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    (9:31pm) Ilya: I’m sorry I’ve been such a burden

    (9:33pm) Ilya: I know I’ve taken away your chance to explore yourself and find someone who’s good enough for you. I think you should take that chance now. If you find a nice boy in Montreal who you like, I promise I won’t stand in the way.

    (9:34pm) Ilya: If you still want me at the end of this, I’ll be waiting

    (9:34pm) Ilya: I’m sorry

    OR - Shane's friends keep telling him he can do better than Ilya. Ilya starts to believe them

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    01 Jul 2026

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    unread

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    “Am I too boring for you?”

    He doesn’t mean to ask. Doesn’t mean for those words to come out. They fall from his lips before he has a chance to stop them, and the second they’re out there he wants to take them back. He wants to swallow them down so they can’t hurt anyone but himself.

    Because Ilya…Ilya flinches.

    “What.”

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    01 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    sad at the start and hot as fuck at the end

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    Bottom Ilya and Top Shane:

    1. Because Ilya deserves to come so hard he cries (and Shane will talk him through it)
    2. Because, maybe more importantly, the experience is healing for Shane, whose only experiences with “topping” were in situations where his body didn’t want it.

    This fic is a love letter to my younger self, and a love letter to people who have had sexual experiences just because they thought they had to. I see you.

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    01 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    hot and heartwarming

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    “I’ll make you a deal then.” Shane arched an eyebrow, and Ilya continued, “If by my 23rd birthday, you are still a virgin, I’ll have sex with you.”

    Shane spluttered, swinging his feet out of Ilya’s lap as he sat up. He knew he must look insane, eyes wipe and mouth gaping, but Ilya could not have just said what Shane thought he said.

    “Are you insane?”

    “Well, yes, but that’s besides the point.” Shane couldn’t help his bark of laughter despite his heart still hammering a hole through his chest. “We trust each other. It gives you time to find your own experiences, but if not, well, you know I’ll take care of you.”

    “I–,” Shane started, not sure how to process this new information. That Ilya would even want to have sex with him. He needed to say no - fuck no - because then their relationship would change and Ilya was the one thing that had been constant for most of his life. He couldn’t possibly. He needed to say no, but instead he found himself saying, “Sure.”

    or; if shane is still virgin at 23, ilya will take his virginity. spoiler alert: he is

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    01 Jul 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    unread excitedly

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    Everyone at McGill knows three things: their hockey team is the best in the country, the Rozanov family could buy half of Montreal, and Shane Hollander is completely off limits.

    So when new students start asking Shane out after winter break, Ilya Rozanov decides he needs to put a stop to it.

    Or: the horrifying realization that Ilya Rozanov might be in love with his best friend.

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    15 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fire