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    In the beginning, suggesting Ilya move to Ottawa seemed to be a bridge over a previously unpassable body of water. It felt like a lifeline, a breath of air after drowning for years upon years. Maybe it was, at first. Shane got to have it all, everything he wanted. But despite his willingness to go along with whatever Shane wants, he can tell it’s been weighing on Ilya. He’d given up everything, and Shane can feel how lonely he is. He can see his bright eyes dimming, his laugh growing hollow; he’s withering away while Shane is emptying everything he has into a sport that can never love him back the way Ilya does.
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    Two years after Ilya moves to Ottawa, Shane decides he's worth more than anything Montreal can give him. He won't let Ilya be the only one who makes sacrifices for their relationship. But he doesn't know that Ilya has been struggling, secretly and in silence. And now the only question is if Shane is too late.
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    An alternative version of Shane changing teams and deciding to move to Ottawa willingly, on his own accord, without being outed. He and Ilya are honest with each other - but not before a bit of angst ensues.
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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Mmm. You want it bad,” Ilya purrs, teeth grazing the column of his throat.

    “Yeah,” Shane whines, hating how petulant it sounds. A fresh flare of determination rises up in response. “Just give it to me. Ilya. I can—just go hard. Just make it fit.”

    Ilya laughs quietly, incredulously. It’s hot against Shane’s ear. “Make it fit."

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    Or: in the midst of a stressful season, Shane's a little... out of practice. He's not gonna let that stop him getting what he wants.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya gets his bell rung while playing for Ottawa against Montreal

    He forgets how to speak English and can only speak Russian

    Luckily, Shane Hollander, the light of his life, has learned Russian

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    21 Jun 2026

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    After Shane films an obscenely slutty advertisement for a sports drink company, the whole goddamn world decides he’s their new favorite sex symbol. Ilya reacts perfectly normally to this latest development.

    Or, 5 times Ilya is consumed with jealousy over his own fucking boyfriend + 1 time Shane shows him who he really belongs to.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane is made to be worshiped; he's a luxury. He’s perfect. A bona fide godsend. He shouldn’t have to deal with this. He shouldn’t have to lose sleep putting the pieces of him back together in the middle of the night. He deserves better than him; of course, he does. He deserves the world.

    Ilya needs to make it worth it. He needs to remind him what Shane was so captivated by in the early phase of their relationship. Shane fell in love with the flirtatious, bold, confident athlete who could make Shane swoon with a single kiss. Not this burdensome, troubled crybaby who had become, to his great humiliation, emotionally dependent on Shane.

    Make it worth it, Ilya tells himself.

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    (Takes place after the events of 'The Long Game')

    Ilya has a nightmare. Shane helps calm him down and soothes some fears that have been plaguing him at the same time.

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    11 Jun 2026