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    After a mix-up leaves Hayden with the wrong phone for three days, he ends up learning more about Ilya Rozanov and his secret girlfriend, Jane.

    Another Hayden-Finds-Out, because we can't have too many.

    *now with the extra continuing Hayden-Rozanov friendship text threads*

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    29 Jul 2026

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    Cardiac tamponade: pressure on that heart that prevents it from filling and beating adequately.

    Shane thought he knew two things: his move to Ottawa would cause chaos, and that the Ottawa Centaurs were nice.

    As it turned out, he only knew one of those things.

    (Or: the Cens are still a team of professional hockey players. They're going to fuck up.)

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    29 Jul 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    28 Jul 2026

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    The game ends.

    The night doesn’t.

    Shane collapses into sleep, exhausted, unaware of anything that comes after.

    Ilya changes that.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    “Is this about the choking thing?” Shane asks. “I only said no to that because I’m not letting you compromise my fucking airway during sex.”

    “But it is not compromising your airway when my dick is in your throat?”

    “No. This is why you lost today, because that’d be my esophagus, not my trachea,” Shane corrects. He’s such an asshole sometimes, Ilya loves it. “Anyways, I don’t think we do anything kinky?”

    Ilya abruptly feels like he’s lost the plot. “Hollander, I am pretty sure we do.”

    shane has a bad call. afterwards, ilya makes sure he gets what he needs.

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    27 Jul 2026

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    One morning, Ilya wakes up and he can't get out of bed. He knows he should be worried about this, but he can't quite find the energy.

    (Ilya has a bad weekend. Shane is there to help.)

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    24 Jul 2026

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    “Is captain's job to overcome all… factors. He got too full of himself. Never reached his real potential. Is shameful.”

    Okay, this is bullshit. Shane shoots Ilya a look, and the fucker won't still look at him. He also doesn't react to Grigori's words like he's heard them before. Well Shane hasn't and he has a few points he'd like to make. He fucking done being polite. Because what the fuck?

    “Respectfully, I disagree,” says Shane and instantly feels four pairs of eyes on him.

    Or, when Shane meets Ilya's father at an event and hears him shittalk his son, he has a few things to say about it.

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    24 Jul 2026

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  8. Public Bookmark 48

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    "What is this?" Ilya whispered while delicately thumbing the piece of fabric, or rather, a thin strip of silky cloth. It's black and cool to the touch, a little over the length of his arm, and settles on his palm pretty nicely.

    "Um, I—" Shane exhales, and he moves to stride towards Ilya like a man on a mission, despite the hesitant quiver Ilya can see on his expressive eyebrows. He waits for Shane to continue. "I was wondering if…"

    "If?"

    "If you would like me to cover your eyes while I ride you?"

    Shane comes up with a new way to make his and Ilya's sex life spicier. Ilya is happy to indulge him.

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    23 Jul 2026

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    Shane: You all seriously want to do this?

    Shane: Like you know this is going to be on the internet forever, right?

     

    Ilya: Sorry everyone.

    Ilya: He still has this weird sense of self-preservation.

    Ilya: We're working on it.

     

    Bood: Come on, Hollander.

    Bood: It'll be fun!

    Bood: We'll all look like idiots together.

     

    Shane: That's not as comforting as you think it is.

     

    Evan: Is there a limit on the number of rainbows and dicks that can be on the shirt?

    Evan: Asking for the person I'm buying for who maybe definitely is named Shane Hollander.

     

    Shane: I hate all of you.

     

    Ilya: See you at the airport!! ✈️👕🏒

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    23 Jul 2026

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  10. Public Bookmark 32

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    Nestled together on the couch, Ilya breathes slowly in Shane's lap, watching the show on the TV through heavy eyelids. Shane threads his fingers through Ilya's hair slowly. This is perfect. Ilya knows this is perfect, knows this is all he wants. So why does his chest feel so empty?

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    Shane knows exactly how to keep Ilya grounded.

