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The call came in just after ten.
It was the kind of dispatch call that Athena barely looked at twice anymore (smoke reported in an older building, possible electrical issues). No casualties yet. No chaos. Not the kind of call that sends your stomach plummeting. Still, she was in uniform within minutes, sliding behind the wheel with the ease of muscle memory, and pulling up on scene before most of the other units had cleared the intersection.
It was an area, a cracked complex she’d been to before. Low income, mostly seniors and single renters. The kind of building that hadn’t seen a fire inspection in a few years too many. She knew the landlord by name. Knew the names of three tenants, too. One of them, a tenant she had gotten to know over several calls, was already outside in a housecoat, waving frantically and calling for her cat.
“Stay back from the building,” Athena instructed her gently, guiding her toward the curb with a light hand on her elbow. The woman smelled faintly of gas and hair spray. “We’ll make sure everyone is accounted for. I need you to breathe, okay?”
She could hear the smoke alarms going off inside. Not the loud piercing ones newer buildings had (these were dull and stuttering, like someone had muffled them under a pillow). The scent of burning plastic lingered in the air. Probably a faulty outlet in someone’s kitchen.
Her hand pressed instinctively to her radio. “Dispatch, LAPD is on scene. Beginning sweep for any remaining occupants.”
She didn’t wait for confirmation. She moved. After all this is what she had to do, it’s her job.
Athena climbed the stairs with practiced ease, sidestepping an overturned laundry basket and stepping over a broken piece of molding that had peeled from the wall. Her senses were already narrowing to focus to watch for smoke, for heat, for noise, for movement. The kind of high-alert calm that had become second nature after decades in the job. She was in control. She was composed.
She was fine.
Until she wasn’t.
“Ma’am,” a voice called from somewhere down the hall behind her. “We need you to clear the east stairwell.”
Just six words.
But they hit her like a dropped hammer. Something about the cadence. The timbre. The authority layered over warmth. She stopped mid-step. Not because the words were unfamiliar, but because they were. Athena turned slowly, unsure what she was expecting but whatever it was, it wasn’t him. It’s never him.
Time didn’t slow down.
It crashed.
He was standing there, a dozen feet away, framed in the hazy hallway like some goddamn memory that forgot to stay buried. Helmet off, soot smudged faintly across the sleeve of his jacket, a radio in one hand and that look on his face that same quiet stillness that used to make her feel like she could breathe after the worst of nights.
Bobby.
The name crashed against her chest before her mind even had time to process the rest. Her heart didn’t race; it stumbled, stuttered. She couldn’t move. Couldn’t speak. The hallway was suddenly too quiet and too loud all at once. The smoke curling past the broken emergency light, the buzz of a radio a few feet away, her pulse in her ears like surf on the shore.
He looked older.
Not just in the face, but in the shoulders. The lines around his mouth were deeper, carved in by grief or time or both. There was gray in his hair now, cut a little shorter than she remembered. But his eyes-
God. His eyes hadn’t changed at all.
“Athena,” he said, and his voice cracked just enough to gut her.
The sound of it opened something in her chest, something she didn’t realize she’d welded shut. It was like hearing an echo from a house that had long since collapsed. She swallowed hard, her throat dry, but nothing in her training prepared her for this kind of scene.
It was him. In a 118 jacket. In this city. At this call.
“Cap,” someone called over the radio, maybe Hen, maybe Chimney. The 118 she knew well. After all their paths crossed more than she’d like to admit. However this time? The voice over the radio? It barely registered. “You good?”
He didn’t look away. Neither did she.
But then Athena blinked once, sharply and all the air came rushing back in. She straightened, spine snapping taut, years of armor clicking into place like the barrel of a gun. Her voice, when she found it, was clipped. Controlled.
“The fire department has the scene,” she said coolly. “You’re clear.” She spoke into her radio.
And then she turned her back on him.
She had walked away with every ounce of composure she could force into her limbs. She didn’t let herself glance back. Didn’t pause to breathe until she was outside and back in the blinding daylight, the sounds of the city rushing in like a flood. She didn’t know how long she stood there, staring at the cracked sidewalk, her hands shaking just barely at her sides.
But she knew one thing for certain.
Bobby Nash was back in Los Angeles.
And the past she’d spent decades trying to outrun had just walked through the fire.
Bobby stood in the stairwell long after she walked away.
The smoke had mostly cleared, the faintest burnt plastic smell still clinging to the air, but it was the silence that got to him. It was too sharp, too loud it kept ringing in his ears. He wasn’t listening to the radio in his ear. Wasn’t registering the voices of his team or the movement of residents filing back into the building. Everything blurred at the edges except the echo of her footsteps retreating down the hallway.
Athena.
He hadn’t said her name out loud in over twenty years, but it lived in his bones. Just hearing it in his own voice again, barely a whisper, it was enough to make his chest feel like it was splintering.
