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Kim Seungmin is considered one of the most reliable person in the group that the members depend on. He is somewhat a stable person. Hence why he never really have someone to confide because he never had to, unlike the others .
He has always been fine, he really was.
For some reason, he doesn't know why, he's been feeling all over the place lately
At first, it was just him having bad days. It started with a constant exhaustions that turned into feeling drained all the time before it gradually worsen to falling a little behind between all these schedule.
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Yesterday was the halfway mark of their current tour and the temporary end before the next stop. They got 2 months break but still, there are a lot of schedule ahead of him in preparation for new albums, events, practices, and any other future plan.
Kim Seungmin is a consistent and hardworking person. He has always been prided that way. He slept quite early, so it should be no problem going to work productively after plenty of rest but why is it so hard to get out of bed today?
His body felt incredibly sore, unable him to even move. Nevertheless, he forced himself to get up. He had to. Afterall, his schedule for today is easy, so should be okay, right?
Wrong.
His vision started spinning as he got up, his head felt so light that it caused him imbalance. He recognized the symptoms, it's vertigo right? Atleast, that's what he thought.
Vertigo is not uncommon. Not to mentioned, that his family has a history of it. Vertigo is just a symptom though. It cannot be used as an indication to name a medical issue. He doesn't know why, he has been experiencing it frequently these days. Still, he didn't tell anyone.
He sat on the bed. Leaning towards the frame, eyes closed.
'It's fine,' He thought to himself, 'It's nothing.'
He could handle it. He would closed his eyes and wait until it died down. He's used to it, he'll be okay. This is a newly found routine of him afterall.
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He was almost right. The spinning luckily stopped, but instead, it was replaced by a painful headache. One of the worst ones he has ever experience. One that made fall back to bed and rest but too bad, he can't do that so he'll endure it.
He forced himself to move and get ready before breakfast. Truthfully, he's not in the mood to eat. He hasn't been in the mood to eat for awhile, but he has to. Whether he likes it or not, even if today's schedule is easy, he still need energy for physical training from food.
"Eat. It's fine, even if it's just a little" He convinced himself before munching down a piece of toast with a poached egg on top and gulped down some acetaminophen to get rid of the headache.
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He was just finished clearing his dish when Felix came out of his own room all dressed up,
"Thought you're still sleeping, i was about to wake you up..."
"Yeah, i got ready before these. Have you eaten yet, Yongbok?"
"I already ate in my room. Are we set to go?"
Seungmin only replied with a nod and grabbed his things before leaving.
It has became a new regular arrangement for them. After they were assigned in the same dorm, he's been driving the both of them together since Felix doesn't have his license yet.
The car was filled with the non-stop yapping of Felix and his occasional singing or rap to the song he blasted.
The headache was growing worse instead of better. It bothered him so much as he drives. He closes his eyes without realizing and accidentally went a stray.
Felix realizes and panicked.
The car almost crash but Seungmin quickly took back control and pulled over. Both of them were shocked by the sudden adrenaline.
Felix asked in between heavy breath,
"Seungminnie, what happened?"
Seungmin shook his head,
"I-i'm sorry.. I didn;t realized... i was- I-"
He trembled in panic as tears about to fell out. Felix quickly held him in comfort,
"No, it's fine. It's just... Are you okay? Is there anything bothering you? If there's something wrong, i'll excused you to the others"
"NO!" He yelled a little, "Sorry, i mean i'm fine. I'm okay. Let's just continue our way"
Seungmin regained his composure and continued their way. Felix was hesitant but went along while still observing the younger's condition
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They rushed to the practice room, the others were already gathered and waiting for them.
Bang Chan smiled at their arrival,
"There you guys are! What took you so long?"
Before Felix could answered, Seungmin quickly opened his mouth,
"We got ready a little late and there's some traffic"
Felix frowned. He looked at him confused and pulled him to the side after their briefing,
"Why did you lie to Chan-hyung?"
"Are you still worry and shaken about earlier? I'm sorry, i promise it won't happened again"
Felix sighs,
"No, it's not that. Seungminnie, i'm worried about you"
Seungmin shakes his head,
"I'm fine, it's not that big of a deal to fuss over. Chan-Hyung has a lot of burden, no need to add more of his concern"
He lied.
I mean it's true that Chan has a lot to weigh but truthfully, he doesn't want to be interrogated of the accident. For some reason, he's scared that he'll accidentally spilled about his complaints when admitting the reason.
On the other hand, what Seungmin said was right. So Felix let him go.
Seungmin felt a little relief but still a bit wary as he felt worried glances from Felix. Seungmin smiled and gestured him a reassurance before starting the practise.