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"We're okay?"
"We're okay."
"We're back?"
"We're back." Though she knows nothing of what they're back to, what it means to be back with each other, or that they had even owned a time in their relation that they'd call a 'back' (she knows what it could mean; she knows its core-meaning, all despite).
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Sydney's a cook. Sydney is also in terrible, terrible trouble.
Or, Sydney finds Carmen’s sketchbook.
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16 Apr 2024
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Stories that deal with cycles of grief and hope as experienced by different characters, told in flashbacks.
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03 Apr 2024
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"Do that thing,” she demands quietly. “With the hands."
Carmen raises a brow at her as he looks down at her hand hovering in front of him. "The thing with the hands?"
"Hand sandwich."
He breathes out a laugh as he folds both of his own above and below hers. "With white bread?"
Sydney grins. "Nutella filling?"
"Ahh, the after school deluxe."
"Glass of milk on the side," Sydney muses.
"Fucking fire."
"Absolutely elite."
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In which Sydney finally goes ice skating.
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- Part 6 of cycles
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02 Apr 2024
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“What?” Luca asks.
“Nothing, just…you’ve got me thinking. About Ever,” Carmen confesses. “Don’t know how much longer I can stay in Copenhagen feeding a cat that’s probably either dead or lost.”
Luca’s never stayed on the boat, but he’s heard the stories, and a smile pulls at his lips as he shakes his head. “There is no cat, man.”
Carmen drops his cutlery back into his plate as he looks up at him incredulously. “There’s no fucking cat, right? Unbelievable.”
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In which Luca has dinner with his sister.
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- Part 7 of cycles
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02 Apr 2024
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“I didn’t get a chance to get you anything, so here. Gift wrapped empanadas.”
“While your presence here is enough of a gift, I am eternally grateful for these bad boys,” Michael grins, shaking the Tupperware. “You drop some off to Nicky on your way over here?”
Tina raises a brow at him. “Mind ya business, Mikey.” She stands on her tip toes and turns her cheek to him. “Gimme a kiss, though.”
Michael snickers as he bends to press his lips to her cheek before slinging an arm around her shoulders and dragging her into the house. “Happy fuckin’ holidays, huh?”
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In which Tina celebrates two special Christmases.
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- Part 8 of cycles
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02 Apr 2024
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“Are you okay?”
Sydney rears her head back and frowns. “What?”
“I said are you okay?”
She’d heard him the first time. She was just giving him a chance to say something else.Or: the aftermath of Marcus' mother's funeral, from Sydney's point of view.
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02 Apr 2024
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Time spent in a cold refrigerator transforms Carmen into the other shoe.
The people in his life point out the obvious, in their own way.
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31 Mar 2024
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aka: carmy berzatto and the terrible, horrible, no good, very bad mental health crisis
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29 Mar 2024
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“I think I just want it to taste…”
Sydney feels her stomach drop, and part of her is petrified Carmy's gonna say something like 'happy' to end the sentence, because she doesn’t know how to make that either—
“Taste like Mikey’s, I guess,” he says instead.
Somehow it’s worse.
OR: a chef who doesn't love to eat and the people who change that.
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28 Mar 2024
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“You were told to take the day off,” Chef points out, “And then you show up at the backdoor with no fucking shoes on. You’ve been fucking shit lately. Multiple people tell me that you don’t make any sense half the time. Why else would that be?”
Carmy swallows. He wants to explain it: that he knows. That he’s good at this. That it’s not his brain that’s falling apart, just his body, just his hands, just his family, just his life. He can’t get the words out. They sit at the back of his throat and Carmy swallows them because he already knows that they’re shattered, and he refuses to sound like a fucking second grader in front of Chef.
“Berzatto, either everyone’s hallucinating or my sous is fucking up his recreational drug usage,” he says. “The first would be a medical miracle. The second would be a Tuesday.”
OR: In the weeks following Mikey's death, Carmy's sleepwalking gets worse. When he ends up outside of the restaurant on his day off, things get unbearable.
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27 Mar 2024
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if thine must be the glory (mine must be the shame) by wispenwillows
Fandoms: The Bear (TV 2022)
09 Feb 2023
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studies in grief / carmy tries to find his way in the aftermath of mikey's death
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27 Mar 2024
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He didn’t want to get a fucking therapist, either, is what’s ironic. Like, if it was his choice his therapist would still be a bucket of hot water and the fucking kitchen floor, or a pack of cigarettes, or a new tattoo from a fuckin’ stick-and-poke shop that would listen when he said he didn’t mind if it did hurt just a little, but he’d blown up, again, the way he’s not supposed to, and Sydney this time didn’t leave, this time shoved his ass into the backroom, shut the door behind them, and with her half-confident cadence and wire-strung hands had told him, okay. You need to make some fucking calls, or like, go to like, Psychology Today, okay, dude, because I’m not fucking working for you if you’re not in fucking therapy after this. Chef.
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25 Mar 2024
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Your Teeth Turn Grey and Stain Your Tongue by Bespokegarbage
Fandoms: The Bear (TV 2022)
12 May 2023
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Carmen Berzatto is a world-famous chef. One of the best chefs of his fucking generation.
And yet, he stands in The Bear’s kitchen hours after he should’ve gone home, freaking the fuck out about a sandwich.
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25 Mar 2024
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She called. It timed out. She rubbed at her cheek, trying to stay in the present instead of going from how she’s going to chew him out when she sees him again to considering if she’ll see him again.
She called another 3 times before she figured this wasn’t getting her anywhere. It only took a couple rings for Richie to pick up.
“Sugar, what the fuck? It’s… it isn’t even 5 in the morning.”
“I lost Carmy,” she admitted.
“You- shit. Okay… that motherfucker.”
“I couldn’t find him anywhere, and all I’ve heard from him was ‘I’m ok,’ and I have a little fucking inkling that he’s lying on that one.”
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Carmy goes missing in the early morning after Friends and Family
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24 Mar 2024
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A Lesson in Patience by huixin
Fandoms: 富豪刑事 Balance:UNLIMITED | Fugou Keiji: Balance:Unlimited (Anime)
11 Apr 2020
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The thing about Kambe Daisuke is that he’s a horrible fucking prick. Also, everything is his fault.
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21 Nov 2023
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and to the victor(s) go the spoils by noctelle
Fandoms: 富豪刑事 Balance:UNLIMITED | Fugou Keiji: Balance:Unlimited (Anime)
17 Apr 2020
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Katou treasures the precious few centimeters he has on Kanbe, because it means when the billionaire bastard goes off and does something stupid and unfathomable, which is always, he gets to be looking down on him when he gives him an earful.
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21 Nov 2023
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01 Jul 2023
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Here’s the thing: Eddy Chen is aching. It’s been four years and two of those years were spent in a pandemic isolated with his best friend, and he’s never felt more alone.
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02 Jun 2023
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Brett returns from Japan and Eddy is quiet.
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02 Jun 2023
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paint me in trust (i'll be your best friend) by hamartiawrites
Fandoms: TwoSet Violin (Musicians) RPF
28 Jan 2023
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In between videos filmed and Zoom calls made and emails sent in preparation for the Mendelssohn, Brett and Eddy stay in love.
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31 May 2023