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    I’ll be quick. It’ll barely hurt Ilya."

    The gun trembled in his brother’s hand as they kept staring at each other, the words almost as pleading as Ilya’s own. If his eyes hadn’t started to sting, he might have seen his brother’s well up as well. Instead, that childish, naive little part of his heart spoke the next words out of his mouth.

     

    "We are family Alexei. We always have been."

      OR: My take on what if Ilya was in Russia when the video leaked. (Updated summary)

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in the front pew. His face is—Ilya does not have words for what Shane's face is doing. He has seen Shane angry and afraid and exhausted and soft and undone. He has never seen this: living at the very bottom of a person, surfacing only when every single thing above it has given way.

    This is what it looks like when Shane has nothing left to manage.

    Ilya reaches for him.

    His hand passes through air.

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    Or: Ilya Rozanov turns the same age his mother was when she died. Featuring strange dreams, tarot readings, and a woman with her back to him who keeps appearing where she shouldn’t.

    A man who spent twenty years preparing to die, and one husband who refuses to let him.

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    18 May 2026

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    “What did you actually think?”

    He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”

    “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.

    Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”

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    Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    Ilya's hand closes around Shane's on a chilly December morning, and he feels the seed of Shane's soul sink into his skin and make a home there.

    He's just not sure that Shane was seeded in turn.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    05 Feb 2026

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