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On the way up the stairs, leaning almost all his weight on Dean while trying to force his legs to manage the next step (and the next, and the next) without falling, Sam asks Dean where he gets all the handkerchiefs.
“You use it?” he mutters when Dean doesn't answer.
“Hmm?” Dean grunts as Sam fumbles the second-to-last step, dipping to catch his not-so-little brother before he face-plants.
“You, uh...” Words. Sam forces them out through the fog in his brain and the laziness of his tongue. “You like, blow your nose on it?”
Dean doesn't respond, and just barely manages to put off the conversation they should be having until they get home.
Episode tag for 10x19 The Werther Project.
I was kind of shocked by Sam's readiness to die in this episode, and even more shocked by the fact that neither Dean nor the show itself chose to really address it. As you can see, I took things into my own hands.
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- Part 4 of While You Were Sleeping
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22 Jul 2026
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There's a Hole in My Life, I Wish I Could Fill It (With Anything But You) by orphan_account
Fandoms: Supernatural
05 Aug 2013
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Sam and Dean got together when Sam was sixteen, but Sam figures out pretty quickly that it's not exactly what he wanted. Sex can be used as a tool just like anything else can. When the world-saving fight is over, Sam still wants his brother, but knows he can never have him again. But when Dean asks to start their relationship again, Sam takes drastic measures to ensure what happened last time will never happen again. This story does deal with dubious levels of consent, but I promise you that by the end everyone is happy and enthusiastically consenting.
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22 Jul 2026
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With the hunters from apocalypse-world taking shelter in the bunker and Sam becoming somewhat of a leading figure, Dean gets to see quite a different side to his little brother.
One night, Dean gets to see yet another.
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20 Jul 2026
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"On a worn-down mattress, a very human-looking frame sits curled up in the left corner, some lumpy thing tugged around it. Long shaggy hair curtaining its face, and a pair of hazel-eyes peer through them, straight at Dean.
It’s wearing worn jeans and a short-sleeved shirt, clothes which surely have seen better days.
“What the fuck? You got yourself a … what is he?” Dean tilts his head and grimaces. He knows psychics, is aware what they’re capable of. But Gordon would never dare to use a human being, right?
That’d be Dean’s – probably only – boundary he won’t ever overstep.
“A freak. Bound to demons, but not quite one,” Gordon explains, “and no, before you ask. It’s not a psychic. – We don’t do shit to humans.”"- Language:
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20 Jul 2026
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In a universe where dominance and submission shape the world, Dean and Sam have always fit together like instinct.
When Dean comes back from Purgatory, the bond between them isn’t broken but it isn’t whole either. What follows is jealousy, discipline, and the painful rebuilding of a bond that never should have cracked.
But in a world built on power exchange, rebuilding trust doesn’t happen through force, it happens through steady hands, soft praise, and choosing each other again.
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20 Jul 2026
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All he knows is that there was a blue light, and then he wasn't the same. As the brothers try to figure out what exactly happened to Sam, and who was responsible for it, they will have to deal with an interesting, albeit frustrating, new situation. Will Sam's new curves feed an affection that Dean will be unable to tame? If they cross that line, what happens to this girl who is not supposed to exist? And, most importantly, what happens to the real Sam, Dean's brother, trapped in her body, looking through her eyes...?
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20 Jul 2026
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When Benny got involved with Sam, somehow, he didn't figure on the brothers being quite this involved in each other's lives...
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- Part 332 of Tumblr Fics
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19 Jul 2026
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Together We Can Make It to the End of the Line by Zetal (Rodinia)
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
07 May 2022
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Five times interactions put Benny, Dean, and Sam on the wrong page, and one time where they get it together.
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- Part 26 of SPN Rare Ships Short Events
- Part 37 of May Tropes Mayhem
- Part 24 of Sam Creations Bingo
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19 Jul 2026
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A Coda to Episode 13x21 that I wrote after I saw this comment by HazelDomain on Tumblr:
Sam
Fixed up good as new by an archangel
Limping into camp because….?
Or, how did Lucifer "convince" Sam to come with him to the camp site?
