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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing. Can still be read.)

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Shane never flinched on the ice. Not at chirps, even when the words other players used hit too close to home. Not at hits, even if his whole body had been flattened to the boards and protested against each movement onwards. Not at the lights overhead, nor the flash of cameras around him. Not at the cheers and boos of the crowd, nor the discordant scream of a whistle blowing. It didn’t fade to the background, didn’t quiet when he had the puck, but he got through it. He lived in it. He made it his home. But that was hockey. That bad was so interwoven with the good of it that Shane could hardly call it that anymore. This…this was a different kind of bad.

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    After his talk and breakup with Rose, Shane decided that he wanted to explore his sexuality with someone who wasn’t Ilya for a change. He went to a man’s apartment in Montreal and left feeling different. He wasn’t sure how, or why, or what to call it. All he knew was that it wasn’t good, and that he didn’t want to look at it. Fortunately or unfortunately for him, he had people in his life who wouldn’t let him disappear, no matter how hard he tried.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    WHOOPS Part 2:

    Ilya's standing in the center of the set, under lights bright enough to count as a fucking war crime from the way they make his head pound, wearing his full lower gear - pads, pants, skates - and absolutely nothing else from the waist up except for approximately five million dollars worth of diamonds draped around his neck like he's some kind of feral Russian soocialite. Which Shane supposes he kinda was, in a previous life.

    There's fake blood trickling from his nose. Artfully smudged across his upper lip. Someone's mussed his hair just right, that perfect post-fight chaos that makes him look dangerous and untouchable and so stupidly hot that Shane wants to bite something.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Based very loosely on events from The Long Game that my brain wanted to put into the first book, somewhere between Shane’s injury, and before Scott Hunter wins the cup - for maximum angst, obviously.

    What if Ilya’s plane had actually crashed? And what if it had happened before he and Shane had the chance to confess their love and know what it was like to be together.

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    A fic so I could write a really needy Shane who can't hide his feelings anymore, and an Ilya who is faced with the undeniable truth that someone cares for him.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    In which Ilya is the one who gets hurt during the Boston vs Montreal game in 2017 instead of Shane, and this time their relationship gets revealed out there on the ice. This starts a chain of events that leads to Shane being the one to switch teams first.

    All fics could probably be read as stand-alones but do have small connections throughout.

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    22 Jun 2026