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    What good is a soldier without a war to fight?

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    Dean, adrift without Cas in a world that doesn't remember ending and desperately refusing to believe in the hope Jack offers, stumbles out of hunting and into a life he's absolutely not equipped for -- except for how it might just be the one thing that can keep him together.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    Cas dies and Dean starts referring to himself as a widower. This is somewhat confusing for everyone involved.

    (Inspired by *that* tumblr post; linked in notes)

    (Canon MCD not tagged because it's temporary)

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    01 Jul 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 5

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    Cas dies on a Thursday.
    Two weeks later, Dean leaves the bunker. It’s Thursday.

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    A study on grief through the eyes of Dean Winchester.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    It’s—God, everything is so—Dean’s supposed to be this all-knowing guy. This gifted savior come to fix all that got screwed over before. But the longer he’s allowed to make choices and the longer he squeezes himself into this body that doesn’t fit him anymore, the more he feels like he’s just not cut out for it.

    He's not smart enough for this. Not creative or artistic enough—if the past were made out of clay, vulnerable to whatever shape Dean’s hands are capable of making, then he thinks the past might take the shape of a gun. He imagines the timeline crumpling in his hands to the metaphorical barrel end of it, a dark tunnel waiting for the inevitable explosion to go off by his calloused fingers.

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    Or: During the rapture, in a moment of hopelessness, Jack sends Dean back to 2015 on a mission: Kill God. Only, he gets the day wrong and Dean pops up in 2008, freshly out of hell with too much baggage and not a clue how to stop Chuck. He also struggles with accountability (or lack thereof). But what else is new.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    It almost feels like, if Dean went to sleep right now, he could get it back. Like he would slip right back into the dream, and it would pick up where it left off. But Dean doesn’t even want to, now that he can see that world for what it is: a cheap hallucination, poking at all his weaknesses, going right for the soft underbelly Dean never shows.

    All that work. All that work Dean had done over the past few weeks, trying to numb himself and act like he’d forgotten about it. And now it feels like the Empty took Cas all of five minutes ago, all over again.

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    A post-15x19, forty one year-old Dean gets a taste of what twenty seven year-old Dean went through in 2x20, “What Is and What Should Never Be,” and sees how the shape of his own happiness has changed. Then life goes on, same as it ever was—except for the dreams he starts having at all hours of the day, and a familiar voice on the phone that's starting to sound a little too real.

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    20 Jun 2026