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19 Jul 2026
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What he wants from Sam isn’t wrong, not exactly, but it rests at the precipice of wrongness, one gentle nudge might send him over and beyond. He only wants to live their lives ensnared by each other, half-feral as they’ve always been, in want of nothing and no one else and owing nothing to the world. He’s ready to risk letting it all burn if it means he can hold onto Sam a little longer. He’s never bothered asking why.
(except now time and circumstance forces Dean to recognize he's in love with his brother)
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19 Jul 2026
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Shortly before they ganked Dick Roman Sam became pregnant. He either knew and didn't tell Dean because he didn't want to give Dean any more pressure or he had no idea at all. The stress and trauma of seeing Dean and Cas disappear along with Crowley taking off with Kevin sends Sam into a downward spiral. The added stress from hitting Riot causes Sam to have a miscarriage. Sam spends time recovering physically, but not emotionally, with Amelia who knows not to ask about the baby.
When Dean gets back and reams Sam out for not looking for him, Sam can't bring himself to tell Dean what happened. He thinks Dean will blame him for losing their kid and that it'll be the final straw. Maybe Sam sneaks out to visit the grave and Dean follows, but up to the author how Dean finds out. Cue guilty!Dean and hurt!Sam who has to relive the painful memories from the last year.
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18 Jul 2026
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The one where Demon Dean tortures Sam and regrets it. That's pretty much it.
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18 Jul 2026
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you will find him even when he is not there by LogicalBookThief
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
29 Oct 2024
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"What could possibly make you stop just like that?"
Sam anticipated this. Because there must be a reason Sam quit, why he'd forsake the family business, even when the rest of the family was dead and gone. Wanting to be safe or normal doesn't cut it anymore, not after Hell, and the Cage, and Leviathans.
"A girl?" Dean prods, digging fingers into wounds Sam’s still visibly nursing. Knowing he's hit a pressure point, Dean latches on, unceasing: "Was there a girl?"
For a moment, Sam imagines the truth. The sweet, fleeting satisfaction of bursting that bubble. Imagines if he told his brother: No. There was a boy.
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AU of S8 where Sam falls in love with someone else, until the relationship takes an uncomfortably familiar turn.Bookmarked by ctlalways
17 Jul 2026
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Words don't always carry the same meaning when translated into another language. The same goes for Enochian, and the words Sam screams in the throes of his flashbacks detail anguish and pain and the hopeless begging brought on by repeated violation.
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(Castiel bears witness to the horrors of Sam's cage trauma, and he's determined to help Sam associate Enochian with gentleness and love instead).** on hiatus until August just because 1) working away from home and 2) very sick (again) — apologies and tysm for patience <33
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17 Jul 2026
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After failing to complete the trials and close the gates to Hell, Sam is left in a weakened state, the ritual putting him just shy of death's door. Dean steps up to take care of his ailing brother, but Sam senses there's something off with the whole situation, something he can't quite put his finger on. Sickly and isolated, Sam tugs on the threads of doubt, and soon his life of recovery in the bunker—and his brother's sanity—start unraveling around him.
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17 Jul 2026
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Down here, Sam can be a father, if Lucifer lets him.
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16 Jul 2026
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You Called It Love, I Called It Torture by GalaxyThreads, SpiritClusters
Fandoms: Supernatural
18 Dec 2020
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It takes Dean a couple weeks after Gardeel to realize the extent of how very, very deeply he messed up letting the angel possess Sam.
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16 Jul 2026
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Sam comes, asleep and sick, to his hair being pulled. Dean cares in all the wrong ways.
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16 Jul 2026
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While transporting relics from John's old storage to the Men of Letters bunker the Winchesters lose an item with disastrous results.
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16 Jul 2026
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He wants this, wants to belong to Sam, who Dean loves; let everything burn to ash if it’ll give him a minute’s break. Because Dean’s just some guy on the street, some brother, and he’s got it in him to be selfish.
Got only one God to repent to.
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Dean, Sam, and those moments when what you worship tries to abandon you.
(Set sometime in early Season 11)
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16 Jul 2026