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Saturday 7 a.m. and BaekHyun already has no energy. He doesn't feel like getting out of bed, but then he reminds himself that this is for Byul, not for him, so he gets up, throw on something comfy and gets on with his day, which consist on preparing his son's bag for the day, wake him up, dress him and feed him, and then the worst part: To wait for ChanYeol to pick him up for the weekend.
Don't take him wrong, ChanYeol is a great dad, and even when they are separated, he still trusts completely in him, enough to leave his precious son in his care, but he can't help feeling anxious, and maybe he's the one suffering and not Byul, who loves his dad to the moon, but he's just a baby, only two years old, and BaekHyun feels the need to be glued to him at all times.
Thinking about it makes his stomach churn and he even thinks he'll need to throw up, but soon the nausea recedes. He takes a deep breath and makes a mental list of the things he put in the bag; milk and bottles, diapers, two changes of clothes and one of Byul's favorite jammies. He knows ChanYeol already has all of these in his apartment, but just in case. He also makes room for a few toys, specially the one Byul goes to sleep with.
He's finishing feeding his son when the bell rings. He instinctively runs a hand through his hair to accommodate it, but catches himself in the process and messes it up again. Byul is shouting blabberings and seems to wake up completely at the prospect of seeing his daddy. this makes BaekHyun smile, he used to be that happy too, but things have changed, and now it's just... nothing, not even a nuisance, just awkward.
He opens the door and his tall ex husband greets him with the brightest smile ever. Too bright for 8 in the morning, so he just makes a gesture with his hand and moves to the side to let him inside the house. Usually ChanYeol would go straight to take Byul in his arms, but today he takes a double look at BaekHyun, like something has got his attention, but the he goes on and lifts the baby from the high chair to spin them around in a hug.
"Be careful, he just ate."
"Ouch, you are right, sorry!" ChanYeol is fast to apologize, as always, and hugs Byul tight to his chest, the baby jiggles and laughs, probably asking for more turns if his "Dadda mhhm" is something to take in consideration, "But we don't want Byul to throw up, no, no, so no more spinning!!"
Thinking about cleaning vomit has BaekHyun with a knot in his throat, so he brushes the thought and extends his arm asking for his baby, so he can say goodbye properly. ChanYeol quickly concedes, and as soon as BaekHyun has Byul, he hugs him and kisses his cheeks like there is no tomorrow. ChanYeol doesn't hurries him, he never does, and BaekHyun takes his time whispering how much he loves his little baby and how they are gonna be together soon, even before he notices.
When he's ready to let his baby go, ChanYeol takes Byul and says his usual goodbyes, obviously repeating everything they are going to do during the weekend for BaekHyun's peace of mind.
Right before they get out of the door, ChanYeol turns around and once again looks at BaekHyun as if studying him.
"Do I have something on my face?" BaekHyun asks confused.
"No, is not that, but... did you do something to your... skin maybe? You look... radiant."
"Don't try to flirt with me Park ChanYeol, we're already divorced." Not amused by ChanYeol teasing, he shushes him out, and blow a few more kisses to Byul.
"I'm not flirting, but really, you look... different."
BaekHyun can't help but to look at himself in the mirror right after ChanYeol left with their son.
***
"Do you think he was trying to flirt with you?? Maybe he's pent up and wanted a quicky?"
"Shut up JongDae, he's not like that. And even if that was the case I won't do it. It's over, we're over."
"Yeah you are over, but that didn't stop the both of you to get it on for one last time. Or am I wrong?"
Fuck. His friend's right.
"We were drunk, I told you. And as you said, that was the last time, no more, like, never."
It had been exactly two months ago. They finished all the paperwork and were officially divorced. It was on good terms, so they decided to celebrate getting shitfaced, taking advantage of the fact that Chanyeol's parents were babysitting Byul. Somewhere down the road things had taken a sudden turn, what was stating his differences and the cause of the spark between them finally dying down, turned to lamenting the things that they did wrong and what would they change if they were to do it all over again. That took them to reminiscing the old times, when they were young and so in love that they were convinced it would last forever. And the sex, oh... the sex was so good that they used to go at it like bunnies. They even were a hundred percent sure that they had conceived Byul inside the car while they were coming back from the movies. Yeah, they didn't even made it home, too horny to care.
