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    Shane loses his game to a blizzard and his boyfriend to a bad hit, all in the same night.

    Snowed in with his parents in Montreal, he watches Ilya get stretchered off on live TV, and discovers that when your relationship is a secret, no one at the hospital thinks to call you.

    In Ottawa, Ilya wakes up with broken bones, a serious concussion, and a neatly edited brain. The months where he was lonely and depressed and fighting with Shane? Gone. He’s mentally living in the soft, hopeful beginning of things—and the more everyone tiptoes around him, the more wrong it feels.

    The Centaurs step up. The Hollanders dig in. Shane tries to convince himself that “temporary amnesia” is not the same thing as losing him.

    They’re still together. They’re technically fine.

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    Shane tries to remember, peering into the darkness surrounding the car with a furrowed brow. It hurts to move, and he feels something warm and slick sliding down his cheek.

    More blood, his mind supplies rather unhelpfully.

    He was driving after dark, but he shouldn’t have been. He wasn’t supposed to be. They had all night together, so why is he here?

    I already chose you, Hollander.

    Shane inhales sharply as his mind slowly fills in the gaps in his memory. They fought. Ilya told him to leave. Shane did.

    And then he crashed.

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    Ilya and Shane broke up. Shane left.
    Ilya falls back into a depressive episode and is preparing for his self inflicted death. No one is able to help, no matter how hard they try.

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    What happens when Ilya decides to die on the same day as his mother did, will someone be able to stop him? Will anyone notice or is it going to be too late?

    This story follows Ilya throughout his last 20 days, he is determined to die.

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    “I can’t have this baby.”

    Ilya has never asked Shane for anything in ten years.

    But this—

    This, he refuses to lose.

    Or: one missed suppressant, one impossible decision, and the moment everything they never said finally matters.

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