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What good is a soldier without a war to fight?
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Dean, adrift without Cas in a world that doesn't remember ending and desperately refusing to believe in the hope Jack offers, stumbles out of hunting and into a life he's absolutely not equipped for -- except for how it might just be the one thing that can keep him together.
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02 Jul 2026
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Cas dies and Dean starts referring to himself as a widower. This is somewhat confusing for everyone involved.
(Inspired by *that* tumblr post; linked in notes)
(Canon MCD not tagged because it's temporary)
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01 Jul 2026
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Cas dies on a Thursday.
Two weeks later, Dean leaves the bunker. It’s Thursday.Or:
A study on grief through the eyes of Dean Winchester.Series
- Part 1 of Imagine being loved by me
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01 Jul 2026
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It’s—God, everything is so—Dean’s supposed to be this all-knowing guy. This gifted savior come to fix all that got screwed over before. But the longer he’s allowed to make choices and the longer he squeezes himself into this body that doesn’t fit him anymore, the more he feels like he’s just not cut out for it.
He's not smart enough for this. Not creative or artistic enough—if the past were made out of clay, vulnerable to whatever shape Dean’s hands are capable of making, then he thinks the past might take the shape of a gun. He imagines the timeline crumpling in his hands to the metaphorical barrel end of it, a dark tunnel waiting for the inevitable explosion to go off by his calloused fingers.
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Or: During the rapture, in a moment of hopelessness, Jack sends Dean back to 2015 on a mission: Kill God. Only, he gets the day wrong and Dean pops up in 2008, freshly out of hell with too much baggage and not a clue how to stop Chuck. He also struggles with accountability (or lack thereof). But what else is new.
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25 Jun 2026
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It almost feels like, if Dean went to sleep right now, he could get it back. Like he would slip right back into the dream, and it would pick up where it left off. But Dean doesn’t even want to, now that he can see that world for what it is: a cheap hallucination, poking at all his weaknesses, going right for the soft underbelly Dean never shows.
All that work. All that work Dean had done over the past few weeks, trying to numb himself and act like he’d forgotten about it. And now it feels like the Empty took Cas all of five minutes ago, all over again.
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A post-15x19, forty one year-old Dean gets a taste of what twenty seven year-old Dean went through in 2x20, “What Is and What Should Never Be,” and sees how the shape of his own happiness has changed. Then life goes on, same as it ever was—except for the dreams he starts having at all hours of the day, and a familiar voice on the phone that's starting to sound a little too real.
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20 Jun 2026
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Sam and Dean don’t have a mom to celebrate on Mother’s Day - they just have a Bobby.
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04 Jun 2026
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Should Have Known When We Began by Feargach, violethoure666
Fandom Supernatural (TV 2005)
27 Apr 2026
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28 May 2026
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When Cas comes back from the Empty, Dean has to rethink everything about their relationship, and Dean’s new, post-Chuck duty.
He wants Cas to be happy and get what he wants. So, if he wants Dean, then he has him. Dean’s new responsibility is to be the best boyfriend Cas will ever want or need. If that means moving out of the bunker, and not driving the Impala, and letting Cas fuck him, then that’s what he has to do.
It’s an easy deal. It should be an easy life. So how come Dean still can’t quite make sense of it?
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17 May 2026
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whatbaby
[checks post history] uh… is this the m30s friend that everyone thought was your boyfriend?LiketheGun79
Yes but that's not relevantDean's on Reddit.
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09 May 2026
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“Are you serious, Dean? Your djinn-dream started with you dying?” Sam asks incredulously from the passenger seat on the way back to the bunker.
“Well, technically it started with us going on a hunt,” Dean points out. He licks his lips, jaw clenching. “I mean, there was Heaven, too, and that was pretty cool.”
Sam stares at him. “Unbelievable,” he breathes, scrunching his face up in distaste. When Dean glares at him, he holds his hands up defensively and chuckles weakly. “Sorry, man, but that just sounds pretty lame.” He leans back and folds his arms. “It just…I dunno. Kinda sounds like something Chuck would cook up. Just you and me. No one else. I mean, really?” He scoffs, slumping.
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In which some people come back, Cas learns to be human (the right way, this time), Dean Winchester finally realizes that good things do happen, and they all get their version of the post-credits, apple-pie life they deserved.
AKA: Screw Chuck's narrative.
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08 May 2026
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Castiel learns that Dean is considered widely beautiful, but for reasons he doesn't quite understand. When he attempts to learn more, it doesn't go the way he planned. Dean does not take it well.
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05 May 2026
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Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.
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The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes.
"Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me."
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01 May 2026
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Charlie sets her beer down hard on the counter, making him flinch. “Are you trying to invent a problem?” she asks incredulously.
“What? No, dude, I’m telling you—”
“Your boyfriend turned down sex twice, once because you were concussed and your arm was broken, and once because he was about to drive out of state to help your brother,” Charlie summarises, brutal and unrelenting. “And you think that, what? You can never ask him for sex again because of that?”
Dean’s been playing catch-up his entire life, and he’s still figuring out the whole “asking for what I want” thing.
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27 Apr 2026
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The thing is, he knows. He’s known.
Or: If someone tells you they love you and you don’t say it back, how much worse can a little sleeping with them possibly make things, really?
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25 Apr 2026
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“Since these glasses are scorched in holy fire, the hellhounds wouldn’t be the only thing you can see with them”, he explains quietly, an uncertainty in his voice that is so unfamiliar that it makes Dean nervous.
“Okay? Care to elaborate that?”
“My wings, Dean. You will be able to see my wings.”
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While hunting a hellhound, Cas gets weirdly nervous around Dean wearing the hellhound glasses. Turns out, hellhounds are not the only things Dean can see with them. And if he doesn't put them down once they relieve the after hunt tension, well, that's not exclusively his fault.
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24 Apr 2026
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Cas is back from the Empty, human, and convinced that his relationship with Dean is unsalvagable. Can Dean get his shit together in time to prove otherwise?
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Cas felt his heart racing as Dean approached.
Then Dean’s arms were around him. Cas wanted to live forever in that moment of closeness.
Which lasted all of four seconds.
Dean drew away quickly, and Cas swayed on his feet, unbalanced.
Dean gave him two pats on the shoulder.
“Good to have you back, buddy,” he said, his voice flat and mechanical.
Cas was dying all over again.
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23 Apr 2026
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Dean saves Castiel from the Empty, but that fixes nothing.
You do not walk into the void with a human soul and emerge unaltered.
You do not walk into the void with a human soul, period.
But Dean did. Worse, Dean did it for Castiel. To rescue him. Out of friendship, fraternity. Out of love. Just—not the right kind.
Perhaps it's wrong of him, perhaps it's unfair and petty and all-too-human, but.
Castiel resents him for it.
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23 Apr 2026
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06 Apr 2026
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Dean listens to Nina Simone, reads Anne Carson, and makes out with a dude (sort of).
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13 Mar 2026
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“What else was I supposed to say, Sam?” Dean asks him. “I’m not...look, Cas is my best friend, and I care about him. That’s it.”
“And you renovated a house for him,” Sam continues. “And live with him.”
or: a year in the life, in which it takes some time, but they figure it out
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18 Feb 2026