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Hold Onto The Ghost Of My Body by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
10 Jul 2026
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“It was all thinking, running in circles in his mind, all leading him back to Ben. Everything else in the atmosphere was dead silent, like the rest of the world was mourning him as well. They should have been. Ben deserved to be loved by everyone who was stronger than Ricky.”
- Only a small amount of time after Ben’s death, Ricky sees him in his bedroom. [A different ending to PT 19/20 where Ben jumps off the Brooklyn Bridge and Ricky mourns]
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“She just didn’t know how to fix her problem—her parents would probably never let her see the light of day again if they ever found out. They always questioned where she was going, who she was with, when she would be back. She couldn’t even text Skeeter anything romantic because of how often they checked her phone.
It was some sick joke the universe was playing on her, choosing between her parents and her safety, or between Skeeter and her happiness.”
- Ricky helps Emily figure out a way to discreetly show her love for Skeeter, through the form of a love letter.
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"Maybe Donna didn’t have to feel worried sick over these unnatural feelings. Moreover, if Lola could’ve felt the same, maybe she would’ve accepted them with open arms."
- Lola happens to say the wrong thing at a sleepover, and Donna can't seem to face her emotions.
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"Ricky stifled a laugh, causing Ben to have to tighten his grip on his chin. 'Quit moving, dork,' he demanded, his tone sweet nonetheless, switching to Ricky’s right eye, 'I don’t want to mess it up more.'
'I just think you should come a little bit closer.' Ricky scooted towards him, ignoring what had just been said, bumping their knees together—incidentally making Ben twitch out of focus too quickly. An out of place splotch of blue eyeshadow came from the flinch of his hand."
- After Donna asks Ben about getting rid of some unused makeup that’s been cluttered in her room, Ben gives it a shot at using it—not on himself, but rather, on Ricky.
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“While he was excited to be able to go out for once, there was one minor issue eating away at him: he had no fucking clue how to skate.”
- After being invited along with Ricky for a slightly unintentional double date by Skeeter and Emily to go to a roller rink, Ben avoids the fact he’s going to embarrass himself by not knowing jackshit about skating. He ends up in a better situation than he thought when Ricky takes it upon himself to teach Ben how to skate, but Skeeter notices a little too much.
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“Ricky shook his head, almost frantically, pushing off the wall and straightening himself up. ‘Brookie, I don’t—’ He stepped backwards instinctively, but Ben brought the jacket in his direction, his offer firm. ‘I meant what I said about you getting hypothermia,’ he insisted, ‘just take it and give it back to me tonight.’”
- Ben worries about Ricky getting cold when he’s not at Ben’s house, and takes matters into his own hands.
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“She had never taken those pictures down, nor ever planned on it. Someone had been there, gone through what had been her own private life, an escape from the words of those who misjudged her. Somehow, the past few years had felt like her entire life was on display—as a tragedy.”
- After her return from the mental hospital, Skeeter notices a change in her room. Even when she needs to remember her most, her memory of Emily doesn’t last.
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Can't Help Falling In Love With You by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
01 Sep 2025
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"Ricky had only called Ben ‘pretty boy’ as a way to tease him, but it came to him that he really was beautiful."
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"He had never seen Ricky the way he saw him now. At least, he hadn’t noticed it as much the other times."
- Modern Ben and Ricky’s separate POV’s of them falling in love with each other.
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“ Rochelle acted so casual about the sweet things she did, it almost made Bella sick. “
After running through the rain to get to school, Bella gets Rochelle's help cleaning up in the bathroom, and she thinks about if things between them are what it looks like on the outside—a “friendship”, or something more.
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The Bittergames by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic), Hunger Games Series - All Media Types
16 Aug 2025
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His smile still remained, despite the fact Donna’s world came crashing down at that very moment. Every hope she ever had that she would only have to wait one more year was ripped from her from a single sheet of paper.
- The annual Hunger Games reaping puts Donna Brookes in an unfortunate position.
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“The words hung in the air as Ben and Ricky stared at each other, both nervous as to what they were going to say. But Ben knew what had to be done.
Ben knew that it was the first time he had waited for.”
- Ben and Ricky have a ”divorce”.
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"He didn’t want to die, at least not that he thought. He just wished he could make it stop somehow. To shed the skin of the killer he had become and turn into someone with the guts to be able to walk away."
- Ricky will never be able to escape the image of his father, no matter how hard he wants to try.
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I Want To Be With You Everywhere by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
01 Aug 2025
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" The mall was the first place that came to his mind—he’d been wanting to go out shopping with Ben at some point recently. He had been wanting to see him more in general, anyway. It was a constant longing, wanting to be close to him, even if they were literally dating. "
- Ben and Ricky skip class to go to the mall together ^^
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All The Wounds That Are Ever Gonna Scar Me by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
29 Jul 2025
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"A future with Ricky was everything he had dreamed of since then, but somehow, things were always ruined for him.
Ben remembered it all distinctly."
- Ben had been hopeful for himself for the first time in his life—until his return home from Vietnam.
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Not Comforted By Anything You Say by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
14 Jul 2025
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"Every glance felt like a warning to her, that he had something hidden under his mask of the smile he wore."
- Donna senses something off about her brother, but can’t put her finger on it.
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Love's Such An Old Fashioned Word by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
09 Jul 2025
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“I don’t really believe in fate, but I—I like to think that we were meant to be together.”
- Ben proposes to Ricky <3
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Ricky Meets Hatsune Miku by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic), Vocaloid
03 Jul 2025
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"Some person named Hatsune Miku made gay marriage legal, something he only ever dreamed of. A dream where he and Ben could live a regular life together, get married and be able to take each other's last names freely. And it was possible now."
- You read the title brotein shake
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You Love Me So Hard, And I Still Can't Sleep by raedius
Fandoms: Bittersweet - Ayejay.Jvrozx (Webcomic)
30 Jun 2025
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"Please, not him. Not my Brookie."
- Ricky can't stand the thought of Ben being hurt.
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- Ricky notices Ben’s freckles for the first time :)
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“He sighed, adjusting his bag over his shoulder, about to turn around, when suddenly he heard it again. A small, meek sound. He looked up immediately, met with the piercing blue eyes of the kitten angrily mewing at his feet.”
- Ben finds a friend on the way home from work :3