"I miss those times..."
"Me too. You gave the best blowjobs ever." ChanYeol had his eyes closed, like picturing a specific memory.
"Gave? Hah! Sorry to correct you, but I still give the best head you're gonna ever get. No joke." BaekHyun was slightly offended, but then he looked at ChanYeol's crotch and he knew he was right. The other was getting hard just by thinking about it.
"I can't say for sure, you have not given me one since when... two years ago?" He didn't sound sour, but it came out like a challenge, and BaekHyun is competitive enough to pick the bait, so he got down on his knees and started undoing ChanYeol's zipper.
"Hey! What are you doing Baek?"
"What you do you think? I'm showing you what you'll be missing from now on" And saying that he engulfed ChanYeol's cock like he was starved.
Someone knocking on the door gets him back to the present, but he's too slow, so is JongDae the one that goes to open, either way, he knows it's just MinSeok, twenty elegant minutes late, as always.
"I know you ordered pizza, so I just brought the wine." He says happily waving the bottle of sauvignon blanc.
That's BaekHyun's favorite, and the one pleasure he reserves for the weekends, when Byul is with his father. He claps and invites Minnie to sit next to him on the couch, JongDae still at the door.
"Pizza it's also here guys!!"
So they make space on the coffee table to put some plates and glasses. They are eating garbage food, but there is no way they wont be fancy while doing it.
When JongDae sets the box on the center of the table and opens it, the hot steam full of flavors fills the air of the living room, and at that exact moment, BaekHyun stands up and runs to the bathroom. His stomach is almost empty, but he can't help but hold the toilet bowl and spill his guts until there's nothing left inside his poor body. He feels awful, and probably the weird feeling he has had these last few days is really some kind of virus upsetting his stomach. He hopes he didn't pass it to Byul. He has to call ChanYeol to let him know, so he can be prepared in case their son starts with symptoms.
His friends look very worried when he makes it back to the living room, the smell still making him gag, so instead of sitting with them again, he goes to the kitchen for a glass of water. It seems he wont be eating or drinking anything tonight, something extremely unusual since he became single again and with a little of "me time" to spend with friends.
Sunday evening comes fast enough and it's time to bring Byul back to BaekHyun's house. It's weird for ChanYeol to refer to it like that, when it used to be Their house, but he gave it up during the divorce because there is no way he's gonna leave his son, and his other father, without a roof over their heads. In exchange, he took part of their savings for an apartment deposit, BaekHyun insisted, even when he told him he could stay with KyungSoo until he solved things up.
His friend and co-worker had offered him a place to stay when he first told him about the divorce. It felt nice to have someone to lean on during the worst part of everything, a friend who helped him to clear his head and distract him for a moment, specially when everyone was asking stupid questions or trying to give him unwanted advice. He just wanted peace.
At the beginning, his separation with BaekHyun wasn't so friendly as it was now. There was a time where they fought every other day, a lot of sleepless nights that he spent trying to understand where they lose their complicity, why he preferred to stay late at his son's bedroom Watching him sleep, than going to bed and make love to his husband.
They used to be the best partners ever. At college, all his classmates were jealous of them and the perfect couple they were. He would have given the world for BaekHyun, and when they graduated and BaekHyun proposed, he was the happiest man in the entire world. He remember their promises, their vows to each other that now seemed so distant and surreal. They tried. They really tried. But at the bottom of their hearts they already knew that it wasn't working for them anymore, and that's when they decided to get a divorce, not wanting Byul suffering in the middle of a loveless marriage.
When BaekHyun opens the door, ChanYeol expects to hear the loud welcoming and the cooing that BaekHyun usually has for their son, but instead he just let them in with a hand gesture, and then the baby is being taken from his arms.
"Is there something wrong?" ChanYeol sounds genuinely worried "Is there something I can do? If you need help–
"No ChanYeol, stop. Just go home, ok? I'm fine, everything is fine."