She looked the same in all the ways that mattered, and completely different in the ways that hurt. Her hair was styled tighter, her uniform more polished. Her mouth had been set in a hard, closed line that didn’t used to belong to her. But those eyes? He would’ve known them anywhere.
There was no shock in her face. No softness. Just steel. She didn’t smile. Didn’t ask why he was back. She didn’t even look surprised. She looked like someone who had buried him a long time ago. And didn’t expect to be haunted.
He swore he felt something shift in the foundation beneath him. Like the city had rearranged itself in the few seconds it took her to meet his eyes and look away.
“Cap,” someone called from down the hall. Hen’s voice. “We’re clear.”
Bobby blinked, but didn’t answer. Not right away.
His hand found the railing beside him, gripped it like an anchor. The hallway was cool again, but the heat from earlier still clung faintly to the walls. It reminded him of her. Of waking up next to her. Of late summer nights in that old apartment with the busted AC and the soft humming of her breathing in his ear.
He hadn’t expected it to hit him like this. Not today. Not so soon.
He knew she’d still be here, of course she would. She was Athena Carter. The most stubborn, dedicated person he’d ever known. The woman who used to come home with blood on her uniform and fire in her eyes and still kiss him on the mouth like it was the best part of her day. He’d imagined seeing her again, sure. What she might look like. Whether she’d still wear her badge the same way.
But he’d never prepared for this.
For her silence.
For her walking past him like he was just another uniformed stranger on a call.
And maybe he was.
Maybe that’s all he was now.
He exhaled a breath he didn’t remember holding and let his eyes fall closed for a second. Just a second.
What the hell am I doing here?
Athena sat in the cruiser with the door still wide open, one foot planted on the asphalt like it might tether her to the earth. Her fingers gripped the steering wheel harder than necessary. Her throat was dry. Her heart beat steady, but the space between beats felt jagged. Like something inside her was rattling loose.
She hadn’t meant to sit there.
She’d told herself she was going to get in, take a breath, and drive away. Just like any other call. Just like any other day. But her limbs wouldn’t cooperate. Her body wasn’t panicking, it wasn’t like that. It wasn’t shock or fear.
It was something heavier. Something she hadn’t felt in years.
Grief.
Old grief. The kind that sat at the bottom of a quiet life and waited to be disturbed. The kind that didn’t scream or cry. It just settled into your bones until something cracked it open again. And today, he cracked it open.
She hadn’t seen Bobby Nash in over twenty years.
And yet the moment her eyes landed on him, it was like nothing had changed. Her breath still caught. Her stomach still dropped. Her skin still recognized him, even if every part of her soul screamed to turn away.
The problem was, she didn’t just see the man he was now.
She saw him then.
She saw the man who used to bring her coffee just the way she liked it with extra cream, no sugar. The man who read baby name books to her while they painted the nursery walls a soft, hopeful yellow. The man who held her hand through the sonogram and whispered “that’s our baby” in a voice that made her believe in forever.
And she saw the man who left without a word.
The man who disappeared while she was on a shift. The man who folded a note next to the crib they had never finished, and never came back.
So when she heard the footsteps behind her, measured and hesitant, she didn’t turn. She didn’t need to. She knew that rhythm like her own heartbeat, even after all these years.
“I wasn’t expecting to see you,” Bobby said. His voice was low, rough around the edges. Worn.
Athena kept her eyes forward. “That makes two of us.” A second of silence. “I didn’t know you were back,” she added, her tone flat. “They don’t send out bulletins when the dead rise.”
Bobby exhaled slowly behind her. Not hurt. Not angry. Just… quiet.
“I took the captain position,” he said finally. “At the 118. It opened up, and-”
“I know what it is,” she interrupted, her voice still even. Too even. “I’ve worked with them for years. I know exactly where you are. I just didn’t think you’d come here.”
She could feel him hesitate. Could almost feel the guilt bleeding off him in waves.
“Athena,” he said softly, like her name tasted like ash in his mouth.
And finally, finally, she turned to look at him.
He was standing just a few steps away. Close enough to touch. But she didn’t dare. He looked older. Sadder. He wore the years on his face like a man who didn’t expect to survive them. But his eyes were still the same. Wide and full of weight. And right now, they were focused entirely on her like he couldn’t believe she was real.
“I don’t know what to say,” he murmured.
She laughed under her breath, bitter and hollow. “That’s new.”
His jaw twitched.
“You left me,” she said, and her voice wasn’t even cold anymore, it was burned out. “You left. No goodbye. No explanation. No phone call. Just a note. Just some coward’s last words written next to a crib we never finished.”
Bobby’s face crumpled like he’d been punched.
She didn’t stop.
“You think you were the only one who grieved?” she went on, standing up now, her words picking up steam. “You think I didn’t die, too? That I didn’t wake up every morning with that silence in my chest and wonder if I was even still real?”
