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  1. Public Bookmark 17

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    (Jay storms out of the apartment in a blizzard, gets into a bar fight, and is left with a concussion. Matt finds him and takes care of him. Jay initiates sex. Life goes on.)

    This is wrong, this is so wrong, he has no idea what’s even happening right now– some part of Matt attempts to replay these thoughts like a mantra, louder and louder in his mind, throwing them out like a spike strip to stop the getaway car of this, his deepest, darkest, longest-held desire. It doesn’t work.

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    29 Jun 2026

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  2. Public Bookmark 16

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    Once, Matt had said that cameramen are God.

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    17 Jun 2026

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  3. Public Bookmark 21

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    The whiteboard is the catalyst, but it really isn’t. It tips over a series of dominoes that lead to Jay’s bedroom, get under his feet, and walk him out the door. But, in the morning after, when the whiteboard has that big, capital D ‘Don’t’ on it, and Matt won’t be honest about having written it, despite it clearly being his handwriting, the whiteboard isn’t the catalyst, because Matt gets up on the couch and erases it, and it’s almost like it wasn’t there to begin with.

    A retro/prospective on Jay McCarrol's fame.

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    30 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 29

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    It was true that Matt was obsessed with the idea of *having had* sex, but he didn’t show any interest in trying to pursue anybody. What Matt was mostly interested in was Jay being involved, somehow. How could he not understand that this was too much to ask, even for them? Matt didn’t ever seem to feel bad about needing things from people.

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    20 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 14

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    Matt and Owen have a movie night while they're at Matt's family's cottage. Things devolve from there.

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    Within the first fifteen minutes, Matt turns to him and says, breathy with laughter, "Dutch sounds stupid, eh? Like English and German all mixed up and turned inside out."

    "C'mon, man, I'm trying to keep up with the captions," Owen says. "Can you not…"

    "Not talk? But that's half the fun. Oh, shit, she's taking her top off, look. You can always rely on Verhoeven for tit shots. The man loves tits. We should re-watch Starship Troopers sometime."

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    17 May 2026