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Eddie is secretly ashamed of most things.
Like dancing alone in the warm sunlit kitchen and the kid-safe makeup Sophia once messily spread on his face. Like knowing there's something he's missing but never truly had in the first place. Like how he walks and talks and always lets his parents down and isn't the best in school but just alright. Like how he doesn't believe in God but thinks he probably should since that's what everyone else does.
Eddie is so ashamed of himself.
Or, Eddie learns how to not be.
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- Part 1 of transfem eddie
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He broke Buck’s heart.
He knows it. Knows it like he knows the weight of his own turnout gear, like he knows the precise way to steady himself when the ground gives way beneath him. It’s a fact, a simple and devastating truth that follows him everywhere, no matter how much distance he puts between them.
What happened in that bathroom, Buck pushing him against the door, kissing him like it was the only way to make sure it had been real, that wasn’t some desperate attempt to get Eddie to come back. It wasn’t even about convincing Eddie to be with him, not really. It was Buck needing to know, to feel it, to confirm that Eddie had been there, that Eddie had wanted it, that it hadn’t all been some fever dream conjured up by his hopelessly romantic, self destructive heart.
And, maybe, just a little, it was about hurting Eddie because Eddie hurt him first. Which, God, isn’t that just heartbreaking?
Or; Eddie and Buck have sex the night before he moves back to El Paso for good.
Each chapter follows a year in Eddie’s life as he makes his way back to Buck.
Series
- Part 1 of Always, Eventually.
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Bookmarked by flowinginthere
21 Feb 2025
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best buddie fan fiction ever and im not even joking i wanna save this everywhere so i can read it agai and again and again