apipefullofdreams
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In which Shane realizes that he and Ilya will never have biological children together and he lets himself be sad about it.
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Or what I would imagine happens immediately after 8x15. Someone has to take Buck home, and it's probably Tommy.
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snow angel (i'll make it through the winter if it kills me) by floydfairy, p3erhapschaotic7
Fandoms: Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Jun 2026
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The pain has become too much for Ilya Rozanov to carry. For years, he’s lived with grief that never really healed, loneliness that followed him from Russia to Boston to Ottawa, and the constant exhaustion of pretending he’s okay when he hasn’t been in a very long time. Hockey gave him purpose. Shane Hollander gave him love. But neither could silence the ache left behind by losing his mother or the growing belief that maybe it was time to see her again.
So one morning, after one too many days suffering in silence, Ilya decides he’s done fighting. He leaves behind a letter for Shane, swallows a bottle of pills, and waits for the pain to end. Unfortunately for him, he is loved far too deeply for the universe to let him go that easily.
When the Hollanders find him in time, Ilya is forced into something he never planned for: surviving. And surviving means psychiatric holds, therapy sessions, difficult conversations, and learning how to let people care for him without believing he’s a burden. Most terrifying of all, it means letting Shane see every ugly, broken piece of him he tried so desperately to hide.
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Or: Ilya Rozanov attempts suicide, but the Hollanders love him too much to let him go quietly.
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09 Jul 2026
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spun out so far by ultravioletdaydream
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Jul 2026
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For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.
But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?
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Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.
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09 Jul 2026
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Right Place Wrong Time by Rainbow_Femme
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
10 Jul 2026
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Taking place during the episode five All Star game, this time when Shane gets hurt in front of Ilya it is much worse than a bad hit during a game.
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A gun goes off in a crowd, Shane Hollander finds himself hit, and Ilya Rozanov is there to witness it and try desperately to keep them both together.Bookmarked by apipefullofdreams
08 Jul 2026
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coming home to you (with my own blood in my mouth) by nightrose
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Jul 2026
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Ilya’s heart is breaking. He doesn’t want the first thing he does, the very first thing, after Shane’s choices have been so brutally ripped away from him, to be something Shane is begging him not to do. But Shane is seriously injured, much beyond what they can handle with first aid at home or even if they found a discreet doctor to make a house call. He will need an MRI, a broken bone set, probably surgery. And evidence should be collected too, for the police. That part Ilya will not push him on. But he cannot let Shane risk his life for his pride and the fear of shame that has controlled him for so long. “I am sorry, moy lyubimyy,” Ilya says, “So sorry. But Marleau is calling ambulance, and you are going to the hospital.”
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Shane and Ilya are spending Christmas together in Boston during Ilya's last season playing for the Bears. They're finally out, and they're in love, and soon they'll only live two hours apart.
When Shane is assaulted, the plans they had built for their future collapse. Now the road ahead is a long, grueling process of physical and psychological recovery. What they had before-the sex, the playful power exchange, the easy trust-is gone, and they have to build something new, together.
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23 Jun 2026
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Mama Hollander? This is Ilya Rozanov by Shield_Theyden
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jul 2026
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“Hello, Mrs. Hollander, this is Ilya Rozanov. Shane is in Boston and hurt. They are taking him to –”
“Mass Gen” one of the paramedics supplied.
“Massachusetts Generals,” Ilya repeated into the phone.
“What?!” came Mrs. Hollander’s reply. “Mr Rozanov is this some kind of prank -”
“You hear siren in background?” Ilya snapped, more harshly than intended. “I’m sorry. Please. Is no joke.”
_____________________Set between the tuna meltdown and the Tampa reunion, an injured Shane stumbles into a random bar in Boston. Thankfully Ilya is there to take care of him.
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18 Jun 2026