afraidtobelieve
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The death of someone you truly love will always devastate you in inescapable ways.
[missing scene from “In the Wind”]
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“This can’t be happening.”
In the immediate aftermath of “Perverted,” Olivia still can’t seem to catch a break.
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She'd been okay, at first. Really.
[This story begins in the aftermath of "Undercover."]
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Every time she thinks she knows what to expect from him, he swerves.
[post-episode for The Five Hundredth]
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I don’t care about the government and I really need a hug by afraidtobelieve
Fandoms: Law & Order: SVU, Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021)
12 Sep 2023
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“When he looks back on his admittedly short life, Eli Stabler can’t help but feel… cheated.”
[The first in a two-part series that focuses on Eli and Noah, respectively, and the process of growing up.]
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- Part 1 of Boyhood/Manhood
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Boyhood/Manhood by afraidtobelieve
Fandom Law & Order: Organized Crime (TV 2021), Law & Order: SVU
12 Sep 2023
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No Good Deed (Goes Unpunished) by khaleesiofalicante
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 May 2026
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“Hello,” Ilya repeats, still kind of stuck on those freckles.
“Hi?” the man says.
“Hi,” Ilya says—again.
Oh god, he's said hello three times now. He should literally say anything else. His name, probably. His phone number, preferably.
“Hi,” Ilya says again, because he can’t help it. “I am—”
“Are you Nick?” the man asks, and it comes out as a breathless sound.
OR: Shane gets stood up on a blind date, and Ilya comes to the rescue, and proceeds to make a series of questionable decisions.
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22 Jul 2026
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Somebody To Love by shadow_lilies
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Jul 2026
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Shane Hollander was the number one draft pick and is now captain of the Boston Raiders. Ilya Rozanov quit hockey after his mother died and now owns a bookshop in Boston. When Shane moves into a new apartment down the street from One Good Memory, he finds more than just a convenient place to grab a new book.
Or...Shane is lonely and closeted and reads a lot; Ilya is charmed and quotes books at him.
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Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
19 Jul 2026
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The Long Change (Between Games) by colorsflashing
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 Jan 2026
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Ilya is traded without warning.
Shane is left spiraling.
Between games, everything falls apart.Or: The one where Ilya Rozanov finds out he’s been traded to the Los Angeles Rush moments before taking the ice against the Montreal Metros.
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- 30/30
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16 Jul 2026
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Change Your Win Conditions by Vee (Vera_DragonMuse)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Feb 2026
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Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.
So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.
Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.
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- Part 1 of win conditions
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07 Jul 2026
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Ultraviolence (Raiders!Shane) by 1ora5
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
21 Jul 2026
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“What makes you so confident you can handle him when Montreal couldn’t?” A reporter asks.
Ilya smirks like he’s been waiting for it. “Because he actually listens. Montreal? Didn’t have a damn clue how to handle him. Me? Oh, I got this kid under my thumb.”
Shane Hollander was supposed to become Montreal’s next great star. Months later, a public scandal and a hurried trade have sent him to Boston, where everyone is waiting to see whether he breaks again.
Raiders captain Ilya Rozanov is arrogant, violent, and far too interested in finding out exactly how much Shane can take. He is certain he knows how to handle him. Shane is equally certain he hates him.
Neither of them understands yet what it will cost to be right.Or; Ilya may be the first person to truly understand Shane, but he is also the last person who should be trusted with him.
Bookmarked by afraidtobelieve
24 Jun 2026