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    Ilya didn’t think when the ball dropped back in January that 2017 would be a year of firsts. He was well established in Boston with a team he was hell bent on taking through the playoffs. He had friends he liked well enough and a home he enjoyed. With Shane Hollander dating Rose Landry it seemed like he would be relegated to months of picking up women at bars. Did it matter that those women would probably have dark hair and freckles?

    No comment.

    Then the All Star Game happened. Shane showed up in his stylist’s picked clothes and a new confidence he never expected. He forced them to talk about feelings and held him while he cried about Russia and his family. He hadn’t let himself cry like that in years, let alone have someone witness that type of breakdown.

    He hadn’t felt comfortable in someone’s arms like that since his mother died.

    After that the firsts kept coming.

    Or, Ilya Rozanov finally makes it to Shane Hollander's apartment. It only took eight years and a life changing two weeks in a cottage by a lake to make it happen.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    It’s like they think that Ilya's someone to put up with, rather than someone that Shane wants to spend every waking minute of his life with. Someone that is, in every single fucking way, Shane’s person. Someone that knows exactly how to make him laugh and someone he doesn’t have to hide his quirks from and someone who allows his own asshole side to shine when Shane wants it to.

    Shane loves Ilya, is in love with him. It’s just that Ilya is also his best friend.

    Or, 5 times that Shane gets annoyed by people thinking he's supposed to control Ilya, and 1 time he finally says something about it.

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    26 Jul 2026

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    Ilya and Shane are broke roommates, until Ilya discovers streaming and starts making bank jerking off for the viewers
    Naturally, he offers his good friend Shane a chance at making money the same way
    And if they touch each other a little it’s only because of the tips, not because they are into each other

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    Shane and Ilya are both completely straight here
    #ISwearrr

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    24 Jul 2026

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    Ilya knows that no one loves the same version of a person; his Shane is different to Yuna’s Shane, who is different to David’s Shane, who is different to J.J., or Rose, or Hayden’s Shane. And while Ilya knows he’d fall in love with every single version, he’s happy he gets this one. Happy he gets the Shane who lets himself be trusting, and vulnerable, and honest.

    It makes Ilya wish he could have loved Shane earlier - makes him wish he could have known him longer. But he’s just glad he gets to do it now, here, like this.

     

    (Or, four times people are surprised by Shane’s clinginess, and one time they completely expect it.)

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    14 Jul 2026

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    But there was Ilya: smiling the whole time, putting away two huge servings, profusely complimenting Mom and Dad on the lovely meal.

    And Shane wonders.

    (He thinks, maybe, that Ilya hasn’t had a family dinner like tonight’s since he was twelve.)

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    10 Jul 2026

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    It goes well until he’s standing in Ilya’s— their— living room, holding a framed photo of the 2014-15 Montréal Voyageurs and their first Stanley Cup, rooted to the spot.

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    or, the one where moving to ottawa brings up some complicated feelings.

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    10 Jul 2026

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    Yuna can’t help it. There’s just something about Ilya Rozanov that rubs her the wrong way.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    He looks up at Rozanov, whose brows have since migrated up over his forehead, almost tangling in his mess of curls as he eagerly awaits either a response or a reaction.

    Shane gives both at once.

    “We can’t fuck in there.”

    Ilya’s smile doesn’t falter. Shane really wishes he was kissing him instead of standing here, shrinking into his jacket, shivering under the cool nighttime air, the hot tub water glimmering under a heavy moonlight.

    “Why not?” Rozanov challenges. “Is fine, no? I can make you break a sweat, Hollander. Even without the bubbles.”

    Shane deadpans him and that just makes Rozanov laugh airily, clearly bemused by his response to all this.

    or: ilya’s house has a hot tub and a mirror in the yard, so he and shane make very good use of it

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    04 Jul 2026

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    "You are not the only one who enjoyed it," Ilya reminds him, trailing kisses up the outside of his arm. "I am curious. About how much of this you will let me have. How much you will let me take." He makes it to Shane's neck, nips lightly at his pulse when presented with a bared throat. "It should not make me so crazy. But it does."

