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Amargosa: from the Spanish amargo, meaning 'bitter,' likely shortened from agua amargosa, 'bitter water.' The name is used for locations in the Mojave Desert.
or: Shane hates how he sounds, how his voice goes a little high and comes out too flustered - Ilya must know that what he means is ‘I want something. I always want something from you.’ That he can’t ever help himself.
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he will try to remember which apologies come faster the second time. He can never quite recall whether 'I swear to God' shifts before or after the rhythm does. He only knows there's a moment where the sound turns obedient, where Shane's voice changes shape, and Ilya can still feel it in his hands even when he isn't touching him.
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“I’m trying to figure out,” Rose wonders aloud. “Are you always a complete prick? Just with women? Or just when you lose a game?”
Ilya barks a laugh, shocked and almost delighted, and his smile spreads wide enough that Rose can see all those pearly whites of his that are so much nicer than she expected any hockey player’s to be. “All the time,” he grins, “all the time. However much of an asshole Hollander has told you I am, double it.”
She answers truthfully, shrugs her shoulders in her tiny silver dress. “He hasn’t mentioned you at all.”
After a shitshow of an evening in a Montreal nightclub, Ilya wakes up the next morning in Shane’s bed. Only, he’s not in Shane’s bed — Rose Landry is, and he’s in Rose Landry’s body, and she’s in his. Well, what the fuck are they supposed to do with that?
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New York, 2010. Shane comes to pick up a drunk Hayden from the bar.
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04 Jul 2026
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“It would be so fine, man,”
just me finding the courage in the fandom, man
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Déjà vu by NotEvenCloseToStraight
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
27 Jun 2026
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2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.
2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.
When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.
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“So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”
“We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”
“No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”
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03 Jul 2026
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car wash redhead, tube top R.E.M. concert, juror #6 by rockbound
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
08 Feb 2026
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The only trick is to have no fear, and even less fear than that the more trouble one is in. Ilya cannot teach that to a man who has directed his energies into becoming, not like a saint, but like a painting of a saint, all dripping in symbolism: the way the robe drapes here, yes, that is on purpose, and the angle of the light, the patron’s face in the crowd, the instrument of the martyrdom in his hand and the fruit in the bowl on the table, all arranged except when—
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03 Jul 2026
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I am fucking delighted
“If Hitchcock blonde moment gives me zero percent likely seven years delayed rabies, I promise to use my last moment of consciousness to bite dearly beloved Shane Hollander, who can then say ‘I told you so’ about bat,” he lies.
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To Drink the River from a Spoon by the_weight_of_small_things
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
27 Jun 2026
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Wednesday begins at 07:14 and ends at 20:03.
Shane remembers every version. The broken things, the quiet afternoons and the weight of Ilya’s body over his. He remembers every desperate attempt to keep him alive, because nothing else does.
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Shane lives through one winter day again and again, trying to love Ilya hard enough to keep him alive.