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Sometimes I think about the kids from season 1 and want to cry.
Sometimes I think about the middle and high schoolers of season 1 and cry.
I think of the people before the past collided with the present and eventual future.
I think of Serena/Usagi whose best friends with Molly/Naru. Of the girl who loved sleeping and sweets. Who smiled always and acted her age; every goofy and funny thing she did with her whole chest.
I think of the young girl who became sailor moon for her best friend. Who was scared of thunderstorms and had no idea what she wanted to do with her life other than helping people. Of the girl who gathered the sailor scouts and made them friends.
Sometimes I think of Ami Mizuno/Amy Anderson who was so lonely and blushed way to easily. Of the girl who loved to read and play chess. Who always had a soft smile on her face and was forever exasperated by her friends antics.
I think of the girl who was the first sailor scout after the moon. Of the girl who was afraid of disappointment. The girl who wanted to be a doctor. And was afraid of the monsters of the negaverse but fought anyway, because her friend needed help.
Sometimes I think Raye/Rei Hino the girl who loved and fought as freely and passionately as the element she wielded. Thoughts of the girl who loved to watch tv and read fiction. Who loved to tease her friends and pushed them to be their best.
I think of the girl who fought before becoming a sailor scout, and of the girl who took on the mantle of war to defend her home. Of the girl who was unapologetically herself and was the first attack of the scouts. The girl who dreamed of going into the entertainment field, who wanted to perform.
Sometimes I think about Lita/Makoto Kino who was just as lonely as Ami. Of the girl who fought to express herself, her way. The girl who got into fights with her fists and legs. Of the girl who loved to cook and bake. And was as boy crazy as her leader.
I think of the girl who threw herself at everything with her whole heart. Of the give who inspired people with words. The girl who became Sailor Jupiter because it was the right thing to do. Whose sense of justice was as strong as the lightning and thunder she wielded.
Sometimes I think of Mina/Minako Aino the girl who aimed for the moon and landed among the stars. Thoughts of the girl with a smile that could light up a room. So unappolgitacally herself, unafraid to love and be loved. Unafraid to push limits and bring the best in others.
I think of the girl who became a sailor scout because she was the only one there. Of the girl who became Sailor Venus captain of the Sailor Scouts. I think of the girl who loved to dance and whose dream was to perform. Who shined as brightly as the element of light she wields.
Sometimes I think of Darien Shields/Chiba Mamoru, of the seventeen year old who was best friends with Andrew/Motoki Furuhata. The boy who loved to tease the cute girl at the café. The boy who dreamed of being a doctor, of helping people. The boy who longed to get his memory back, who wanted to remember the faces and voices of the people he called his family.
I think of the boy who became Tuxedo Mask; of the boy who was afraid of needles. I think of the boy who used roses as a weapon and who threw himself into every fight for a girl he didn't know and fading dream he barely remembered. I think of the boy who was steady as his planet.
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Sometimes I also think of the after.
Of the friends who are no longer friends.
I think of the group who fought by each other as family in every way that mattered. I think about how now they're subordinate and master.
I think about how it is Neo-Queen Serenity and no longer Serena/Usagi. No more sleeping in or lazing about; no more teasing nicknames like meatball head. No more uncertain dreams just a kingdom to rule. Just a role to play.
I think about how now its Sailor Mercury no longer Ami/Amy. No more slow reading days or blushing at romance books. No more late night study sessions and early morning talks. No more dreams of being a doctor. Just solider and companion to the queen no longer friend.
I think about how its Sailor Mars now instead at Raye/Rei. I think about how there's no more fire reading with the girls and no more random shopping sprees just because. No more dreams of being on stage. Now there is only the sailor of war. Only the right hand of the queen.
I think about how now its Sailor Jupiter instead of Lita/Makoto. I think about how now there are no more late night phone calls to her captain and leader talking about boys. No more random cooking lessons or spontaneous baking parties. Instead there is Sailor Jupiter the strongest of the sailor scouts.
I think about how its Sailor Venus now, instead of Mina/Minako Aino. I think about how there are no more mid-day study "breaks". No more long tv marathons until early in the morning. No more idol training. Now there is just Sailor Venus, second-in-command of the sailor scouts and their captain. Only Sailor Venus the most beautiful scout remains.
I think about how its King Endymion now, instead of Darien/Mamoru.I think about how there no more mid-day visits to his best friends café. No more teasing nicknames between him and the cute girl, no more mock fights. Or relaxing afternoons by the lake. No more dreams of becoming a doctor. Now instead it is King Endymion, husband and other half of Neo-Queen Serenity.
I think about how they were 22 and 25. Too young for forever loves and destines. Too young to rule the world and too young to stop chasing dreams