Is not fine.
He's been felling sick since morning and even when he was hungry, all attempts to eat ended up in vomit and nausea.
By now, he has some idea of what could be the cause, but he's not ready to confront the truth, too afraid of the consequences that a single careless act could bring.
ChanYeol can't stop thinking about BaekHyun. He definitely wasn't right when he left the house, but he also understand that BaekHyun's private life has nothing to do with him anymore, even though he wishes he could be of help. Maybe he should take Byul more days and not only on the weekends, but how could he, he usually works until late, and even if his mother would be happy to watch the baby during the day, he doesn't want to lean on her too much. It's not her responsibility when she already raised him and his sister and now deserves to rest. And do whatever she wants.
BaekHyun never wanted a nanny, when they planned getting pregnant with Byul, BaekHyun made clear that he wanted to be as much as a full time parent as he could, so working from home was the way to go. That proved to be more easy to say than done, so after six months he finally resigned and let ChanYeol provide for the three of them. Now with the divorce, BaekHyun went back to work, half time, because ChanYeol insisted in a huge amount for child support, but still, a kid is a full time job, BaekHyun has to be overworked.
ChanYeol falls asleep brainstorming ideas to help without interfering with BaekHyun's private life, and if his dreams take him to a place where the three of them are living together again, then he will forget in the morning, or so he'll say.
Alone in his bed, BaekHyun can't sleep. He's trying to do maths in his head, but the anxiety doesn't let him remember dates and numbers jumble together and he's at the verge of crying. He stopped taking the pill the moment ChanYeol mentioned the word "divorce". They hadn't had sex in a while anyway, so what was the idea. The good thing about being a male carrier, is that he doesn't bleed once a month like women do, but the downside is he has be very strict when keeping track of his cycles, but at some point he stopped, he had no reason, so now, looking at the calendar simply wasn't working for his tired brain.
The next morning he wakes up as tired as he was the night before, or worse to be honest. The nausea coming back full force, and Byul is acting out, crying for no reason, and the only way to stop him is having him plastered to his side at all times. So here he is, sitting in the bathroom floor, with a baby in his arms and nothing in his stomach. He's gonna start crying too if he doesn't do something soon, so he calls the only person he can ask this kind of favor and finally dispel these doubts.
Half an hour after his meltdown on the phone, MinSeok comes running through the door and throws him a paper bag from the pharmacy. BaekHyun hands him the baby and without wasting any time he goes back to the bathroom.
His hands are shaking while he takes the pregnancy test from its box. No need to read the instructions, he has done this before. He sits on the toilet and prays for it to be negative, he can't have another baby, not on his own. He doesn't wanna tell ChanYeol that they'll be parents again, doesn't understand how it would work, how would he do it all over again when ChanYeol doesn't love him anymore.
MinSeok calls him from the other side of the door. He can hear Byul throwing a tantrum because he wants his papa, but now all BaekHyun wants is to be alone with his own thoughts, maybe he should throw a tantrum too, he thinks while wrapping his fingers around a positive test.
"Will you tell him?" MinSeok voice is soft, as if not to scare him, but is futile, because he's scared as fuck, and his body is not functioning right now. "You should talk to him soon, even if you decide not to keep the baby, he deserves to know."
"Why? Why should I tell him that he got me pregnant the same day he became single again. He should be enjoying his freedom and dating whomever he wants, he doesn't deserve to be watching me vomit every single morning and getting fat anyway."
"And you? You deserve to do this all alone? Do you really think that you should go through a pregnancy, or an abortion, even when you didn't get into this by yourself? You both were careless that day, or am I wrong?"
They say that silence grants the point, so when BaekHyun doesn't answer, MinSeok sighs and run a hand through his hair, "How... and Why?"
"I was horny, and he though I was still on the pill." He says and buries his face into a pillow to drown his tears. "All of this is my fault and I don't know how to deal with it."
MinSeok can see how his friend is crumbling before his eyes, and it's so heart crushing, but all he can do is hugging him and hope that the outcome of this mess is not that bad as it seems.
