sweetspiderstew
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let your heart be weary on a bed of petals, my love by sweetspiderstew
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 May 2026
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Ilya Rozanov knows what a depressive episode looks like. He's expecting the empty house, he's expecting the losing team, he's expecting the dirty dishes piling up.
He does not expect the flowers.
Or, a story of love, depression, and belonging, and the wonderful act of getting flowers.
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you talk about our home, but we're fictional to me by sweetspiderstew
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston, Red White & Royal Blue (2023)
11 Mar 2024
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“-is ridiculous,” Alex mumbles, because even if he is a second away from passing out, he’ll have something to say, and Henry loves him for it. For all the silence that Henry has fostered for years, out of the confidence that filling it with anything else would tear his carefully curated life down, Alex was the sole counteract. “It doesn’t matter. Our house will never have a tufted headboard-”
Henry almost chokes.
Frankly, he can barely remember what they were discussing and what it is that Alex continues to speak about as if he had not just stitched together every broken fragment of Henry’s chest and torn it out, too.
Our house.
_____________________________________________________________________________________In which Henry realizes that Alex is falling in love even before the trip to Austin.
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i had a feeling so peculiar by sweetspiderstew
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
02 Feb 2024
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Trouble sleeping?”
He ignores the voice for a few moments before turning to look at Nick Fury. “I slept for seventy years, sir. I think I've had my fill.”
“Then you should be out, celebrating, seeing the world.”
He’s tired of that sentiment. Everyone wants him to go on an adventure and live the wildest life he can as if he hasn’t lost his sense of purpose, or as if he’s not going to wake up drenched at an ungodly hour in the night. Celebrate what, exactly? His return from the dead?
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This is a story of anger, grief and acceptance, pain and solace. Featuring Steve Rogers and Co. In which, Steve lied on his enlistment form about more than one thing and he's absolutely not 27.
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- Part 1 of This dream isn't feeling sweet
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Angelic Troublemakers by sweetspiderstew
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
26 Feb 2022
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In which Steve Rogers finds out about LGBTQ+ rights and the team is there for him. Oh, and it happens in the public eye.
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How can I say this without breaking? by sweetspiderstew
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Captain America (Movies)
09 Aug 2021
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Steve my-middle-name-is-stubborn Rogers feels no pain at all. Or at least, he shouldn't. Right? The serum must have fixed him, surely?
5 times an Avenger finds Steve in pain and tells him it's okay + 1 time they all take care of him. Lots and lots of Whump.
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- Part 2 of This dream isn't feeling sweet
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This dream isn't feeling sweet by sweetspiderstew
Fandom Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
02 Feb 2024
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When Steve Rogers wakes up in the 21st century, he finds that the world had moved on by placing Captain America on a pedestal that he doesn't think he can even scratch the surface of - Captain America is the symbol of hope and bravery and all things good, while Steve is lost, confused, and has had to fight tooth and nail to get where he is. Which includes lying on enlistment forms about everything but his name, so that includes his age.
This dream isn't feeling sweet,
We're reeling through the midnight streets,
And I've never felt more alone
It feels so scary getting oldSteve Rogers was a teenager when he became Captain America. He woke up an adult. But luckily, he isn't as alone as he thinks. This is a series of fics of a Young Steve navigating the world and his sense of self with the help of his new family.
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I Wanna Be Somebody To Someone (Someone To You) by stabthroughme
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
21 Apr 2026
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Vegas, MLH Awards, 2014: Ilya Rozanov wins MVP and decides to make Shane Hollander experience Vegas.
Boston, November, 2016: Ilya calls Shane his husband while making him a tuna melt. Weeks later he's traded to New York.
New York, March, 2017: Scott Hunter is forced to realize he is incredibly fond of Ilya Rozanov, and knowing what he does, Shane Hollander is on really fucking thin ice.
or: the fic where Ilya and Shane get married in 2014 and Ilya is forced to care about Scott when he's traded to New York in 2016. So he noticed things. And he's there, on the ice, when Scott kisses Kip for the whole world to see.
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- Part 14 of In The Loonie Bin (Mars' Hollanov Fics)
- Part 1 of Vegas/Admirals Ilya
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- English
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21 May 2026
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What It Means to Leave (What It Means to Stay) by inkstainzed
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 May 2026
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The club is like one big entity, pulsing and alive and intense. Shane recalls the bleached hair of the woman who was dancing up on Ilya— his love, the man he loves, the man he ran away from— and the way he looked at Shane while it was happening. Ilya didn't look happy. He looked painfully resentful, if anything. The color of the lights flashing across Ilya's pale skin and his classic, hardened, slavic stare; the one that intimidated most people, but made Shane weak in the knees. The way his shirt hugged his muscles (his biceps, specifically), and the way Shane loved to bite into them while Ilya folded him into positions Shane didn't even know he was flexible enough to do—
Fuck.
Then, Shane recalls the pain in Ilya's striking, pleading cerulean eyes. The pain that Shane had put there, and then left him behind with.
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Ilya feels helpless to the love that Shane denies him. Somewhere in Montreal at a night club, Ilya ends up losing his autonomy, and almost loses his life along with it.Bookmarked by sweetspiderstew
15 May 2026
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Unpicked and Restitched (apart and back together) by Captain Grayson (Ada_Parker)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
12 Apr 2026
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Then Scott Hunter looked at him, really looked at him with no panic or consternation or grief, just something heavy and piercing that made Ilya feel like his heart was on the outside of his ribcage. “Be safe out there, okay?”
“Okay,” Ilya said, softer than intended.
In real life, they both turned around and walked away into the night. But in Ilya’s memory, that never happens. They just stand there, eye-to-eye, until the sun comes up and it’s too bright to see anything else.
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- Part 1 of Unpicked and Restitched (All Works)
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- English
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15 May 2026
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Are You Good at Staying Still? by canarycries
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
28 Apr 2026
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All Ilya has ever wanted is to be someone worth staying for.
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Shane leaves Ilya alone in the aftermath of the tuna melt, which causes a depressive spiral. Set in a slightly different universe where Noah Kahan's "The Great Divide" album already exists.
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08 May 2026
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i grew up with a feeling, that what's good must be fleeting by burntoutbandito
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
29 May 2026
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“you absolutely made a face.”
“i did not.”
“you looked like someone told you life was worth living.”
ilya snorted so suddenly he almost inhaled foam, causing shane to look delighted with himself.
dangerous, ilya thought, staring down into his cup. this boy was dangerous
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ilya rozanov secretly escapes his father and brother in russia, and seeks refuge at a university on ottawa. he meets shane hollander, and realizes he might finally be allowed to have something good.