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    Shane Hollander is a man who thrives on structure, routine, the solid ground of a ten-year plan. Ilya likes that about him, likes the embracing squeeze of having a life organized in tandem with Shane.

    No one would call Ilya a man who thrives on structure. But it’s there, if not in his DNA then in the patterns of his brain. A call-and-response of: they do this, I do that.

    When Ilya’s life is flayed open for the world to dissect, how will they push-and-pull their way back towards what was once a well-organized life?


    “I thought we could go through the schedules and figure out what days we’ll be in the same cities this season, or when either of us have a couple of days off in a row. Maybe make a shared calendar, so we c—”

    “A sex calendar? Your parents are arriving in thirty minutes, and you are proposing making a sex calendar?” Oh, this was delicious. He’d be able to eat out on this for years, if Shane was willing to give him that long.

    “It’s not a sex calendar! It’s just … when we might be able to see each other,” he finished, already sounding defeated.

    “And what are you planning on doing when we are seeing each other? Not fucking?”

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Sveta was worried.
    It had been a week since Ilya had last texted, and now he’d left her on read for two days.
    And so she stood in front of the giant glass shoebox he lived in twenty minutes outside of Boston. Willing herself to walk inside.

    Or, a depressive episode after the 2014 Olympics.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    They sat in silence for a few seconds and watched the surf rolling in and out, in and out. Shane eased one knee up, resting his arm across it, watching Ilya out of the corner of his eye with infinite patience.

    “You wanna talk about it?” he asked, voice soft enough that the wind almost stole it.

    He did want to talk. His chest was full of words. Too full. But the idea of opening all that up? Of watching Shane recoil, or worse, watching him care? It was unbearable. The thought of being comforted by Shane, of feeling that warmth and knowing he couldn’t keep it, nearly crushed him.

    Ilya kept his eyes on the water, jaw tight.

    Shane reached out slowly and carefully and let the tip of one finger trace the outside of Ilya’s forearm. Just a whisper of contact. A question, not a demand.

    Ilya looked at him. Shane gave a small tilt of his hand, beckoning him closer.

    “Come here.”

    ****

    A deviation from the All-Star weekend in Tampa:

    Instead of finding Shane on the bench, it’s Ilya alone with his ghosts and falling apart in ways he never lets anyone see.

    Until Shane sits beside him.

    The tide is ceaseless and the night is heavy. Canon diverges; feelings don't.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    As he approaches, David hears the faint sound of a slider door being opened.

    In hindsight, he definitely wishes he would’ve just called out to Shane once he heard that noise.

    But he didn’t. Instead he just continued on through the kitchen, turning the corner to see—

    Shane, on the deck, standing in front of the open glass door. And definitely not alone.

    Or: Chapter 26 of Heated Rivalry from David Hollander's POV
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    Or: It wasn't really about the dishwasher tablets

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    31 May 2026

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    Shane thinks this is probably the first - and last - time in his life that he’s ever been excited about grocery shopping. But it’s their first time doing it together, as a couple, out in public where other people can see them. Where, finally, they don’t have to pretend to be something they’re not.

    It’s such a small thing - insignificant to most people, probably - but it’s a luxury Shane never thought he would be allowed to have.

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    17 May 2026

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