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Today was the day. The day I’ve been waiting for since I first came to Twisted Wonderland, I was finally going to my world. I couldn’t help but be excited yet scared for this, I miss my world, the scenery, the familiar things, the foods. But there is the fact that even if I lived there my whole life, I was always out of place. People always looked at me like I was the scum of the Earth, never giving me some sort of belief that I’m more than just a monster. They always see my face-my scares and think they know me better then my parents did before they passed in the accident.
That day when the black carriage took me here to Twisted Wonderland was when I was going to take my life. I had everything planned out. After school that day I would go back to my apartment and take things that could help people identify me after so that maybe someone could look back at me and think “Poor Yuu.” that’s all I ever wanted. I wanted someone to see the bottle of pills I would take all at once and go “Huh” I wanted them to see my body splayed out at the bottom of the bridge and see me there. My body all bursted open from the impact of it falling down the long way. It would've all gone as planned if it weren't for the carriage. And suddenly my world became brighter.
Twisted Wonderland is a world of mysteries! There’s so many new and different things from my world and things that still haven’t been discovered here and it’s so wonderful. I felt better than I have ever felt in years, I felt loved and known. They don’t see me as a monster, they only see me as Yuu, my own person and not someone who should’ve died instead. My friends are amazing and I could never ask for anyone better than them.
From the A-Deuce duo, to the house wardens, the first years, and the ghosts! There’s so many friends I’ve made through my time here and Grim. My first friend here, someone who I see as family, more family than the rest of them. My friends are all my family but Grim will always be my family, my son. So when Crowley said he finally found a way to get me back to my world I felt everything shift, I couldn’t believe it, I was happy at first but then I felt dread, I couldn’t leave them behind, I had a life here, one I am so hesitant to leave behind.
So here I am now standing in front of the black mirror as my family watches, some crying and some trying to hide it. I stared so hollow at the black mirror when I finally said something.
“Is it possible that I… didn’t go back?”
“What?” Said Crowley, he stared at me blankly, suddenly it was silent.
“I just. I just can’t, my world it’s horrible I can’t stand it there, no one likes me there so why can’t I stay here?” I couldn’t help it but if i went through with this I wouldn’t ever forgive myself from leaving them all.
“Oh… Well as your so overwhelmingly generous and kind I shall let you decide what you want to do! Even if this took me all year to do.” He mumbled that last part but I ignored it.
I looked at everyone there, Riddle was tearing up, Trey was silently crying, Cater was doing a weird combination of crying and taking pictures most likely to remember this. Leona was not looking at me but to the side with his eyes watery and pacing around, Ruggie was whooping and some choked laughing, Jack had his tail tucked in and his head was turned downward. The Octavinelle trio were in the back Azul was bound with magic so he wouldn’t bring harm to himself, the twins were silent and looked distant. Jamil wasn’t showing it but I could tell he was holding his tears in as he prevented Kalim who was absolutely sobbing from getting to me. Vill was silent while staring at me, Rook who was going on with his sad poems and French words, Epel was making an angry face while crying. Idia was silently looking at the ground while hugging Ortho who was rambling about anything to distract himself from it all. Sebek was yelling while crying, Silver was curled up in Lilias arms who was hanging upside down and making some sad sounds, and Malleus was trying to hide behind Lilia but he was too tall for that. And finally Ace and Deuce were crying loudly while threatening me to try and contact them in my world while holding a silently crying Grim.
But that all stopped as they looked at me in shock after what I said. And when Crowley finished talking it was like they finally snapped back into their senses, the A-Deuce duo with Grim and tackled me into a hug, Grim was crying and rubbing against me, he was purring and getting his fur and tears all over me. And I couldn’t help it but start laughing and crying. I was going to stay with my family.
Before I knew it everyone was around me hugging, talking, and trying to act natural when they were anything but natural. But it’s good I wouldn’t have this any other way. I will always love and stay with my family until the end.