BetterNameToCome (SpoonDeficiency)



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    “Me finding out that instead of mysterious and cool, people think I’m autistic and lesbian.”

    Ilya and Shane get Reddit’s advice under the aliases Lily and Jane. Things spiral from there….

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    Jane: We didn't even kiss

    IR: I think you have the wrong number

    Jane: Seriously???
    Jane: God, you're such an asshole

    or: 43 year old Ilya Rozanov receives a message that he should've gotten at a very different point in time, from a number that was deactivated 13 years ago.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Welcome to my conspiracy theory that there is an alternate timeline to the Great Tuna Meltdown of October 2016. What would have happened if Shane *had* stayed the night? This is a look at the evening and morning that could have been.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    “Kiss me,” Rozanov whispers. 
     
    Shane cannot help the strangled breath he lets out, nor can he help how harshly his lips crash into Rozanov’s. He moves so quickly that he’s sure one of them will have a small bruise or visible puffiness tomorrow, but he doesn’t care. 
     
    He is lost in a place that exists out of time and space, his skin tingling everywhere Rozanov’s body touches. Their torsos are pressed together and Rozanov’s hand is grasping the back of Shane’s neck, pulling his face even harder against his own, just to have more of him. Rozanov’s tongue is sliding quickly, hungrily, familiarly against Shane’s. The four years Shane has waited to do this shrink into a wrinkle, bridging 2009 and now, as though the universe had not so unfairly yanked them apart and they could start their rookie year over again. 

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    Years after Ilya left the league prematurely, Shane and Ilya are both passengers on a four-month, around-the-world cruise.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander woke up early on the morning of the MLH Awards. He went for a run. He had lunch with Hayden Pike. He kissed Ilya Rozanov in a bathroom. He fucked Ilya Rozanov in his hotel room.

    Shane Hollander woke up early on the morning of the MLH Awards.

    Again. And again. And again.

    (Shane relives the 2014 MLH Awards over and over again. Alternative title: Shane Hollander learns to ask for what he wants.)

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    04 Jun 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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