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It was once impossible for Eddie to swing so close to the sun. Now, suddenly, he finds himself craving the warmth. He wants to dig deep, commit to these thoughts and their natural conclusion beyond the single apple bite. It’s a softer reality now — not cruel, not scary, easier to swallow — and it’s happened almost overnight. When exactly did Eddie become capable of such a thing? He can’t be sure. Maybe it was just that he was getting older. Maybe he was becoming more comfortable living the life he had built for himself with love and care and people who dispensed those feelings back to him, people who never judged him too harshly. Maybe it was merely a case of checks and balances; the freedom of knowing that once everything is gone there will be nothing much left to lose.
Whatever the reason for this revelation, it hardly matters. The wingspan of Eddie’s longing broadens with his search. And before Icarus ever fell, at least he flew.
Salvation comes for Eddie in the form of a misplaced camisole, a forgotten tube of lip gloss and a gay cowboy bar called Butch & Sundance. The rest is fundamental.
(OR: It's hot in Texas. It's always been hot in Texas.)
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“You—you saved me,” he says, leaning forward to touch the jut of Buck’s elbow. Buck’s eyes flick to him, fast and predatory, from the corner of his vision. “How did you know where I was?”
Buck scoffs. “Because I could smell it on you, Eddie,” he explains. “Three weeks ago you walked into the station smelling like iron and moss. Like wet stone. Humans don’t smell that way on their own.”
Humans. Buck says it like he doesn’t count himself among them. What would he call himself, then? Eddie finds himself too nervous to ask. “So you… you followed me?”
Buck doesn’t respond, but his gaze remains fixed and pointed, his mouth pressed into a firm line. Finally, after what feels like forever, he says, “you don’t understand what you are.”
Eddie swallows. It’s an eerily similar sentiment to the one Alex had made, just before he had sunk his teeth into Eddie’s warm and waiting flesh. In all my years on this earth, I never imagined I’d find a jewel as rare as you.
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- Part 3 of A Fright Night! Triple Feature
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Captain Buckley’s face creases, his expression disfavourable. “I’m, uh, not really into the whole Sir thing,” he tells Eddie, scratching along the slope of his grey-stubbled chin. “Still getting used to being called Cap, if I’m being honest. Most people here just call me Buck.”
“Buck?” Eddie repeats the name with the intonation of a question.
“There were three other Evans in my class at the Academy,” Captain Buckley explains, shrugging casually with the huge mountain range of his wide, wide shoulders. “Even after all these years, it’s managed to stick.”
OR: Eddie's probationary firefighter year at the 118, under the watchful eye and expert tutelage of Fire Captain Evan Buckley.
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Observation. Buck is so anticipatory of Eddie’s needs, so beholden to his wants, that it is no longer a conscious function of his brain. This is a problem, because Eddie has expressed a desire to be denied. And as of right now, to Buck’s brain, that simply does not compute.
Question. Is there hope for Buck to deconstruct his own conditioning enough to return these functions to his more cognizant brain?
Hypothesis. Maybe, if Buck practices denying Eddie the little things he wants, he can take these honed skills and apply them. And maybe then, he'll be able to get Eddie to that place where he really wants to go.
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or: Evan Buckley attempts to edge his boyfriend, with varying levels of success.
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For the last several months, Eddie has been working on dismantling the self-erected barriers about what he believes he does, and does not, deserve. He’s been attempting to teach himself it is unnecessary to sip joy from the cup like it’s a finite resource; that he can swallow it in huge mouthfuls, that he can drain the cup until it’s completely empty; that all that happens under those circumstances is the creation of more space, more space for the joy to flood in and fill up, again and again.
It’s a tricky balance. Some experiments are more successful than others.
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- Part 6 of #EGFH
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sicko halloween monsterfucking brought to you by organyx, taegyungie, and jaekyu
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our #EddieExhibitionism summer, titled after the films of Billy Wilder.
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AO3 users taegyungie and jaekyu: [touches ground] eddie got fingered here
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It's all fired up, you're all mine. Buck and Eddie's adventures in the omegaverse.
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& i'm down, down but definitely not out
The scum fuck flower California skater boys AU.
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Buck pulls away, just an inch or two, breathing heavily into Eddie’s open mouth. “What’s—what’s gotten into you, baby?”
Eddie ducks his head, suddenly shy again, and Buck burns with admiration at how soft and delicate he can be, how coy.
“Eddie. Eddie,” Buck says, quiet, so soft. “Hey. Can you look at me?”
With a sigh, Eddie looks up at him, nodding instead of answering.
“You—you want something from me. Right?”
...or, Eddie learns how to ask for what he wants.
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18 Jun 2025
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His reflection is pallid, eyes dull. He’s lost weight, and somehow didn’t notice it until he looked in this mirror eight hundred miles away from the one he’s looked in every day for months. He notes that he’s split his lip open chewing on it, but his body doesn’t move to wipe that blood away. He shaved with Buck’s razor this afternoon before he put his funeral suit on, the one Buck bought for him despite his admittedly weak protestations, and he nicked the wing of his jaw. He was right earlier. The circles beneath his eyes are dark as plumbs.
There is something wrong with him.
Eddie tugs the sleeves of Buck’s sweatshirt down over his stiff hands before he goes back to bed, so at least if he starts bleeding again he won’t ruin Buck’s nice soft sheets.
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Eddie develops stigmata.
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15 May 2025
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23 Nov 2024
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He’s not sure how he would even go about explaining the situation to them even if he wanted to. Hey guys, you’re my best friends in the entire world so I think it’s fair to tell you that I have this weird infatuation with a camboy whose real name I don’t even know. I also don’t have any idea where he lives, and he has no idea who I am. Oh and he has, what I assume to be, a boyfriend! But don’t worry! He’s totally helping me get over my horrible breakup!
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01 Feb 2022
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“It’s almost like we were waiting for Jisung, y’know?” Changbin says. “To complete us." Then he ducks his head, ears flaming, because how fucking embarrassing is that?
But Chan doesn’t laugh at him. He’s solemn, voice raw and honest, when he replies, “Yeah. I know.”
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11 Apr 2021