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"I don't follow," Ava admits, her lips pursed in concentration.
"Ava," Beatrice huffs, eyes averted. "I'm a lesbian."
Ava stares at her for a moment, her brows furrowed. Then, she chuckles, "I thought you were a librarian."OR, Ava works in the cafe across the library, and Beatrice works in the library across the cafe. They are friends—or at least Ava always thought they were friends—until she makes a discovery about the both of them.
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19 Apr 2026
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Nightvisions by Susan K James [archived by KSArchive_Archivist], thanangst
Fandoms: Star Trek: The Original Series
10 Jun 2012
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Nightvisions by Susan K. James and Carol A. Frisbie
When Kirk is blinded by a Tholian weapon, Spock leaves the service to stay at his side.
“Nightvisions”, a print fanzine published in 1979 by Pulsar Press, is the first full-length K/S novel ever published.
Our heartfelt thanks to our friend Pam I. She has shared our dream, and the labours of our love, and with her help NIGHTVISIONS came to see the light of day. And to Merle—She knows why, and we won't forget....
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Thanks to "Murt" for her help in preparing this novel for the archive.
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12 Jun 2024
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Ava needs to study for a test and Beatrice is there with her, doing plenty for her motivation.
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- Part 4 of gripping hands collection
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11 Nov 2023
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The photo underneath the headline catches Ava's attention before she can figure out what she’s looking at. It’s a landscape shot of a lighthouse sitting atop a cliff and silhouetted against a bold sunset, its beacon lit. It looks like it’s at the end of the world, surrounded by rocks and the sea.
She frowns.
The ad is for a relief lighthouse keeper. She tentatively scrolls down to look at the duties and requirements, fully expecting to find that she’s unsuited for the job.
Except she’s kind of… perfect for it?
Unmoored, a little lost, and always impulsive, she thinks fuck it and spends the next three hours fixing her resumé, digging for her certification details, and writing an overly enthusiastic cover letter.
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08 Oct 2023
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Her life was in complete fucking shambles and she’d be going from working at the homeless shelter in the morning to working at the bar at night for the foreseeable future, but she could make this -
“Sister Beatrice will be the one monitoring your attendance and effort, informing us of your compliance with the required fulfillment of your service.”
Oh good, more fucking nuns. She made some very inappropriate gestures the last time she saw a nun. Granted, Frances probably didn’t know what they meant, but it sure made her feel better.
Ava can see it now, Sister Beatrice is probably some old hag who sucks on lemon candy and smells like feet. She’s going to hate Ava the moment she sees her.
This is going to suck.
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01 Jun 2023
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i thought about you kissing me (it made me nervous) (it made me happy) by shapeyoutake
Fandoms: Warrior Nun (TV)
22 May 2023
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Beatrice and Ava have a movie night. Things spiral from there.
OR: Three weeks ago, Ava returned after spending 11 months in Reya’s realm, and Beatrice is intent on finally confessing her feelings via a romantic date night. Shenanigans ensue. Also, there’s zombies, but only on screen.
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24 May 2023
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Ava feels like screaming. On the one hand, she’s really happy that Beatrice decided to go on a little adventure on her own, on the other hand, fuck if it’s not a pain in the ass. She didn’t rob two banks, get chased by the cops and beat that shady guy in Buenos Aires until he accepted to forge her papers just for Mother Superion to tell her Beatrice left about two years ago without leaving so much of a phone number to her sisters. God, Bea can be such a drama queen sometimes.
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20 May 2023
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“I made a list!” Ava trills.
“A list.”
“Yeah!” Oh no. Ava’s grin is wicked. “Of all the things that turn me on when I’m with a boy.”
Jesus Christ. Good thing Beatrice lowered that bottle.
“Care to explain?” she groans.
“I call it the to do list. I figured if I do all of this stuff with a girl and I get turned on, it means I’m also into girls.”- Language:
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19 May 2023
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After dying, becoming the Warrior Nun, and blowing up the goddamn Vatican to escape the devil himself, it's in a small apartment hidden in the Alps on a random Tuesday that Ava's life truly begins again (and again, and again).
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14 May 2023
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Let's go back, let's go back and start again by trillscienceofficer (girlonthelasttrain) for isloremipsumafterall
Fandoms: Star Trek: Voyager
02 Dec 2022
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B’Elanna faces her and she is suddenly, irrationally certain that Seven, too, remembers. There is no trace of confusion in her cool demeanor.
“What the fuck,” B’Elanna hisses, “did you do to the warp core?”
A shipwide emergency turns out to be a lot more complicated to solve than B'Elanna is prepared for.
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24 Apr 2023
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“Some people think a soulmate is the person God creates for you. Others say it’s the soul yours has been drawn to time and time again, throughout multiple lives. Some even believe that each pair was formed during the creation of the universe itself.” Beatrice looks up at the sky, as though she might find an answer somewhere in the long dead stars hanging above them. “I’ve always liked that one, actually; that the particles ripped into being alongside each other formed a connection that would last as long as our universe did. I’m not sure it makes much sense in practice. But it sounds lovely.”