“I thought I was protecting you,” he said, voice cracking. “I thought if I stayed, I’d drag you down with me. I couldn’t…Athena, I couldn’t stay.”
“You didn’t even try,” she said, eyes shining now, not with tears, but rage. “You didn’t let me choose. You just left. You left me to bury our baby and our future and everything we were, and you made me do it alone.”
His eyes dropped. His whole body sagged like her words knocked the breath out of him.
“I know I did,” he whispered. “And I’ve hated myself for it every day since.”
Athena stared at him. He looked sincere. He looked broken. But that didn’t change anything.
“It’s too late, Bobby,” she said. Her voice was low now. Steady. “You don’t get to rewrite history just because you finally came up for air.”
“I’m not trying to rewrite anything,” he said. “I just… I thought maybe I could…”
“What?” she asked, eyes narrowing. “Make amends? Clean your conscience? Get a second chance?”
“I thought maybe I could say I’m sorry,” he said, and there was something raw in it now. Honest. “To you. For all of it.”
The silence between them stretched. Athena looked at him for a long time. Really looked. And then, softly:
“You’re not the only one who lost something.”
She didn’t yell. She didn’t cry. But somehow that sentence hit harder than anything she’d said before. Bobby nodded once, jaw tight. She could see the shine in his eyes now. Could see how hard he was trying to hold it in.
She didn’t let it move her.
With one last look, she stepped back into her cruiser. Closed the door gently.
Didn’t slam it.
She didn’t look at him again. Not when she pulled out. Not when she turned onto the main road. Not when he faded out of her rearview mirror like smoke.
But her hands were trembling on the wheel.
And her throat felt like fire.
The drive back to the firehouse felt surreal.
Sunlight was starting to break through the cloud cover, and the roads were that strange midmorning quiet, but Bobby couldn’t stop replaying the scene in his head. Athena’s face, the way she squared her shoulders, the cold clarity in her voice.
“The fire department has the scene.”
Like he hadn’t once kissed every inch of her skin. Like she hadn’t once curled his hand over her stomach and said, “This is ours.”
That memory came out of nowhere.
It hit him in the chest like a punch. Athena standing barefoot in their hallway, wearing one of his old sweatshirts over her growing belly, laughing as he struggled to fold the baby stroller. He remembered the way her eyes lit up. The way her fingers had brushed against his jaw, slow and gentle, before she leaned up to kiss him and said, “We’re going to be okay.”
He had believed her. He had believed it right up until the day everything broke.
When he got back to the firehouse, he didn’t stop to talk to anyone. He nodded at Chim, gave a quick pat to Buck’s shoulder as the younger man rambled about some chaos in the breakroom, and made a beeline to his office.
The door closed with a quiet click. He didn’t bother turning on the light.
Instead, he sat down at his desk like a man too tired to stand anymore. The sounds of the firehouse were muffled here: boots on tile, laughter behind closed doors, the faint hiss of a coffee pot but all of it felt impossibly distant.
He opened the bottom drawer.
He knew exactly what he was reaching for. He kept it at the back, hidden behind stacked files and folded uniform shirts he never wore anymore.
A soft, worn envelope. Paper yellowed at the edges. Taped shut so long ago it had curled from time. He slid it open carefully.
Inside were two photos.
The first: Athena. Her academy graduation. Someone had taken it right after the ceremony, catching her mid-laugh with a soda in one hand and her badge gleaming on her chest. She looked young and untouchable, like joy was a thing she wore without thinking. He hadn’t been in the frame, but he remembered standing just off to the side. He’d kissed her that night like he knew he was the luckiest man alive.
The second: the ultrasound.
It was grainy. Out of focus. Barely more than a blur. But he saw what he needed to see, what he’d lost. What they both had. What he hadn’t been strong enough to stay for.
He stared at the images for a long time, elbows braced on the desk, his face lit only by the soft gray light drifting through the blinds.
He swallowed once, then again. His throat burned.
“I wasn’t ready to see her,” he said quietly, voice raw. “I thought I was. I thought if I kept my head down, if I focused on the job, it wouldn’t matter. But I saw her, and… it’s like I never left.”
He paused.
Then, quieter: “It’s like I never stopped loving her.”
He pressed the photo of Athena to his chest. For a second he just held it there, breath shaking, eyes shut. His skin felt too tight. His lungs too full. The memories came in waves. Memories filled with her laugh, her anger, her kiss, the last look she gave him before everything went silent.
He hadn’t come back for her.
He told himself that again and again. That this was about the job. About closure. About rebuilding a life that had burned down to ash more than once.
But it was a lie. Or at least, not the whole truth.
He came back because the only place that ever felt like home was wherever she was. And now that he’d seen her again…
He wasn’t sure if he could stay.
Not if she wouldn’t even say his name.