Next Friday evening, ChanYeol presents unannounced at BaekHyun's house. He did everything possible to leave work early so he can take Byul with him and give BaekHyun one more free night. BaekHyun is a little baffled, but welcomes him and thanks him for the thought, but at the same time he's nervous to see him so unexpected, he had been practicing his words, but still is not sure of how to reveal the news to ChanYeol. Well, better soon than later, so he just open his mouth and let it out.
"I'm pregnant." He says when ChanYeol is entering the house and he has his back to him. He can't dare to see the disappointment in his ex's eyes.
"You are what?" ChanYeol turns around faster than a spinner and there is nothing but question reflected in his face.
"We had sex that night, and now I'm pregnant." BaekHyun can't resist the tears that start falling from his eyes, so he closes them as if he could hide them. He can't.
ChanYeol feels a storm of emotions in his chest. He wasn't expecting these kind of news when he came here tonight. He doesn't know how to respond to this, it's like if everything in his head has tangled in an impossible know and he needs someone to undo it for him.
BaekHyun is still crying, and because now he has his hands hiding his face, he fails to see when ChanYeol comes closer and engulfs him in a hug and starts crying too.
Later they are both sitting on the sofa, with a cup of tea each that ChanYeol made in hopes to calm them down.
BaekHyun is still sobbing though, but the thick tears had stopped and it's only little sighs and whimpers that interrupt the heavy silence.
"what are we supposed to do now?"
"I don't know, I'm not sure if we should keep them"
"What else we could do. We made this baby, we can't get rid of them just like that."
BaekHyun can understand the sentiment, he thinks of Byul and how would be his life without him. He can't imagine going to sleep alone, waking up without his laugh and nit having those sloppy kisses every morning. But this time is different, he and ChanYeol are not together, they don't have the love that gave them the strength to work through the difficulties that come with a pregnancy. He remember being tired all the time, feeling sick every morning and wanting no more than to lay in bed. That was at least the first months, but then it came the anxiety and the fear of not being prepared to care for such an innocent being. He can't think about doing it all by himself.
"But we are divorced. How would we do it..."
"Just like we do it right now. We'll take care of them like we do with Byul, it's gonna be a little harder, maybe, but we can, I'm not leaving you alone Baek, you know I'll never do."
BaekHyun knows that's true. ChanYeol is a wonderful father, and as a partner he was wonderful too. Before they drifted apart they were a team. He wishes they still were.
Suddenly he realizes that he misses ChanYeol, the closeness, his warmth. But he can't say it. He owns ChanYeol the freedom of finding a new partner, a new love that gives him all the things he didn't do their last years together.
When BaekHyun is four months into his pregnancy, the changes in his body start becoming more obvious. His hips are wider and his cleavage, well, looks amazing he can say. This is also noticed by ChanYeol, who catches himself getting distracted kind of frequently. He is ashamed of this, but he remembers being horny all day when BaekHyun was carrying Byul. Now is not different. Bad, bad ChanYeol, he shouldn't be thinking about that, but now that he's spending the weekends at BaekHyun's house, he has many opportunities to stare.
One day he has a glimpse of BaekHyun looking himself in the bathroom mirror. He's clearly looking at his tits and accommodating them in his now too small bra. ChanYeol's dick twitches inside his pants, and even when he knows he should stop watching, he stays there, semi hiding besides the door. Then BaekHyun starts caressing his little belly, still not very noticeable, but enough for them to know it's there. And the way he rubs it it's so cute that ChanYeol's brain changes the chip immediately, going all soft at the image before his eyes. Seeing how BaekHyun loves their baby, even in this peculiar circumstances, is something that melts his heart and assures him that everything will be ok.
BaekHyun is worried. He's been too happy in this new setting that he's afraid when the time comes and they go back to their previous arrangement, his heart will break for a second time. He was so angry the first time they separated that he fail to notice that he really didn't want that, he just gave up and stopped trying. ChanYeol on the other side seemed so sure about the divorce, and that got into BaekHyun's the idea that he already had someone new. He really don't know if that was true, and he feels bad that could be another person suffering because of this, but in the bottom of his heart he's happy that ChanYeol is here with him, even when he doesn't feels the same. He's happy to get this crumbs.
