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    "Shane plays hard to get and takes it way too far"-verse
    The main story is done but will be adding some additional scenes when I feel like it
    (not gonna be in chronological order)

    If you wanna read chronologically, so far:
    1: The 5 Steps of Playing Hard to Get
    2: How to Destress After a Long Week
    3: How to Lock Down your Man

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    31 Jul 2026

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    There was a burst of static, a gusty sigh. "Shanushka, you have the biggest 'bottom eyes' I have ever seen."

    "That's not a thing."

    "It is absolutely a thing, and that thing is you," she cackled, and he hung up the phone, ears so hot they should have been smoking.

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    Or, Shane meets Svetlana first, and it changes everything and nothing.

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    18 Apr 2026

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    On chapter 9

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    Shane blinks back, and wonders what his face might be doing. He wonders if somewhere written among his freckles is the number of times that Shane’s intrusive thoughts have imagined the man before him in lewd scenarios. He wonders if his mouth --already disconnected from his conscious mind-- secretly whispers confessions of his fantasies in a devastating betrayal of the self.

    Shane swallows. The two blue eyes are so fucking close that they could each be a mile wide. They could be barrels of a gun or the tips of arrows. They’re trained on Shane and call on his animalistic reactions of fight or flight.

    Or fawn.

    Shane Hollander was diagnosed with autism as a child. With delayed speech, sensory difficulties, and a brain that refused to conform, Shane grew up always finding ways to cope using hockey, systems, and routine. After temporarily losing his speech in a very public meltdown at the world juniors, Shane is forced to carve a path as the first publicly autistic player in the NHL, accommodations and all.

    Chronic surprise Ilya Rozanov is determined to prove to Shane that he isn't a problem to be solved, while both men must learn to accept that they're worthy of love at all.

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    30 Jul 2026

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    “We, uh, Brian and I, that is. We decided to open up the relationship.”

    “Okay?” Ilya says, voice flat. “What is that?”

    Hollander shrugs. His posture has gone stiff again. “It. It means we’re still together, but we can also like...see other people. Or not see, because we’re not dating anyone else but, uh. Fuck. Fuck other people.”

    Oh.

    “And this is why you texted me?” Ilya asks.

    In a way, it’s almost better. Hollander and his boyfriend breaking up and Ilya reaping the rewards would be enjoyable. Ilya having to work for that reward himself, getting the chance to fuck Hollander so good he forgets all about that loser who attached himself to him like a parasite before he was old enough to know better?

    Well. Ilya loves a challenge.

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    29 Jul 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

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    29 Jul 2026