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    “I used to be so mad that she was gone sometimes, but it’s okay. I forgive her. I would forgive her every time.”

    Something in Yuna’s eyes fractures, like a bird bone under the sole of a shoe. “Your mother is very lucky, then.”

    “Yuna,” Ilya says, and he tries very hard to not look at Shane, to not see the unforgiving, enduring hurt in his eyes when he looks over at his mother, so far away from her that he can’t come home, even though he desperately wants to. He looks at Yuna instead, and somehow, even as he braces against the ice-cold concrete and lets the sound of the whistling wind settle in his ears and has been looking at her for a long time now, he finds himself entirely unprepared for familiar Yuna’s eyes will be when she turns her gaze from the distant streetlamp to him. “You’re very lucky too.”

     

    Shane Hollander is a ghost with a comatose body that won't work, unable to move on because his mom won't come visit him. Ilya Rozanov is the only person who can see and hear him, and against all odds, this is still a love story.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Lily: need a bedtime story?

    Jane: Fuck you.

    Jane: Yes.

    Lily: why don’t you ask your girlfriend this time?

    Shane’s typing bubble pops in and out again, the way he does when he’s overthinking a message. That alone is enough confirmation for Ilya to get half-hard.

    Jane: Maybe I will.

    Lily: say hi for me

    Rose is Hollywood’s favourite doll. Shane likes to organize his toys by shape and colour. And Ilya’s never been good at sharing.

    (Or: Instead of breaking up, Shane and Rose become each other’s beards.)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    The more desperate you are, the easier it is to slip up, and then you lose more control, and you become even more desperate. It's a vicious cycle. The issue is, Hollander seems kind. And here’s the problem with kind people: when backed into a corner, they tend to hurt themselves instead of others.

    illegal gambling / underground fight club AU

    Shane has a background in boxing and needs to make a lot of money fast and Ilya isn't a gang leader, but he sure as hell seems like one sometimes.

    (angst and smut included)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Jamais Vu: The opposite of deja vu. The illusion that a familiar thing is being experienced for the first time.

    Or, When Shane gets hit on the ice, Ilya tries to go see him, but he's not allowed in. One year later, Ilya gets a text from 'Jane' with nothing but an address, an apology, and an invitation...

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    17 Jun 2026