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    Ilya’s heart is breaking. He doesn’t want the first thing he does, the very first thing, after Shane’s choices have been so brutally ripped away from him, to be something Shane is begging him not to do. But Shane is seriously injured, much beyond what they can handle with first aid at home or even if they found a discreet doctor to make a house call. He will need an MRI, a broken bone set, probably surgery. And evidence should be collected too, for the police. That part Ilya will not push him on. But he cannot let Shane risk his life for his pride and the fear of shame that has controlled him for so long. “I am sorry, moy lyubimyy,” Ilya says, “So sorry. But Marleau is calling ambulance, and you are going to the hospital.”

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    Shane and Ilya are spending Christmas together in Boston during Ilya's last season playing for the Bears. They're finally out, and they're in love, and soon they'll only live two hours apart.

    When Shane is assaulted, the plans they had built for their future collapse. Now the road ahead is a long, grueling process of physical and psychological recovery. What they had before-the sex, the playful power exchange, the easy trust-is gone, and they have to build something new, together.

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    14 Jul 2026

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    Shane had agreed readily. Yes, he wanted. To be hunted by a stranger with twenty dogs and a knife on his belt. To see him again. To find the source of the squirming thing in his chest and bring it to light.

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    09 Jul 2026

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    Searching I woke up with a pussy brings anything from porn results to Creepypasta forums. Shane miserably clicks on a Reddit thread, trying in vain to find any sort of answers when there's a knock on the bathroom door. 

    "Shane? Are you feeling ok?" 

    "I- yeah." Shane jumps, nearly dropping his phone. "I'm fine. Why?"

    There's a pause. "Are you sick?"

    Shane swallowed. Was he sick? Is that what triggered this? 

    "You have been in there for almost half an hour. If you are sick, I want to know." 

    "No, not like-  not like that." Shane flushed. God, how was he gonna explain this? 

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    On their first day of summer vacation, Shane wakes up with a pussy. He decides to hide it from Ilya and wait for it to go away. This decision has consequences.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    In another timeline, Shane and Ilya hook up in room 1410, nothing goes wrong, and everything plays out exactly as we know it.

    In this one, Yuna Hollander walks in before Ilya can leave—and the seven-year situationship never gets the chance to start. Instead, through the power of miscommunication, Shane and Ilya start dating in 2010. With better support, they make better decisions. Their rivalry fizzles out before it ever has the chance to fully ignite, replaced instead by a beloved “bromance". In 2015, they come out to the NHL and the world.

    No one believes them.

     

    Or: Somehow, despite Shane and Ilya being out for two years, Scott Hunter is still considered the first openly gay player in the NHL, much to Ilya’s horror.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    The man sitting in the driver’s seat should not be here. He should be miles away, at his home base in Montreal, not driving a piece of shit beater in the middle of nowhere. 

    And Shane should not be here with him, because as far as Ilya Rozanov knew, Shane’s body burned up in a car fire four years ago.

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    21 Jun 2026