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    Shane states that he often feels as if he cannot express his emotions in a way that is understandable to others. Notably, he exhibits a constricted affect in speech and facial expressions. In interviews, he often relies on rehearsed phrases and displays of emotion to avoid misinterpretation; however, these displays are unconvincing, regardless of whether they match his true feelings. Altogether, this has gained him a reputation of being “robotic”.

    SH: He was doing all this research, worried he was a terrible dad, and he and his wife started noticing… similarities.
    JP: Oh my God.
    SH: So the next time I saw my therapist, I was like, can you believe this? My best friend’s wife told me she thinks I have autism. And the look on her face was just—I fucked up. Even I could tell.
    JP: She forgot to tell you?
    SH: She thought I already knew.

    or: shane hollander gets an autism diagnosis at age thirty-two. it changes nothing, and also everything.

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    What if Scott Hunter never kissed Kip Grady on live television? What if Troy Barrett couldn't bring himself to go first? What if Hayden Pike had watched his fanmail videos before sending them?

    What if one of the first out NHL players was a kid from Canada that 30-something Shane Hollander had decided he cared about?

    After Holmberg and Young are outed from a compromising photo, Shane and Ilya do the only thing they can think of - make sure they know they're not alone.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Hayden's young son is diagnosed as autistic, and he begins to realize that he's seen a lot of these symptoms before...in his best friend. Now Shane's having to come to terms with being one of those people who slipped through the cracks as a child and is diagnosed as an adult. How can Ilya and the rest of their friends support him through this?

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    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

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    29 Mar 2026

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