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    23 Jul 2026

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  11. Public Bookmark 52

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    Ilya feels a sharp tug around his throat. It resists for a second, bringing their faces closer before it gives. He sees a tangled mess of gold fall onto the ice and instantly knows what happened. He sees red.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane's breath catches on a sob, and he muffles the sound with his hand. Everything feels like too much. He’s naked, and he can feel entirely too much on his body, inside his body, and he hates how it's starting to feel gross. His head is pounding, and he can't even focus on placating his mind when his lungs are also screaming in his throat for breath.

    Ilya hears, and his hands reach out to hold Shane, tension lying in every part of his body. “Shane—”

    “Don't touch me,” Shane snaps, more desperation than yelling as he rips his arm out of Ilyas's grasp. His tears have nowhere to go now, and they finally spill over, hot and humiliating, down his cheeks.

    Ilya freezes in place, hand hovering mid-air. A myriad of emotions flicker across his face: confusion, hurt, fear. Ilya takes an unconscious step back like someone shoved him. His body curls in on itself, trying to make himself appear smaller.

    He looks... terrified. Like, Shane just called him a monster, and he believes it.

    OR: inspired by the fight in the long game when ilya had told shane he could have sex with other men because he did not believe in cheating.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    “Did Boston Lily send you all these flowers? Shane??” Hayden asks.

    “Um,” Shane says helpfully.

    ——

    Or, Shane gets hurt in the Boston vs. Montreal game. Ilya crashes out and buys all the lilies in Boston for him.

    No one knows about them.

    Except for Ilya’s new florist, who never asked to get involved in dumb hockey boys and their messy drama. Also, Cliff is a good friend.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    The text arrives a second later. Being stuck in the airport is almost as boring as you

    Another text from Lily: Send me a picture. I’m sooooo bored.

    Shane lifts his phone and snaps a photo of the screen above the airline kiosk instead. JFK -> PHX - CANCELED. He hits send.

    The phone rings immediately. “You are at JFK,” Rozanov says. Not a question.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Shane Hollander ✅ @shanehollanderofficial 
    I’ve seen many publications over the years speculating on my own, and my husband’s, hockey stats and accolades in relation to our romantic relationship and when the public assumes it started. 

    We don’t owe this to anyone. But we’ve also been playing professional hockey for seventeen years and we’ve both run out of ahem, cares to give.

    On the right is a photograph from the behind the scenes of our joint CCM advertisement in July of 2010. This photo predates the hundreds of combined accomplishments listed on the left. 

    Oh, and it was also taken about six hours before our first kiss. 

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    or; a year from retirement and out of fucks to give, shane reveals their timeline to twitter in response to the latest speculatory article on their relationship. hollanovs across the world rejoice, centaurs celebrate their beloved dads, and former teammates share the not-so-subtle clues they missed the first time.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    Cliff watches him squeeze the phone between his cheek and shoulder, lifting the jersey over his head as he continues to talk, a bit distracted now by the multitasking.

    “And was good practice, you know, for when I am your husband."

    Immediately, the locker room goes dead silent. And so does Rozanov, in fact.

    In which Ilya accidentally calls himself Shane's future husband in the middle of the Bears locker room. Worse still, they're not even dating yet.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    When Shane Hollander wakes up in a world that never invented hockey, the only other person who remembers is Ilya Rozanov.

    (Set in August 2012 – a year and a half after their last hookup, during the flirtatious-texts montage.)

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    20 Jul 2026

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    In which Shane Hollander is sick, and Ilya Rozanov is the only one who notices he's not himself

    “How…you’re calling him Shane, you…how do you know…”

    Ilya isn’t sure how much he wants to say, needs to say, in order to get Pike to do something, he doesn’t want to out Shane, doesn’t want to take that choice from him, but no one is listening.

    “I’m…” Shane can hate him, Shane can hate him as long as he’s himself, as long as he’s Shane again, “I’m Boston Lily.”

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    20 Jul 2026

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    Six months after their Boxing Day breakup, Shane puts the cottage where they once learned to love each other openly up for sale. Ilya buys it anonymously, unable to bear the thought of anyone else living inside the life they built there.

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    20 Jul 2026

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