily.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    If Ilya was hurt, Shane would be the last one to find anything out, because on paper, they were nothing to each other. Less than nothing. Officially, they hated each other.

    The thought of Ilya in that position—trapped on the other side of a locked hospital door, frantic, blind, and treated like an intrusive stranger—made his stomach twist with a violent wave of unease.

    He couldn’t do that to him. He wouldn't.

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    In a moment of impulsivity, Shane makes Ilya his legal healthcare proxy. When he's injured in the infamous Boston game, it takes everyone (including Ilya) by surprise.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Where his friend’s curls should have been on the pillow there was a shock of black hair. Instead of Roz’s familiar features he was looking at a face full of freckles, a face that he recognized easily as they had been playing against each other only hours earlier.

    Shane Hollander.

    Shane Hollander was in Ilya Rozanov’s bed.

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    Another Cliff finds out fic.

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    02 Aug 2026

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    Spoilers for The Long Game (Book 6)

    Part 1: Shane speaks his mind at a press conference after tripping in Game 7 against the Centaurs, and being accused by teammates and fans of intentionally losing to favor Ilya.

    Part 2: Ilya's point of view during the game against the Montreal Metros and the team's harsh treatment of Shane, followed by his own bombshell interview and concern for his fiancé.

    Part 3: Yuna Hollander devises a plan to take down the Montreal Metros and the NHL commissioner, while social media rallis in support of Shane and Ilya.

    Part 4 | Weekly Updates
    The fallout from Shane and Ilya’s press conferences reverberates through the sports world. Amidst social media pressure, smear campaigns, the risk of losing my sponsors and facing suspension, Ilya and Shane learn find out they have a support network far greater than they expected.
    AKA, Crowell and the Montreal Metros are getting what they deserve because Ilya doesn't make empty promises and Shane has had enough of their bullshit.

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    01 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander accidentally comes out to his hockey team after years of hiding his sexuality behind carefully crafted personas and unfinished coming out speeches. As the Metros slowly begin icing him out on and off the ice, Shane spirals between rage, grief, and self-discovery—while Ilya refuses to let him forget exactly who he is.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    28 Jul 2026

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    “So,” Cliff starts. “Ottawa.”

    “Ottawa,” Roz repeats, and the way he says it, half-amused, half-quizzical, gives Cliff nothing.

    “It’s not Montreal.”

    Roz looks offended. “Why would I go to fucking Montreal?”

    Cliff shrugs, going for casual. “Montreal Girl? I thought, you know, if you ever go to Canada…”

    Roz scoffs. “You and Montreal girl. You say I am obsessed with her, but is you who always talks about her.”

    “Yeah, because you’re always texting her!”

    “Well, I like to get laid.”

    And there’s Cliff’s opening.

    Or: Cliff has been suspecting that Roz moved to Ottawa for his Montreal girl for a while now. And tonight, they’re going to go out for drinks and he’s finally going to get some answers. Not even two overeager rookies are going to stop him. Except things don’t quite go as Cliff planned and Jane from Montreal is not what he expected.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    I could marry Svetlana.

    A noise built in his head. A steady, growing sound—and the more he thought about what had just happened, the harder it became to hear anything else.

    Another rush of noise pulsed behind his eyes. He twisted the tap to icy cold and splashed his face—the same water he’d praised not long ago, feeling sheepish and suddenly not knowing what to say. But they didn’t need words anymore. He’d thought so.

    His head felt ready to burst. He cupped a handful of water and poured it over his neck, gasping involuntarily. He stood there wet and shaking, water soaking through his shirt. He hated it. He hated how sticky it felt, how it clung to his burning skin—hated it as much as he’d hated that godawful ad shoot where they kept pouring water over him and touching him—

    “Shane?” Ilya’s voice cut through the noise, both in his head and through the bathroom door.

    Leave me alone.

    “Shane, are you okay?”

    Please leave me alone. Please do it now so it doesn’t hurt later.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    There are questions you simply don't ask Ilya Rozanov on live television.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    He had felt the thread between them snap. The taut cord along his chest, anchored around his sternum, relieved of pressure when the other end of the link hit the ice.

    All he could do was watch.

    Watch, as the paramedics hurried onto the ice in a blur of bodies and gear, not making any sound.

    Watch, as a hand held him back from gliding forward to the blue, crimson blur in a sea of white, chasing the phantom of the thread that used to be like muscle memory or an exercise of habit.

    He swallowed once, accompanied by dryness, the taste of dread, and the metallic tinge of overexerted lungs from the cigarettes he had said he’d quit.

