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    “I will not say: do not weep; for not all tears are an evil.”
    ―J.R.R. Tolkien, The Return of the King

    For a man raised on hunting and hellfire, who'd seen angels fall and demons rise, he should’ve understood sacrifice better. Should’ve known love when it was handed to him.
    Instead, he'd stood there like a coward, letting Cas fall without reaching out to catch him.
    The walls, the silence, the stillness — all of it bore witness as Dean Winchester, who had carried the world on his shoulders and survived hell itself, shattered into pieces over the one thing he could never fix, never fight for, never save.

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    Or, Dean grieves, grows a beard, becomes a dad without realizing it, and get's his happy ending. (Not a fucking rebar, for fuck's sakes)

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Dean takes a really, really long drive to kick fear in the ass. It might just be the best thing he ever decides to do.

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    The seat squeaks, and Dean follows the sound, his gaze trailing down. There—where Jack sat moments ago—is a much tinier version of him. He looks mostly the same, just...smaller and more dimply and cuter, if that's possible. His clothes have shrunk to fit him, so he's casually sitting in a t-shirt, jeans, and scuffed tennis shoes. He swings his feet from side-to-side over the edge of Baby's seat the same way Sam used to in the back, and he stares up at Dean with clear eyes. 

    "Oh," Dean blurts out, eyes bulging, "Cas is going to fucking kill me." 

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    23 Jun 2026

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    It’s okay during the day—well no, it’s not okay. Sam will clap Dean on the back or shoulder, Jack will brush against his arm when they’re standing side by side at the stove. And what used to feel so normal—good even—will feel like too much to handle. 

    Eileen and Sam will hold hands or give each other cheek kisses, and Dean will have to bear feeling so happy for his brother and yet so jealous at the same time. That’s just it, during the day, Dean’s distracted and has reason to keep a tight lid on his crap. But at night—

    He keeps himself awake until he absolutely can’t keep his eyes open anymore. Then he lies alone in his bed in the dark, and the monster comes—like a hermit crab, it tries to claw its way out of its shell, out of him. It knows nothing but want, and fear of what it wants. 

    Unable to stand it, Dean’s fingers will curl into the sheets and his heart will race and his throat will feel like there’s a scream lodged in it. Not even his old trick with the hot water bottle can lull his body into believing it's not alone. It’s not working anymore, not since his body got a taste of the real deal. Not since he’s been hugged and kissed and his hand has been held.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    While Sam is laid up in the bunker with a broken leg, he sends Dean and Cas out on a case Dean’s pretty sure he could do blindfolded and with both hands tied behind his back. Little does he know those might be actual requirements…

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Castiel Novak receives a rather alarming text message from an unknown number, and what started as a simple misdial quickly turns into the greatest friendship Castiel has ever known. But Dean has many secrets, dangerous truths about the life he lives, and would like to tell Castiel exactly none of them.

    A (slightly) AU, (mostly) text fic, S3 fix-it romance (of sorts).

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    07 Feb 2026