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    Shane Hollander is a UFA on July 1, 2019 at 12pm Eastern. An Unrestricted Free Agent, or UFA for short, is a player of a certain tenure whose contract has ended and can sign with any team of their choosing. If it were anyone else, a player walking to his UFA day would strike fear into the fans and managers hearts. They could lose a player for nothing.

    On the morning of July 1, 2019, with Shane Hollander set to test free agency, the Montreal Metros and their fanbase aren't worried. It's well documented that Shane Hollander has always held out for the best deal, and being a free agent is his leverage. Everyone knows that he’ll sign another deal with the Metros.

    But maybe everyone is wrong.

    (Alternatively: the one where Shane Hollander finds out ahead of schedule that Ilya Rozanov is lonely.)

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    13 Jul 2026

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    Shane had spent time—a lot of time, really—thinking about retirement. It came with the territory; on average, hockey players retired in their 30s, with a few outliers playing into their 40s. The really good ones got maybe three decades out of it all before putting the stick down and hanging the jersey up. In his mind, Shane liked to think he’d be one of them, playing till he hit forty-five, ending on some high note—the Centaurs winning their nth or so Cup, maybe—before fading, slowly, into the background.

    It turned out it would all just end in a random game, with a random team, boom— all so definitively over that Shane was left falling, completely flailing, clueless about any next step.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Shane hates losing control and the last several months-years if he's being honest-have been nothing but him trying to grab onto any choice he can make for himself. In the wake of being outed, exiled from the team he's dedicated his life to, and losing everything he's worked so hard for just because of who he fell in love with, Shane does the only thing he can: he runs until he feels like he's far enough away that he can't hear anyone else's opinions.

    It's time for Shane to make a decision, just once, he wants to choose something for himself.
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    chapter one can be read as a standalone

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    12 Jul 2026

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    “Ilya, what are we gonna do?” Shane says.

    Ilya finishes whatever he has been doing on his phone, and tosses it gently to the bed beside him. He crosses the room to Shane, stands in front of him, squeezes into his shoulders with his big hands, rubbing them like he means to warm them up.

    “Looks like we will have a little vacation,” he says, with a big obnoxious grin.

     


     

    Boston and Montreal are sent to Paris to play against each other in an exhibition series in January 2017. Ilya and Shane decide to stay in Paris for one more night. Just one more night, so they can talk. Maybe finally understand each other.

    They aren't expecting a volcano to erupt in Iceland and close all the airspace in Europe, leaving them stranded there. Together.

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    11 Jul 2026

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    Ilya is tired of being called stupid. Tired of reporters blinking at him like he’s buffering. Tired of social media deciding that an accent equals ignorance. So he decides to fix it.

    Shane lets it be a joke — until he hears Ilya sanding down the edges of himself under bright arena lights. He doesn’t interrupt interviews. Until he does.

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    07 Jul 2026

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    The Boston Bears group chat had sixty-three new messages in the span of three minutes.

    His coffee forgotten, Ilya swiped open the chat, scrolling quickly to find the source of the commotion. A link to The Athletic, posted by Jensen, their captain, followed by a string of exclamation points. Ilya tapped it, the headline materializing on his screen like a blow to the chest:

    BREAKING: MONTREAL VOYAGEURS’ SECOND DRAFT SHANE HOLLANDER ANNOUNCES RETIREMENT

    Ilya's pulse jumped, hard and sudden in his throat. The mug slipped from his hand, not falling but landing too heavily on the counter, coffee slopping over the rim. He set it down properly, his movements mechanical, and forced himself to read the rest of the headline:

    20-YEAR-OLD ROOKIE OF THE YEAR STEPPING AWAY TO PURSUE HARVARD BUSINESS DEGREE

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life living and breathing hockey. At twenty, at the height of his career, he makes an unthinkable choice: he walks away to discover who he is beyond the ice.

    But some things don’t stay behind.

    What happens when the rivalry between him and Rozanov ends, but the pull doesn’t?

    Ch 1-9 main story
    Ch 10+ extras

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Something tugs in the center of his chest. He should be angry, furious at his brother for trying to do something to screw him over, even after years of not speaking. He’s been doing the same since they were kids, using Ilya as a scapegoat to slip out of his responsibilities and consequences for his own actions. Doing this - getting a woman pregnant that isn’t his wife and claiming it’s Ilya who has done it - is just something else to add to the list.

    Instead he just looks at the picture of this tiny little boy and wonders if he’ll have freckles.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    I firmly believe that Shane and Ilya invited their loved ones to their wedding via text.