    And Shane - Shane can't really argue with that. He knows that Ilya delights in finding Shane's sexual boundaries and seeing how far Shane will push them. He knows that he derives equal pleasure from it every single time, no matter how initially hesitant he feels.

    It makes it much easier to say, "Okay, yeah."

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    It started with a simple remark during a daily chore. Neither of them could have predicted how much it would grow from there.

    or, Ilya and Shane stumble upon a shared interest in feminization kink. This is how it plays out.

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    02 Jul 2026

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    “Hollander,” Ilya murmured gently. “Bath is ready.”

    Shane cracked his eyes open, staring dumbly at the burly Russian hovering over him where he was still laying in bed.

    “…bath?” He croaked, voice raspy with disuse.

    “Mm. I ran you a bath. It will make you feel better before you go to sleep tonight. Will help with your sore muscles.”

    Shane asks Ilya to fuck him gently during one of their regular hookups, badly bruised from their game. Ilya runs him a bath afterwards, and they fall secretly and desperately in love that way, through whispered confessions and late night conversations while Shane soaks, and Ilya quietly observes him.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “Were you thinking of also bringing clothes?” Shane asked, glancing into Ilya’s suitcase.

    “Do you think we will need them?”

    “I’m just saying you might want the option of going outside,” Shane said, dropping a kiss on Ilya’s shoulder and wandering into the closet.

    Ilya was obviously going to pack clothing, he just had priorities. Like making sure their whole sex toy collection would fit into his suitcase, not to mention two of the biggest bottles of lube he’d been able to find.

    “Take the batteries out of anything that vibrates,” Shane called. Ilya rolled his eyes. What was he, an amateur? “Do you think I should bring two pairs of walking shoes or is one enough?”

    “How many walking tours are we going on?”

    “I don’t know.”

    “How do you not know? What have you been doing for the past month?”

    “Research! But I didn’t book anything yet in case we decide we want to just sit by the pool for ten days instead.”

     

    Or: Shane and Ilya Go Honeymooning. Set after The Long Game.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya?” Shane said in that same dreamy, loopy voice as that morning. Ilya exhaled in a rush.

    “Shane,” he said, and wanted to sag against the glass with relief. “What happened? Is something wrong?”

    “Not! Any moooooooore.”

    Ilya swallowed. Shane hadn’t gotten any quieter in the past seven hours.

    “Why are you calling me? You need to be resting,” he said, and it sounded softer than he’d meant it to.

    “I forgot to tell you something. Important.

    “You should not be telling me anything, you should be—”

    “My cottage has really good water pressure,” Shane announced.

    Ilya stared out the window while a small plane taxied past.

    “What?”

    ——————

    Shane's cottage has a lot of amenities, and he needs to tell Ilya about all of them.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    Something like grief churned in his sternum–that same something that would hit him in Boston winter when he was surrounded by stark, grey streets, and old buildings coated in snow, and twinkling Christmas lights in shop windows. The shape of it felt like Moscow along its jagged edges. Ilya shut his eyes and breathed.

    This time of year, the snow, all of it made him think of his mother. Of her warm blonde hair tucked into her fuzzy winter coat and of her magenta gloves bright against the snow as she balled up handfuls of snow to throw at Ilya and Alexei. Irina had loved the snow, had loved celebrating the festive season, and Ilya had spent the last decade and a half avoiding reminders of it.

    Or: Shane invites Ilya to Ottawa to spend the Christmas break with his family. Ilya deals with complex feelings about home, family, belonging, and grief.

    Set in the last year Ilya played for Boston before moving to Ottawa.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Svetlana could give Ilya everything Shane could not.

    She shared his language, his culture, and knew what it was like living in Russia–she didn’t have to try and learn Russian in secret so if Ilya wanted to just talk freely with her he could. She’d known Ilya his whole life, known his father and brother and, most importantly, his mother–the most precious person to Ilya. She could date Ilya, in public, and it wouldn’t cause a scandal–Ilya wouldn’t have to sacrifice his country to be with her or have to secure citizenship somewhere safe just so that if people found out he wouldn’t get arrested. She could stay with Ilya during the hockey season and share his space–she could get groceries with him and argue with him in the produce aisle about what to make for dinner that week. She could love Ilya, freely, and Shane could not.