“Less cruel, at least,” Ava murmurs, and Beatrice turns at the sadness in her voice, drawing in a sharp breath when she sees the emotion so amplified in Ava’s eyes. “Because a god who created the whole soulmates thing in the first place, told you that you don’t get one, and then made you spend your entire life telling other people about theirs kind of sounds like a huge asshole, if you think about it.”
Which is, of course, why Beatrice so often tries not to think about it. Especially when Ava is looking at her the way she is now and she’s reminded of all the things she’ll never have (all the things she desperately wants).
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24 Feb 2023
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This is how Ava dies. Not at the hands of a psychotic caretaker with delusions of saviourhood. Not trapped in an ancient, collapsing cave under the Vatican. Not at the hands of a deranged maybe-angel or his army of demons. She’s going to die here, pressed against the peeling wallpaper in their tiny apartment and deliriously happy, with her hands tangled in Bea’s hair and her legs hooked around Bea’s hips and her skin hot under Bea’s mouth.
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ava is no longer behaving.
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- Part 2 of sentient halo au
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23 Feb 2023
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Beatrice doesn’t believe in tarot—of course she doesn’t, she’s a nun—but, seeing as this is one of her rare fun-oriented outings, she goes in for a reading anyway. It’s not like she’s having a crisis of faith or anything. That would just be silly.
Ava Silva has been bumming her way around Europe, after a life-saving procedure left her more aimless than free. She’s got a knack for reading people—including cute nuns with repressed sapphism radiating from every orifice—but the last thing she expects is for that nun to come back the next day. Or the day after that.
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21 Feb 2023
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The portal spits Ava back out a few weeks after Beatrice lets her go.
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One time Beatrice gave Ava a back rub, and one time Ava came back from oblivion to make sure she returned the favour.
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21 Feb 2023
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Spring Break in Switzerland sees Ava freshly single and ready to mingle. When she and her friends end up at a little bar in the alps Ava finds herself drawn to one of the locals.
It’s a week of getting to know one another in more ways than one.
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19 Feb 2023
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Lilith was her best friend.
Her sister.
"I'll let you choose where to eat as long as you don't bring up your hot British neighbour again."
Oh, how she hated her.
"I haven't even mentioned her that much!"
"Her eyes were so intense, Lilith." Lilith began in a mocking tone. "The leather jacket she wore was so fitting Lilith. Her neck was so-"
"Oh my god stop!" Ava slapped the button for the elevator. "I do not sound like that."
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- Part 1 of Mark 12:31
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27 Jan 2023
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Diego elbows Ava lightly in the side to get her attention. "Ava? How come you don't have a boyfriend?" he asks.
What if it’s because of him? What if she’s so busy always trying to make sure that he’s taken care of that she’s missing out on all the things other nineteen-year-olds get to do?
"Huh?" There's a pause, and he can almost see Ava's brain stutter into stillness before lurching back to life. "Well, um, Diego, it's like — I'm really — if I thought that — see, it’s more like —"
He hears Lilith scoff and turns towards her. "It's not that hard. Kid, Ava's down bad for —"
"Shut up, Lilith," Ava grinds out, cutting her off.
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After leaving St Michael’s, Ava does everything she can to support Diego, including taking him to extracurriculars. Beatrice is his aikido instructor, and it changes everything.
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- Part 1 of Land Upright
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13 Jan 2023
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When she got back to the apartment, it was nearing mid-afternoon. It would be just enough time to have everything ready by the time Ava’s shift ended at six.
Except, when Beatrice turned the key in the lock, she knew immediately that the apartment was not empty. An unfamiliar sound was coming from their bedroom.
Beatrice set the grocery bags down, managing to avoid anything more than the softest crinkle of brown paper as they hit the countertop. The floorboards, normally old and creaky, were silent beneath her feet. She reached for the knife on her back, fingers wrapping around the handle as she got to the door, open just enough for Beatrice to peak inside and –
Beatrice stopped breathing at the sight before her.
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The girls try something new.
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05 Jan 2023
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She wants Beatrice to fingerprint her, to tattoo her, to leave a mark so deep not even the Halo can rid her of it. Her muscles feel too tight, stretched uncomfortably over her bones. There is something ravenous inside of her, and Beatrice is going to set it free.
You are the only thing I've ever lived for, Beatrice says.
You are the only thing I've ever died for, Ava says, and even that wasn't enough to keep me from you.
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01 Jan 2023
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“I need you to give me a hickey,” Ava says, a little out of breath like she’s just run across campus to deliver this incredibly important mission.
“I…” Beatrice starts, brain going unfortunately muddled. “I beg your pardon?”
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or: the three (3) times Beatrice gave Ava a hickey and the one (1) time Ava returned the favor
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- Part 1 of Hickey AU
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28 Dec 2022