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Hi, journal. Weird start, I don’t know how to start. I guess hi, me. This is the first entry of the journal for Dr. Copeland. I don’t really get how it will help, but she’s good at this, so this is probably good too. I didn’t tell her today, but I made the appointment because I’m lonely. I’m really, really lonely. And I don’t know how to say that out loud yet. Hopefully writing it will help.
He puts the pen down and decides that’s enough effort for the first day. He checks his phone, thinking maybe he didn’t notice it buzzing while he wrote. No new messages.
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Eddie’s in Texas. Maddie is getting ready for baby number 2. Bobby and Athena are building a new house. Everyone is busy with their family, and Buck doesn’t seem to fit anywhere. Dr. Copeland has him start to keep a journal to keep track of how he’s feeling, and all it does is (somehow) make everything worse. When a bad call lands Bobby in a coma and brings Eddie back everything becomes overwhelming fast. Buck starts leaning on his old habits, and it’s not long until he spirals out of control.Series
- Part 1 of drying of your tears
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turn my grief to grace by shliapnikovvv (NnoitraSzayel)
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 May 2026
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“Hi, is this Mr. Ilya Rozanov?”
“Yes, who is this?” Ilya replied, unease twisting his stomach.
“My name is Dr. Alicia Woolson, and I have you listed as the emergency contact for a Mr. Shane Hollander. He was brought into the emergency department at Montreal General Hospital after a car accident. He was unconscious upon arrival…”
Ilya couldn’t hear the rest of the words she was saying. He couldn’t listen to the list of broken bones, the internal damages that needed surgery to fix. All he could hear were the last words he said to Shane.
I don’t want to look at you.
I don’t want to talk to you.
Go home.
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Or, what if Shane got into a car accident when he left after their fight on Boxing Day?
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Hayden wanted to apologize but wasn’t even sure what to apologize for. “If you’re so embarrassed about your choice of boyfriend, maybe get a better one?”
It wasn’t any worse than anything Hayden had said before. In fact, it was probably fairly tame as far as insults went, but it didn’t matter. Hayden could see the moment something inside of Shane detonated. One minute Shane was standing only a handful of feet away, his suit jacket clutched in his hands, and the next the jacket was dropped to the floor in a heap, and Shane’s hands were fisted in Hayden’s shirt, his back slamming against the wall.
Holy fuck, he thought. Shane is going to fucking hit me.
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or, Hayden makes one too many shitty comments about Rozanov and Shane finally snaps. And while he never actually lands a blow on his best friend, the defeated way he talks about ending their friendship has Hayden rattled. After the Centaurs plane makes an emergency landing, Hayden knows he needs to do everything in his power to make it up to his best friend, with Jackie's help of course.
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i will choose you by whateveridk
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Apr 2026
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“I’m sorry,” Shane whispers against Ilya’s hair. “I’m so, so sorry. I didn’t—”
Shane cuts himself off with a faint stutter in his breath that Ilya feels in his own chest.
“Please,” Ilya begs, but he isn’t sure what he is even asking for.
He wants Shane to leave. He wants Shane to stay. He wants Shane to hold him and never let go.
Ilya feels Shane’s fingers fist in his curls, holding tight as if Ilya could ever bring himself to pull away.
Shane doesn’t know that Ilya could never, that he cannot fathom turning his back to take even one step away from him.
All he can do is push Shane away, make him walk first, and pick up the pieces left behind.
Or an alternative to that fight from the long game, but instead of Shane leaving as Ilya asks, they actually talk it out
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there may never next time be by inmoonlightigetseasick
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jun 2026
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He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.
Ilya is alive.
Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.
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AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.
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