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    “We all get our bell rung eventually, right?”

    When Ilya Rozanov wakes up in the hospital, he doesn’t know how he got there. He doesn’t know it’s 2019, his second season as captain of the Ottawa Centaurs. He doesn’t know he got hurt defending Shane Hollander on the ice.

    All he knows is that he must have hit his head really, really, hard, because when he wakes up, there are three Hollanders looking at him with love in their eyes and concern on their faces.

    This is especially confusing since the last time Ilya Rozanov remembers seeing Shane Hollander was at the 2014 Winter Olympics.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “This is a stupid dream,” Shane mutters, scrunching his eyes closed even harder to let in less light. “Why are you here?”

    Rozanov hesitated, almost sounding startled when he spoke. “Is not a dream. I am here because I love you.”

    Shane’s eyes do snap open at that. He can’t focus on Rozanov either, but he tries really hard. “What the fuck?” They did not have THAT kind of relationship. In fact, the last time he’d seen Rozanov, the man had fucked him silly then practically kicked him out of his hotel room without so much as a thank you or a kiss.

    What the fuck was this love shit?

    The man’s shoulders slump and he sits back in his chair. “Oh, Shane.” He sounds so disappointed. “The doctor said—I thought when you woke up again—”

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    They say most accidents happen at home. Shane has a catastrophic one in his parents' garage and loses 9 years of his memories. The last thing he can fully remember being in the elevator and almost sending several text messages after an evening with Rozanov in a hotel suite. All Shane knows is that Rozanov and his parents are in one place, and that's his biggest nightmare.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    20 Jul 2026

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    “I don’t want you to lie. That’s not who you are.”

    Shane Hollander was a consummate liar, and the twisted irony of his mom’s baffled statement told him more than anything that he needed to tighten up. He was done with messing around, done with letting people down, done with indulgences that he couldn’t afford. The path before him was clear; all he had to do was walk it.

    (This, he would acknowledge later, was the biggest lie of all.)

    OR: Shane learned how to lie with his words and stillness. Unfortunately his body speaks a language of its own, and it's one Ilya Rozanov never needed a translator for. As Rozanov lets Shane get away with anything except lying to him, this causes problems until it solves them.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    Once the glow of the cottage fades and the boys have to head back to the real world, they have to start the long difficult year being separated before Ilya signs with Ottawa. Or at least that was the plan, until Ilya opened his mouth and accidentally got himself traded to Montreal. But it’s fine, just one year for Ilya in Montreal and then their 10 year plan is back on track… Right?

    Through their year on the same team, Ilya helps Shane come to terms with the fact that his team kinda sucks, Hayden gets chirped into oblivion but still realizes that maybe Ilya Rozanov isn’t nearly as bad of a guy as he thought, and Hollanov come to terms with a new question they didn’t expect to ask.

    Now that they’ve gotten a taste of living together and being on the same team, how are they ever going to give it up?

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    18 Jul 2026