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Janus wasn't in his room again, Remus stood there staring the empty room. It was bare from there being no bed, to bare walls. His vision started to blur as he stumbled back before slamming the door shut and walking back to his room.
"fucking typical" Remus muttered under his breath. He honestly wanted to hangout with his dear snake friend, but that flew out the window with the room being so bare like it was every day for the past 3 months. In all honesty Remus just kept forgetting each time.
Remus opened his door, looked behind him back at Janus' ro- no his old room was at before turning and shutting his door. As soon as his door shut, his shoulders sagged as he stumbled to his bed before collapsing on it. The little energy he spent walking to janus' old room and back took a toll on him.
He laid there, staring at the wall by his bed where tally marks were raggedly drawn on the wall. They looked to be scraped in by nails with blood surrounding some tally marks. Well it seemed they were considering Remus lifted one hand and scrapped in another tally, his nails looked to have been torn off, some nails were gone and others were in makeshift bandages.
Remus rolled over after he was done engraving a mark and looked out the window. The features outside was a sunset but it was as though the sun was green, with a purplish haze as it set under the crest of what might have been the earth.
Feature aside, Remus eyes weren't focused on anything. Quite frankly they were hazed with tears that were streaming down his face. It looked to be blackish purplish tears but that's because of the makeup he hadn't taken off in a while. He doesn't keep a routine but usually when it came to his makeup, he would almost always try put in the effort of looking like his trashy self everyday. Oddly enough he hasn't been able to in weeks.
The tears ever so slowly stopped but only for Remus to fall asleep with the worst dreams he always had.
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Intrusive thot~
YOU ARE NO BROTHER OF MINE
Dude, why are you so creepy!
Remus, what have you done?
ou have no right in being here...
YOU ARE A DISEASE
Each voiced clashed together as it targeted one side. He ran and ran into the black air trying to find an escape. Escape the voices but in every direction no matter if he went left or right they were still there. It seemed to be chasing him as he screamed and cried out to "just stop it! Enough! I'm a side too! Stop it"
He tripped and his body seized as fear wrapped around his entire being. The voices somehow went from being loud to being his entire thought. It seemed to be coming from every molecule now, he can feel the voices, taste them, smell them and the hearing. It seemed like it was his entire being.
He screamed for what felt like hours until-
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Remus sat up screaming his lungs out as tears and snot splashed across his face. His breathing faltering, his chest caving in and out trying to get a grasp of oxygen that seemed to have just been sucked out. He felt himself being pushed down and tangled by vines.
'get out! Trapped! Help!' his mind raced until he felt something soft.
Remus heaved his breathing, desperately clawing his chest until he felt his heart beat slow down. His breathing slowing as his voice felt raw but not damaged. He looked around and saw he fell down his bed, the sheets entangling his legs. He untangled himself and slowly sat up on the floor.
Remus wiped the sweat, tears, and snot from his face with the sheets before throwing it in the over filled basket of dirty clothes. He got up, stretched and went back to laying down in bed, feeling numb.
He looked over at the octopus clock on his wall and saw it was 3:33am. He let out a sigh and he went back to staring at the wall.
"I really miss you janny..." Remus said aloud before conjuring a stuffed octopus and hugging it.