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    Shane looked up at him. “I’m fine, Ilya. Just tired.”

    “Okay. It’s fine if you’re not okay, though. We can handle that.”

    He doubted that Ilya, Anya, Harris, Coach Wiebe, his parents, The Irina Foundation, Rose, or even the gas station attendant down the road from their house could handle the idea of Shane looking at the black hole in his mind. It would swallow him. Everything would get out of control again.

     

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    Graphic depictions of self harm and discussions of trauma and dissociation. Deals with hazing and the ways the institution of hockey hurts anyone who doesn't fit the white, conservative mold.

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Ilya throws a party he doesn't want, breaks down and calls Shane.

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    Or how Shane and Ilya came out to the Centaurs.

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Yuna getting stuck in an elevator with Ilya for two hours doesn't change everything... but it changes some things. Like Yuna getting to be on a first-name basis with Ilya a full year before her son is.

    (Part 2 (the smutty part) is not actually essential reading if you are not in the mood for smut!)

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Away game with the Ottowa Centaurs during a harsh storm

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    19 Jun 2026