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So...you might know me. I'm the one who wrote Wilted Flower.
And I liked it. I liked writing that. But for some reason... I feel so blank.
I don't know if it's writer's block, or being overwhelmed with so many ideas that my brain can't seem to grasp. But first I just want to say thank you for making it this far with me. I haven't been able to finish any sort of long-term work or anything until now, and looking back at it, I feel finally fulfilled. Satisfied.
But for some reason...whenever I try to write, nothing comes up. Most are left unfinished...and I even delete them later, I have to admit.
And... I know that I feel like some sort of idiot for writing this. Posting a rant rather than a nice fanfic to you guys.
I guess I'm just nervous for the Arcana. It's been really hard for me ever since my favourite character died, and I'm still trying to process it all and somehow move on while still believing there might be a happy ending for everyone after the whole piece of CRAP that was Episode 15. No hate to anyone who liked it, but it's just my opinion. And yeah... I still feel that WL's ending felt more like an escape for her. Leaving the people that she had to reconcile with, even if it was messy, to going to the people in her 'comfort zone' who understood her (namely mostly Elder Faerie).
And it didn't feel right.
But enough of that. It's about me, and I seriously don't know what to call this. Burnout? Stress? Confusion? Grief? Rage? Obsession? I honestly don't know anymore.
And yeah, in case you guys were looking for a good story and this shows up in your tags... this is a rant by a possibly burnt out teenager who's already DYING in her CS class and the one thing that brought her joy suddenly lost it's spark.
Who probably writes these characters OOC and has a reading that's too naive and stuff.
Oh, and about Wilted Flower? I released a oneshot that takes place after, Scars. But about the rest of the series... I want to finish it... but I also don't want to end up rewriting all of Beast-Yeast. Though there are some things that I hated, it was generally well-written and I actually enjoyed it. I especially liked the concept of fighting an evil version of yourself, realizing something you missed, and transforming into something greater than you already are (Also the main characters in this AU are PV and WL). That's what I've even seen in some Magical Girl shows. (like Smile PreCure...but at this point CRK's giving more of a Madoka Magica vibe, and even then Madoka's ending was actually done better)
I guess the first one is more obvious in diverging from canon (since we got a WL who was already revived and disguised herself...also more PureLily without it being boring), but I don't know about the others. I also want to do something with Truthless Recluse (aka emo PV. I like TruthlessLily, mainly because of A Heart That Screams, though my sister doesn't) but incorporating it seems so hard... even in a different AU, which I'm too exhausted to start. And I might not even want to because I want to finish this one.
So...I hope you guys enjoy what I wrote. I put my heart and soul into it. I love these guys and I want them to be happy... or even the best, I guess. But...I don't know anymore.
Anyway...I would like to thank the following users who left Kudos here:
LazyProcrastinatorCalledAnne,The_black_lady, AlySilly, Purelilyliker717, Galactivatita, oshawottdewott, GigiNoli, wlcssc, Illitthebest12gok, jellieyouo, kisslyjiu_8, Flying_Blueberry, starryace, Elit_Lily, Gabi987321, Marylinlily, Ed0014, DrawZy, Aliinaaa, VetaGraywine, Lililicious_the_Lily, yourmomsonlyfans123, SynsetPunk, Flo4t, StrawberryJammed, BerryCake_b, Lady_InLavender, Musen123, Blue_Diamonds424, Mickblaze, abcif, CheizyChei, Dinodiarys, fortyyyyyyy, CcLiaFLVB, Squishazel, moonacorn2808, venus_melody, NoemiChan, Idk135252, Ahuzar, inexcusabledegringolade, Knmf_4_Life, LilyVanilly, AntiquePorcelain, TheArtsyMoose, Redlightgreenlight123, Mx_Gemi, catastrophic_angel, pleasantpurple, and 1 more user as well as the other 98 guests.
And my friends. And my sister.
And the other users who commented or at least read it. Or my other stories. I'm glad to have been able to share my work with you.
Until then, take care. I'm glad I was able to express this at least.
Love,
Azalea