They are watching a movie with Byul when ChanYeol's phone rings. He stands up to take the call in the kitchen, but BaekHyun can hear the "Hi KyungSoo" and his heart twists at the thought of him being that someone else.
ChanYeol comes back soon, and takes his place on the sofa, this time a little closer, and even when BaekHyun doesn't ask, he explains.
"It was KyungSoo, you remember him right? He's watering my plants since I forgot, lately I only go home to sleep."
Is that an excuse? Or is maybe a way to introduce KyungSoo as a person close to ChanYeol enough to stay at his house when he's not? BaekHyun thoughts jumble and there is these two different sequences playing at the same time in the back of his mind. In one, KyungSoo is just a friend doing ChanYeol a favor now that he has less time. In the other he's something more, waiting for ChanYeol at home, and calling to make sure that his lover is not doing other kind of stuff at his ex's home. He feels awful, like some kind of cheater, but he can't help to dig a little more.
"So, I never thought you were a plants kind of guy?"
"Well, I wasn't. I'm more of a dog guy, you know that. But I really don't have the time to take proper care of one, so my mom gave me this cute bonsai as a house warming present, and I felt like it was good company, then I started talking to him, I know it's silly to call him Him, But when you have no one to talk to, believe me, you start doing weird shit. Then I noticed there is a nursery on my way home, so I took some other plants, and now I have this green little refuge that makes the place more lively."
Even when it's cute, it's also sad to notice how lonely ChanYeol has been. BaekHyun has Byul, who fills the house with his energy and gives him all the good reasons to get up in the mornings and keep going. But ChanYeol doesn't. He just open his eyes and the only thing there are what, plants? No wonder why he's so happy to take Byul with him every chance he gets.
BaekHyun is five months and his parents are just getting to know the news. They are happy, but confused. His mother even asks him if the baby is really ChanYeol's. BaekHyun gets mad and she apologizes, but ChanYeol casually hears their conversation and BaekHyun freaks out. The tension is clear during dinner, and the moment his parents are gone he corners ChanYeol in the kitchen to make sure he knows that the baby is really his.
"I'm not mad at you BaekHyun. But I am at your mom, how she dares to doubt you. If you say that baby is mine I believe you. I know you, and you'd be incapable of lying about something so delicate, I know you wouldn't lie to me."
BaekHyun breaks in tears, and ChanYeol is hugging him that very second, crushing him against his chest and kissing his hair like he used to do all that time ago. BaekHyun can get lost in this fantasy, in this memories of them being together, in that days before they lost each other. He looks up in hopes to catch ChanYeol's eyes, and he not only find that, but also his smile, directed right at him and so reassuring that his heart melts a little, and he can't help but getting in the tip of his toes to peck those lips. Just a sweet nothing, but with so much meaning. Then he hurriedly lets go and gets out of the kitchen, leaving ChanYeol standing there, still confused about what was that.
Next Saturday ChanYeol doesn't go to BaekHyun's house. Is not like he doesn't want to, but work has been awful this last week and he couldn't finish all his tasks the previous days. he calls JongDae and asks him to go visit BaekHyun instead. He doesn't want him to be alone, and JongDae calms him down and tells him that Minnie and him will be there to take care of their two favorite nephews, and BaekHyun too.
At lunch time, ks comes to see him and brings home-cooked food with him. It's ChanYeol's favorite, and he wonders how KyungSoo knows.
"So, are you two together again?"
"No, I don't think so."
"But you kissed. Or that's what you told me."
ChanYeol doesn't look at him, but answers anyway, "he kissed me, but it was in a delicate moment, and he's been so sensible because all the hormones-
"But you liked it. You still like him." KyungSoo is smiling, but the smile doesn't reach his eyes, and they seem lost somewhere else.
"Why you say that."
"Look ChanYeol, you are my friend, and I'll always be, and I'll water your plants, and make you company when you are feeling down. But you have to be honest with me, you can't have me thinking that someday something could happen between us, that I have an opportunity with you when that'll never be real."
