perpetuallyconcerned
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what if all this counts for nothing (everything i thought i'd be) by perpetuallyconcerned
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
14 Apr 2022
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"Chris is scared. He can't remember ever being scared like this. Before, when he was afraid, he always had Dad or Buck or Abuela to give him hugs and tell him that everything was okay, but now Buck is in Dad's room, and he hasn't come out."
Before, during, and after Eddie's breakdown: three missing scenes from three different perspectives.
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Five Ways Eddie Told Someone He Loved Them... by perpetuallyconcerned
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Apr 2022
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...and one way they said it back.
Or: Eddie isn't the best at communicating his feelings, but he sure does have a lot of them.
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"It would be less weird if it was someone else, he thinks. They all have bad days, but Eddie sometimes seems untouchable, unshakeable. So this? It's weird. Not the end of the world, but definitely noteworthy."
Five times Eddie was tired, and one time he finally got to sleep.
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The thing is that Eddie used to dream about it, about having a lasting, forever type of love for himself, but he hadn't thought he'd ever get that, ever deserve it. But god, whether or not Buck feels the same, this is that tender, all-consuming love he's spent his life dreaming about.
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"I'm struggling," Spencer interrupted. His gaze landed somewhere in the vicinity of Hotch's tie. He couldn't bear to witness the man's disapproval.
Or: After New Orleans, Spencer goes to Hotch for help instead of Gideon.
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Galadriel and Orion made it out of the Scholomance. What next?
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Ilya Rozanov vs The Unintended Consequences of Woke Hockey by Sagebrner
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
02 Jun 2026
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Forester (Admirals🔛🔝)
So the true way to combat the Bisexual Russian Terminator isn’t with homophobia...
It's actually with even more gay
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You're a goddamn genius.----
The NHL rookies have joined forces to strategize now that two of the greatest hockey players of all time are on the same team and Ilya Rozanov must suffer from the unintended consequences of making hockey more woke.
Mainly, the way everyone keeps implying that they want to fuck his husband.
or: a group of rookies unionize and employ chirping as a form of psychological torture against a one Ilya Grigoryevich Rozanov.
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15 Jun 2026
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everything subdural by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
19 Dec 2025
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Shane gets laid out cold on the ice for the first time in his career. A month later, things go sideways again, and Ilya realizes he doesn't have forever to figure it out anymore.
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- Part 1 of restgently's hollanov
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07 Jun 2026
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good on my own accord by impetuous
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
13 May 2026
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No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.
Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.
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- Part 1 of #42 Shane Hollander
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03 Jun 2026
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frequently, secretly fond of each other. by milominderbinder
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 May 2026
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Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”
“Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.
He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.
A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.
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- Part 1 of frequently, secretly.
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01 Jun 2026
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Safe In Enemy Colours by Shadowsnakesoftime
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
20 May 2026
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A canon-divergent take on the aftermath of the Montreal vs Ottawa game in The Long Game, where Shane trips, Ottawa scores, and Montreal’s golden boy suddenly looks like a liability.
Luckily, Ottawa disagrees.
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25 May 2026