    Here is how I think it went.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    “I… don’t know how to say this,” Shane starts, slow, like he’s speaking to a wounded animal. “Honestly, I’m not sure how she found us, really. Maybe you should sit down, baby.”

    But Ilya doesn’t get a second to sit down, because the door behind Shane is opening, and Ilya is turning around, and—

    Zdravstvuyte,” says the girl. “Uncle Ilya?”

    Sometime in the future, Ilya & Shane have a visitor.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.

    Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.

    Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.

    Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander learns there are both pros and cons to accidentally adopting a kitten with your situationship.

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    26 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s brain cycled rapidly through a half-dozen celebrities, porn actors, Grindr profiles, every attractive bartender who’d ever served him a beer, trying to find a comparison for this level of outrageously concentrated beauty in one person, but he was drawing a blank.

    The man—Ilya Rozanov, Facilities Attendant, his badge read—gestured around the supply closet. “I help you find something?”

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    Canon-divergent AU set during the 2017-18 MLH season. Shane Hollander doesn’t have a single Cup to his name when he meets a very hot and very annoying janitor who works at the Metros stadium.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    “If you ever talk about my fiancé like that again, then I will end your career.”

    The words are pure vitriol, dripping from Shane’s mouth like venom from the fangs of a snake. He doesn’t raise his voice, he doesn’t even sound angry, he just sounds lethal. Like a man you don’t want to cross. Like a man who fully intends to honour his promise…or threat.

    He’s met with stunned silence.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya,” Hollander breathes, which—Ilya isn’t sure Hollander has ever called him by his first name. Surely he has sometime in seven years of acquaintance? But the sound of it is novel, unfamiliar. 

    And far from unpleasant. 

    Then Hollander says, “Baby,” and Ilya knows for certain that he’s never called Ilya that, because it takes the air right out of Ilya’s lungs and makes his guts twist and fuck, he would have remembered if Hollander had ever called him that. Especially in that reverent tone. 

    It’s nice. 

    Ilya doesn't remember being married to Shane Hollander. Probably, he should tell someone.

    He decides not to.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is the (lonely) golden boy of hockey, trying to decide what's best for his future.
    Ilya Rozanov is a (lonely) grad student and part-time waiter, having left the hockey world due to injury and Russia for his own sanity.

    They meet in New York, and fall in love.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander, hockey player extraordinaire, hovers in the doorway to his impressively designed but sparsely filled walk-in closet, looking at her with wide eyes like she might shoot him if he’s got the wrong things in there. If she finds any cargo shorts, she might shoot herself.

    or: shane hires a stylist.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    In which Shane Hollander is sick, and Ilya Rozanov is the only one who notices he's not himself

    “How…you’re calling him Shane, you…how do you know…”

    Ilya isn’t sure how much he wants to say, needs to say, in order to get Pike to do something, he doesn’t want to out Shane, doesn’t want to take that choice from him, but no one is listening.

    “I’m…” Shane can hate him, Shane can hate him as long as he’s himself, as long as he’s Shane again, “I’m Boston Lily.”

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    20 Jun 2026

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    After the longest season of his career, Ilya retreats to the cottage with Shane, expecting rest, recovery, and a month of stolen peace. Instead, exhaustion lingers. Small things feel wrong. And the body that has always carried him through pain begins to falter in ways he can’t explain.

    As concern grows and outside eyes begin to notice, the life Ilya and Shane have carefully built—careers, borders, futures—starts to feel fragile. When a medical crisis shatters their summer before answers arrive, love is no longer something they protect quietly. It becomes something they fight with.

    A story about what happens when the body speaks before you’re ready to listen, and the people who refuse to let you face it alone.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    A rookie's bad hit sends Ilya into the boards during the Boston-Montreal game. Shane's three weeks of broken Russian are barely enough to calm him down, but it's something.

    But when the scans reveal something much worse, Shane and Ilya have to figure out how to be there for each other in ways totally unforeseen.

    Or: nothing like facing mortality for two idiots in love to be honest about how they really feel!

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    20 Jun 2026

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    There was something wrong with Shane Hollander.

    He had known it since he was young.

    Most people-most kids, in general-had different hobbies and interests. Their attention drifted from one thing to another. They became fascinated with something for a few weeks, only to abandon it for the next shiny obsession that caught their eye.

    Shane had never been like that.

    When it came to him, there was only ever one thing: hockey.

    Obsessive.

    That was the word most people used when referring to his temperament.

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    19 Jun 2026

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