"Soo-
"No ChanYeol. I know I should have given up a long time ago. When you were still married, but I stayed by your side, waiting, waiting for you. I know am an idiot, I though when you divorced that that was my opportunity, but then you went and made him pregnant. Is time for me to step to the side and forget about these feelings, they will only hurt me even more in the end. I want us to start over and this time, so, Hi there, I'm KyungSoo, and I'll be sure to be nothing more than a friend." Now he gives him a real smile while he extends a hand to him to shake.
"Hi KyungSoo, I'm ChanYeol and I think I'm still in love with my ex husband."
Now that he's been honest with himself it's like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders, and that's something else that adds to the long list he has to thanks KyungSoo for.
With seven months, BaekHyun couldn't look more prettier, his tummy now full showing and the nausea finally gone, he's all smiles and pink cheeks. Byul has also understand that he'll be an older brother and he's also very happy too. ChanYeol still hasn't talk to BaekHyun about his feelings, but maybe he should do it soon. Also, he can't fight the longing to hold him close, to kiss him right in the lips, to make love to him like they used to do before the mess that was their break up. But he's scared that he read the wrong signals, and BaekHyun's loving eyes are not intended in the way he thinks, but it's just his overall mood that makes him act so lovely and cuddly towards him. Damn, he needs to come clean and not using those opportunities to touch BaekHyun more than necessary. Like today that he's resting in Byul's bed with the sleeping baby tucked to his side, then BaekHyun enters the room and signs to him to stay quiet. He comes to lay in bed next to him and spoons him from behind. Chanyeol's at lost, but then he feels it, a soft kick to his back. The baby is kicking and he can't help but cry at the wonderful feeling. He turns around and lets his hand wander to BaekHyun's tummy. And there it is, the baby keeps moving like reacting to his touch. BaekHyun is smiling and he silently asks if he can come closer, BaekHyun nods and ChanYeol softly makes his way to lay his head over where the baby is. He doesn't notice how his left hand starts drawing circles on BaekHyun's skin, just underneath his shirt. BaekHyun also doesn't say anything about it and then both fall asleep in that position. The four of them, like a family, the family they used to be plus this little unexpected addition.
A few weeks after that BaekHyun is alone at home. ChanYeol's mom asked him if she could have Byul for the day. He lets her, always so grateful to her for all the love she showed to him and her grandchild, even after the divorce. She also trusts her with his life, and has no problem with Byul being at her house until she brings him back at night.
He's folding baby's clothes and cooing at them when he hears a soft laugh. He looks around and finds ChanYeol looking at him with soft eyes. He gave him a key a few months ago so he can come whenever he has free time. It feels so domestic, having him here, and ChanYeol seems happy. He's now sure that there's no one else in his ex's life. How could be if he spends all his time with them. There is no way a someone can stand even the idea of his lover almost living with another person, even if said person is the father of his children.
"You have been folding those clothes over and over. You'll make them dirty even before the baby can wear them."
"But look, they are so tine, so cute I can't resist." He really can't wait for the baby to be born so he can hold him. He's so in love with the idea of having his two sons sleeping on his chest, so peacefully and calm. He now knows that it's a boy he's expecting, but hasn't said ChanYeol. He couldn't go to their last appointment, another of those hectic days at work, so MinSeok went with him, and BaekHyun made him promise for his life he wouldn't tell anyone, specially JongDae, the baby's gender.
ChanYeol stills talk to him as "them" and BaekHyun always joke that anyone would think they are having twins, and secretly ChanYeol wishes they were, because he dreams with a life full of kids, his and BaekHyun's children.
"I brought you non alcohol beer." ChanYeol lifts a bag and invites him to the living room. "I know you've been longing for a night out, well, this is the best I can offer to a pregnant guy."
"Oh, those will never taste the same, but I'll take them anyway. And as you were the one that made me pregnant I'll accept your peace offering." He takes the open bottle from ChanYeol hands, noticing how their fingers brush in the process. "I thought you'd be with your mom and Byul today?"
"Mhhhm, I was gonna work, but then they pushed the meeting for next week and I though you could use some beer and adult time."