    His mouth formed a word, a name. One he had said before in a whisper, and then lost the one attached to it.

    OR: Shane dies during the Boston/Montreal game but he comes back as a ghost.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    Reader Discretion Advised

    Shane Hollander Boards the Metros Bus in Washington - Destination: New York City
    Ilya Rozanov Boards a plane in Ottawa - Destination: Tampa

    Neither will not make it to their destinations for even fate could not let one lover live while the other dies. Especially if those lovers are Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    Shane walked away after Ilya called him by his first name. He didn't look back, he didn't text or call. And life is full of regrets and decisions that cannot be reversed.

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    24 Jul 2026

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    Six months after their Boxing Day breakup, Shane puts the cottage where they once learned to love each other openly up for sale. Ilya buys it anonymously, unable to bear the thought of anyone else living inside the life they built there.

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    23 Jul 2026

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    “Look, I know I’m boring. And lame and… weird. I just… can you not say it? Every time? Or at least not every ten seconds.”

    And suddenly Ilya saw the way Shane was trying to fold in on himself. Like he wanted to hide the parts of his life he had just let Ilya see. Now it looked like he regretted letting Ilya in. Or he expected him to laugh. Or leave.

    He crossed the room.

    “Shane.”

    Shane shook his head once.

    “I’m sorry. Forget it.”

    “No,” Ilya said gently, crouching in front of him. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean it like that. I was teasing. I didn’t realize.” He paused, then said more firmly, “you’re not boring.”

    Shane scoffed under his breath.

    “I mean it,” Ilya said, ducking his head to try to catch his eye. “You’re the most specific person I’ve ever met. It’s fascinating. I love the way your brain works. And the way this house feels like you.”

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    A fluffy/smutty one shot set some time between Tampa and Boston in 2017 where Shane invites Ilya to spend the weekend with him in Montreal.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane has always known that he's different. Bad different too, because kids are cruel in their honesty, especially when you're as talented as Shane is. He even makes peace with it (or pretends to). Alone at the top.

    And then Ilya Rozanov happens. A natural disaster that enchants Shane from the first minute of the first tape. Lightning in a bottle let loose on the ice, and he's so beautiful that Shane wants to cry.

    When they meet for the first time, it's like seeing the sun for the first time, and neither can fight their gravity during draft. Their meeting in the gym changes everything - because Shane is not alone in his obsession, and Ilya never knew how to back down. First names are maybe a lot less scary when you're barely 18 and already halfway in love.

     

    or love at first sight masquerading as teenage obsession. a gym session straight from a boston couch (it makes sense i promise). soulmates (?)

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    19 Jul 2026

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    “You know, there are a lot of kids that look up to you—“

    It’s the refrain of Shane’s life. Everything circles back to this: a lot of kids looking up to you. That’s why you need to spend your summers doing ad campaigns. That’s why you need to let a social media manager handle your every interaction online. That’s why we need to sit here after family dinner with flash cards rehearsing the different ways you’ll answer reporters’ questions after you face Boston next week, and, oh, when we’re done, let’s do some French vocabulary flashcards, too, because it’s important to the Francophone fans that you’re thinking about them. There are lots of Asian Francophones in Quebec, Shane. Almost 13% of primary schoolers are of Asian descent, compared to less than 4% of hockey players. Isn’t that pathetic?

    As if Shane doesn’t know that it’s pathetic. As if Shane doesn’t know what he fought through to get here.

    Abruptly, Shane is furious.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    At their best, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are effervescent, pushing each other to be their most honest, truest selves.

    At their worst, Shane and Ilya are possessive, needy, scorching the earth until they are each other's only remaining pasture.
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    Or: after Shane's hit on the ice, he doesn't get put back together quite the same. Neither does Ilya.
    An exploration of Hollanov at their most toxic and codependent.

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    18 Jul 2026

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    “I didn’t come out today because I owe anyone an explanation. I came out because I refuse to let the man I love stand alone while the world decides his worth. We've spent years hiding and even denying our feelings for one another because we were afraid of what people would say. We thought we were protecting each other. That ends today. I’m done caring about anyone except me and him.”

    *******

    A leaked photo leaves Ilya exposed, and the league wastes no time deciding what to do with him.

    Ilya is willing to lose everything if it means Shane gets to keep his career.

    Shane takes exactly one look at the world trying to shame the man he loves and decides that if Ilya's name is going to be in every headline, his will be too.

    The only thing more dangerous than outing Ilya is giving Shane a reason to fight.

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    16 Jul 2026

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