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    Yuna's breath caught. "What did you say, baby?"

    "Please." Shane's forehead was still pressed to his knee. "Please, please, please—"

    Hayden shifted closer. "Please what? Tell me what you need, Shane.”

    Then, so faint that all three of them had to lean in just to catch it. "...I need him.”

    Yuna's hand found David's. "Who, sweetheart? Who do you need?"

    “Ilya."

     

    Or: It's been a month since the tuna melts. Shane's been getting closer to breaking every day, until he finally does, in front of his parents and the Pikes. In the middle of the panic, he blurts out the only thing he needs: Ilya. So they call him.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Following the move to Ottawa, Ilya is struggling to keep his head above water. The Centaurs seem incapable of winning, his house is still half-unpacked at best, and Shane is two hours away in Montreal. After months of struggling alone, Ilya unexpectedly shows up at the Hollanders’ house one night, terrified of his own thoughts.

    In the months that follow, Ilya hits low after low, struggling with his newly-diagnosed depression. David and Yuna do their best to be there for him while distance is still keeping Shane and Ilya apart.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

    *****

    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    22 Jul 2026

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    “Just one more question, Mr. Rozanov.”

    “How were you able to stay focused tonight after learning of your father's passing?”

    Ilya stood frozen, eyes glued to the camera. Jaw locked. On the screen, his chest barely moved, each breath turning dangerously shallow.

    Shane didn't realize what he was doing until he was already shoving the heavy conference room doors open.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov learns of his father's death during a live press conference and has a panic attack. Shane goes to him. In front of everyone.

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    22 Jul 2026

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    "Rozy," Brian, the team doctor says, "talk to me, buddy. That puck clipped you pretty good, how’s the pain?"

    Ilya blinks. He clenches his jaw against a wave of nausea. He rests his cheek on the ice, and the cold helps a little.

    "Bad. Very bad." He swallows. "Is Shane here?"

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    or, in the final MTL/BOS game of the year, ilya takes a puck to the head.

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    20 Jul 2026