"You say adult time and it sounds like strangely sexy, not really for a pregnant person."
"Oww, you know what I mean. Two grown ups, drinking a little, talking about nothing, it also can be called adult time." He clinks his bottle of real beer to BaekHyun's fake one and cheers.
"Do you miss the other adult time? And you also know what I mean."
"Sure I do. Adult time has become me time since a while," ChanYeol laughs at loud, like is kind of a private joke, but BaekHyun understand very well what he is referring to.
He also hadn't had alone adult time in a very long time. Impossible tired during the week, and also the weekends, when he did all the delayed work he didn't had time during the week. Now that he's pregnant and ChanYeol has been helping a lot, he has had given up to his urges, fucking hormones that make him hornier than he remember during his first baby. Also, having ChanYeol's smell in his bed from all the naps he takes there is driving him crazy with want.
"You're drinking real beer, and your mouth must taste like beer and I wish I could taste it too so I'm gonna kiss you right now just because of that."
Before ChanYeol can even process BaekHyun's words he's being kissed hard. BaekHyun's tongue asking for permission and he stops thinking right then and there, too interested in BaekHyun's lips even if they taste like fake beer.
they kiss for a long time, in between, BaekHyun's hand made his way into ChanYeol's pants and now is massaging his hard dick that keeps leaking precum. ChanYeol on the other part is moaning raggedly, face buried in BaekHyun's neck, biting from time to time, making BaekHyun moan too.
they are lost in a cloud of lust and can't seem to stop. BaekHyun wants more, ChanYeol's lips doesn't taste like beer anymore, but BaekHyun doesn't care. He missed his own flavor, the one that's so ChanYeol and the same he couldn't resist when they were younger and so in love that they couldn't keep their hands to themselves.
ChanYeol comes with a broken moan, and BaekHyun keeps his hand there, enjoying the wetness of the semen covering his palm. then he takes it out and push it down his own pants to start touching himself. ChanYeol helps him to open his pants buttons so he has more room and keeps kissing the side of his neck while his hands wander to his chest, rubbing over his nipples. He had wished to do this for so long, imagining at night when he's masturbating alone in his room. But the real thing is even better, BaekHyun tits are so big like this, and his nipples are darker and swollen, and the only thing he wants more than touching them is to suck on them until he's drowning in those mounts of soft flesh.
"I can't wish until you are not pregnant anymore, so I can breed you again and again."
"God, you are so nasty ChanYeol, I want you so much you can't imagine."
ChanYeol squeezes his hand down the front of BaekHyun's pants too, but avoids his dick and keeps going down until he can feel the fluttering hole twitching on the pad of his fingers. He doesn't push them inside, but only a few brushes are needed to have BaekHyun coming all over himself.
"You know I can still have sex being pregnant right?" he says, hungry for more.
"Wouldn't that be dangerous for the baby?" ChanYeol isn't sure if it's right to do it. they didn't the first pregnancy.
"I've been reading. It's not if we are careful."
That's explanation enough for ChanYeol. His horny brain settling with just that. BaekHyun leads him back to his room so they can leave out all the steam they had kept inside for so long.
They don't talk about the sex after that. They don't avoid each other, but don't bring out the subject either. Still, the sexual tension is there, and their friends start noticing that something's up. The first to say something is JongDae, no surprise. But BaekHyun just brushes him off and tells him to not be silly, there is nothing between ChanYeol and him.
"I'll repeat you, we are divorced."
"Well, you don't seem to be. He's here all the time, and you act like the proper husband that waits for him with food and a ready made bed."
"I told you no, also he's tired, that's why he naps with Byul when he's here."
"Yeah, you are also very tired, that's why you wish to cuddle with him every time you sit on the couch."
"Shut up."
He knows it's true, he feels drawn to him when they are not close enough for his liking, and even when he tries to keep his wanting at bay, it's just so hard, that no wonder his friends noticed. he only hopes ChanYeol hadn't noticed too.
Also at nights, ChanYeol's words have him awake until late hours, "So I can breed you," he said, and BaekHyun got shamefully hard at that, that the only thought of that his dick reacts like a teenager to some tits in a movie.
