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    CBC News Archives | July 2005

    Mini-Doc: Meet Ottawa’s 14 year-old hockey phenom, Shane Hollander

    [Video - 3:26]

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    The video has been over for long enough that his screen has gone dark, but Ilya is still stuck staring at the device.

    He hasn’t let any tears spill over yet, but god, he’s going to cry.

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    06 Jul 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 36

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    The Ottawa Tourism Board have a new ambassador. He’s a very famous hockey player. Is it Shane Hollander, you ask? No.

    It’s Ilya fucking Rozanov.

    (Or, a transcript of the 2025 Visit Ottawa tourism campaign.)

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Ilya promoting Ottawa tourism

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    And here is the kitchen, first place aside from the cottage where they'd cooked together. And here is the front closet, where Shane had hidden Ilya's birthday present three years ago only to have it fall on Ilya's head some time in April. And here is the bedroom, where on a night many Octobers ago Shane had looked at Ilya from across the room with a smirk and said No you come here and then he'd let Ilya—
    It's been an emotional day.

    A moment in time at the end of an era. Ilya helps Shane pack up the Montreal apartment.

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    05 Jul 2026

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    Shane moving out of the Montreal condo

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    Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.

    Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    really sweet autistic Shane fic

  5. Public Bookmark 49

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    “You are burning bread? For me?” Ilya has a hand over his heart. “You shouldn’t have.”

    “Shut up,” Shane says, still nursing his finger. “It’s a work in progress. Unless you’re not hungry.”

    Ilya is looking at the finger Shane has in his mouth with great interest. “No, I am. Very.” He leans in, snaking an arm around Shane’s waist. “Maybe not for this bread, though.”

    “Do you…want to eat something else?” Shane ventures as Ilya takes Shane’s hand in his.

    “Sure.” Ilya presses his lips to the tip of Shane’s finger, followed by his tongue. “You have this ‘something else’ in mind?”

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    Or, 3 times Shane fucks up the tuna melts + 1 time he gets them just right.

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    28 Jun 2026