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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    L: you up?
    J: Against my better judgment, yes.

    Short sexting fic with NSFW art. Seriously it’s NSFW.

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    Chapters:
    1/1
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    13 Jun 2026

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

    Or

    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    11/11
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    13 Jun 2026

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    The Swiss National League doesn’t care about the legendary Hollander-Rozanov rivalry. When the MLH can’t negotiate with the Hockey Players’ Union in time to prevent a hockey lockout at the start of the 2015 season, the Zürich Lions jump at the chance to sign both Shane and Ilya to short-term contracts. For four months in Switzerland, they share a team, a line, a house, and a bed. 

    Then the lockout ends in January, and it’s time to go back. Back to different countries, cities, lives. Beds.

    Reentry is harder than expected.

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    Chapters:
    4/4
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    04 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander can handle twenty thousand screaming fans, high-stakes games, and the kind of pressure that never really lets up.

    He cannot, however, handle preschool drop-off.

    Fortunately, Teacher Ilya can.

    (It involves a stuffed bunny, a city with no mayor, and maybe something more.)

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    24/24
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    04 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    Chapters:
    14/14
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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander has been Ilya Rozanov’s manager for nearly a decade. But when Shane suddenly announces his resignation, Ilya is forced to confront some truths about their relationship.

    Like the fact that he may have been secretly in love with Shane the entire time they’ve worked together.

    or: Shane is clinically oblivious, Ilya is about to commit HR violations worthy of Olympic gold, and everyone else kind of thought they were already hooking up (wait, they’re not hooking up?).

    Sports Manager!Shane x Hockey Player!Ilya
    🗓️Two Weeks Notice inspired AU

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    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
    546
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    3,787
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    86,258

    30 May 2026

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    Tampa, Florida. Room 1217.

    In between fade out and fade in, Ilya Rozanov lets the fire burn and Shane Hollander lets the storm surge.

    A few hours in a hotel room can change you.

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    29 May 2026

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    Sveta
    Help me
    I am in love with a virgin

    Ilya was exaggerating for comic effect, of course. He wasn’t in love with Shane Hollander. He was just absolutely infatuated with him and wanted to carry him around in his pocket and also fuck him senseless and then count his freckles while he slept beside him. So not love, just whatever that was, but still. It was a problem.

    Or,
    A newly-drafted Ilya Rozanov finds himself transfixed by a beautiful man in the grocery store.

    A newly-single Shane Hollander does something uncharacteristically brave.

    Neither of them are prepared for just how out of their depth they're about to be.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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    Chapters:
    4/4
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    25 May 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
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    20 May 2026

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    Rose Landry has never had an orgasm. It's just never happened for her: a fact of life, trivia about her body she leaves off the casting sheet. After her break-up with another (gay) co-star, she goes along with Svetlana's suggestion to hook up with Boston forward Cliff Marleau. And suddenly, her body is open to possibilities. Told over a series of Hollanov holidays and family gatherings, Rose and Cliff tumble in and out of each other's beds and hearts. Is it casual now?

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    Chapters:
    6/6
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    17,224

    02 May 2026

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    Shane is drunk, concussed, and hiding in a phone booth when he calls the only number he knows by heart.

    The man who answers is not Hayden Pike.

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    02 May 2026

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    “Is my favourite thing.” Ilya murmurs.

    The rain has started to slow down a little. Barely any lightning strikes anymore. Soon, the sky will clear.

    “What is?” Shane asks.

    Ilya brings their joined hands up to his face and presses a small, tired smile to the back of Shane’s hand. “You and me.”

    (or: they’re best friends who go on a roadtrip together.)

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    01 May 2026

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    It’d made his skin warm all over again, knowing how the bruises had gotten there, thinking about it. Fucking like animals outside because they couldn’t make it indoors, couldn’t wait to get clean before they’d needed each other too badly and nature had run its course.

    Shane’s entire life is control, control, control. This thing—with sweat and teeth and no definable rules, unravels him in a way that he would never have thought to expect.

    .
    .
    .

    Or, revelations on the table and a looming two week timer counting down, Shane and Ilya spend some time navigating intimacy more freely than ever before.

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    15 Apr 2026

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    Ilya shrugs and runs his hand from Shane’s waist down to his ass and back up. “But you are so good at it. What is English saying? Having it with science?”

    “Having it down to a science.”

    “Exactly. Some things come natural to you, yes? Doing your bottom prep stuff. Taking my cock. You are perfect bottom. Made to be bottom. You love to be bottom.”

    “I do. I love it.” Shane swallows, reminded of exactly where he is and what he’s doing, a cautiously confident smile on his face as he starts to ride more with his legs than his hips. “And you thought I would throw it all away for some Taco Bell.”

     

    OR; shane hollander's foolproof bottom prep routine and how his lovely boyfriend takes care of him

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    Comments:
    443
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    10,983
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    152,744

    23 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing. Can still be read.)

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    Chapters:
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    Comments:
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    17,941
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    13 Mar 2026

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    After the “we didn’t even kiss” incident, Shane finds himself yearning for soft, appreciative love. He finds that in an unexpected person, and from there they navigate through sexuality and personal growth with patience.

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    Chapters:
    3/?
    Comments:
    4
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    38
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    1,304

    13 Mar 2026

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    Ilya has it all. Until it comes crashing down. After a terrible car accident that leaves him with a career ending injury, he finds himself trying to find light in the darkest place he's ever been.

    Until his physical therapist helps him heal in ways he never imagined.

    Shane is stuck. No, not stuck. Lost. And he's coming to the realization that in the midst of putting everyone else first, he's lost sight of who he really is.

    With the help of a darkened ex NHL player, maybe he can figure everything out. Maybe he can finally unleash a part of him that he didn't even realize was there.

    Language:
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    Words:
    106,112
    Chapters:
    12/12
    Comments:
    111
    Kudos:
    306
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    199
    Hits:
    14,844

    08 Mar 2026

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