ChanYeol is angry at himself for giving to his impulses before talking to BaekHyun about how he feels. He doesn't want BaekHyun to feel used. He now knows BaekHyun has been craving sex more than cake, but even then, no one deserves to feel used just for pleasure, or feel like he used ChanYeol for the same.
Even thought ChanYeol knows he has to speak soon, he never finds the right time, days passing by with him and BaekHyun acting just like friends that are about to have another baby together.
The days prior to giving birth, BaekHyun is a ball or nerves. He wants to be prepared for every eventuality, and asks ChanYeol to sleep there in case of something happen. ChanYeol has no problem with that, he was gonna ask anyway, so this comes as a blessing. He is also nervous, even if it's not the first time.
JongDae and Minseok offer them help with the house while they are at the clinic, and ChanYeol's mom will take Byul during those days. They are prepared, but not always things go as we expect.
BaekHyun is out to get the mail, and the grass is a little slippery from the rain the night before. ChanYeol is in the kitchen when he hears the scream and only has time to turn off the stove as he runs out to find BaekHyun laying on the ground, a small stain of blood in the space between his legs. He freaks out, but BaekHyun scream at him to help him get on his feet and to bring Byul and his bag to the car so they can go to a hospital. He does as he's told, and in the mean time BaekHyun calls MinSeok to meet them there so they can take care of Byul until ChanYeol's mom gets there.
The last thing he wants to do is to scare Byul, so he stays quiet all the way to the hospital. His friends are already there when they arrive, so MinSeok takes Byul from the car while ChanYeol helps BaekHyun inside.
Half an hour after being admitted to urgent care, a nurse calls ChanYeol and explain to him that he can't be present during the delivery, but they'll keep him informed the whole time during the process. He wants to cry, and JongDae rubs his back and makes him sit in the couch in the waiting room.
It seems like hours until another nurse appears from the door. ChanYeol stands up and relaxes at the smile she gives him. Once he is inside and sees BaekHyun holding a little bundle against his chest, he can't hold the tears anymore. He was so scared, of losing the baby, losing BaekHyun. How could he function without him in his life. He can live in a world where they are separated, as long as he knows BaekHyun exists, knowing that he would see him from time to time, where he's healthy and happy, even if he's not with him. He can bear that, as long as they live under the same sky.
BaekHyun smiles at him and ruffle his hair, and it's so comforting in a way, but he keeps crying, not of fear this time, but because he didn't know how much he needed this, this closeness, having BaekHyun taking his pain away. He always was so strong, he held on for so long, even when ChanYeol drop the towel and buried himself with work, even then BaekHyun stayed. He waited for him, washed his clothes, made sure he had breakfast. ChanYeol was so focused in the things they had lost, that he failed to notice all they still had, and were worthy to fight for. he wish, with all his heart, that BaekHyun still has a little of that hope inside of him, enough to let ChanYeol inside his life once more, enough to heal them both, because ChanYeol is ready, ready to give it all just for another chance.
The baby made a sound, and ChanYeol comes out of his thoughts to look at him. He's so small and fragile. So tiny that he's scare to even touch him. But BaekHyun encourages him, so he slowly approaches and leaves a kiss on his impossible little forehead. Then he takes BaekHyun's hand and kisses it too. He doesn't want to break this comfortable silence, but he needs to say it, he needs BaekHyun to hear it.
"I love you. I never stopped loving you, so please take me back?"
Now BaekHyun is the one who's crying, and he can't get his words out, but he nods, he nods and continues nodding as ChanYeol hugs him and kisses his cheeks, his nose, his lips. he can't talk, but kisses him back and pours all his love in that kiss. He also wants ChanYeol back, he never wanted to let him go and he's sure now that ChanYeol felt the same but they were so stubborn and blind, that they simple didn't want to feel anymore.
When their friends enter the room to see the baby, they find them holding hands. Byul wants to see his little brother, so ChanYeol takes him in his arms to introduce them. They finally look like a family, and he'll make sure to keep it like that.
Finally things are exactly as they should.