    In the end it was not about Ilya or even Svetlana at all really. It was about what Shane could not be, what he could not give, to the person he loved most.

    OR: Shane and Svetlana meet for the first time and Shane battles with his insecurities.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Ilya liked Shane’s parents. He really did. David and Yuna Hollander were entirely devoted to their only child–maybe sometimes a bit intense, if not a little overbearing, in Yuna’s case–and their attentiveness had moulded him into a kind, hardworking, and thoughtful man. Truly, their son was a testament to the quality of both their character’s–Shane’s soft underbelly nurtured by his father’s patient tone and earnest gaze and his shrewdness and talent sharpened by his mother’s fierce mettle. Shane was the sum of his parent’s parts, yet entirely his own, and Ilya was very grateful to the tender, yet firm, hands that had shaped the man he loved. But right now, well, right now Ilya was not their biggest fan.

    Jane:
    My parents are going to be staying at my place after the game on Friday.

    Ilya missed Shane. Ilya really needed to have sex with Shane. Now the man's parents were in the way.

    Or: Ilya is finally seeing Shane for the first time since their summer at the cottage but Shane's parents crash their first evening alone in weeks. Set during that agonising final season Ilya plays for Boston.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    If things don’t click between Ilya and Shane, if they can’t properly function and communicate in a professional setting, they won’t win anything. The rest of the team will suffer. And that’ll be Shane’s fault. Ilya led this team to the second round last year when no one even expected them to make the playoffs. Everyone already knows that this is his team. Shane is the one that needs to fit.

    So Shane, simply, will be the best. He will make sure no one can question his place in this league. He will make himself fit.

     

    or, Shane's first year as a Centaur, everyone (Shane) expects great hockey and a perfect marriage. It's not.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “Please,” he says finally, voice breaking as he gives in. “Fuck, please, Rozanov, I’m gonna—”

    Rozanov pulls all the way back, mouth releasing his cock with a noise that makes Shane’s hips rock up into nothing.

    “Rozanov,” he begs again.

    “Hmm?” Rozanov asks, kissing Shane’s shaking thigh gently. “You need something?”

    “You— fuck— you said I could come,” Shane says, trying and failing to keep the accusatory note out of his voice.

    “Mhm. When you say my name, yes?”

    “I did!” Shane insists, just a hint of a whine in his tone now. Rozanov smirks at him.

    “Oh, sweetheart,” he says. “My first name.”

    OR:

    Ilya does something a little different on tuna melt day.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Ilya takes a liking to Shane's flannels.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Welcome to my conspiracy theory that there is an alternate timeline to the Great Tuna Meltdown of October 2016. What would have happened if Shane *had* stayed the night? This is a look at the evening and morning that could have been.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    “I think we need some rules for this year,” Shane admits. He knows it’s not fun or cool. It’s also the only way he’s going to be able to drive away from this ugly ass apartment and not have a panic attack.

    “Like your rules for loading the dishwasher?” Ilya teases, his thumb rubbing a gentle circle on the apple of Shane’s cheek. “No, No you would want something more serious.”

    Once Ilya told him he preferred to have hard conversations in person so that he could reach out and touch Shane. He said it was grounding and made him feel safe. Shane gets it. All of this is less scary when their knees are bumped together and Ilya’s hands are gently holding his head.

    “More like some guardrails to make sure your first year in Ottawa is a success.” It’s a cop out. He wants rules to be sure that come next summer they are just like this with a few more memories thrown in for good measure.

    Or: After a year of living in different countries Ilya has successfully been signed with the Ottawa Centaurs. Now both he and Shane have to learn to navigate what it's means when long distance doesn't involve plane rides and stolen nights while Ilya establishes roots in Shane's boring hometown.

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    01 Jun 2026

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