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come find me when it’s over by anatomyofacynic for Distractedkitty
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
31 Jan 2026
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“What’s your problem?” Chuuya pressed. “You drink. You swallow whatever pills the Boss throws at you like candy. But one little joint and you’re acting like a grandma.”
Dazai’s smile froze.
“Chuuya,” Albatross said lightly, pushing himself up onto his elbows. “Maybe chill.”
“What? I’m just saying,” Chuuya said. He turned back to Dazai, annoyance lighting his cheeks. “You’re the one acting like I’m about to shoot up heroin in front of a kindergarten. It’s weed. You already do every other drug under the sun.”
The words hit harder than they should have. Maybe because they were true. Maybe because they weren’t, not in the way Chuuya thought. For a heartbeat, Dazai couldn’t hear the wind or the waves. Just the pounding in his own ears.
Every other drug. Like it was a hobby. Like it was something he did for fun.
“Chuuya doesn’t know what he’s talking about,” Dazai said, voice flat.
or: Chuuya smokes for fun. Dazai takes drugs to die or because Mori tells him to. When a stupid joint on a hill turns into Dazai admitting the difference, Chuuya makes a new rule: if the Boss drugs you, you don’t go curl up alone. You come find me when it’s over.
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09 Jul 2026
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Grieving someone still alive, Chuuya had learned, was quiet, relentless. The knowledge that this moment, this warmth, this weight against his chest, was temporary in ways he didn’t have control over.
Chuuya hated that he loved Dazai’s wrists, loved the helpless flutter of their pulse. That they were thin enough to slot perfectly in his hand. That they carried so much history—bandages, attempts, jokes made sharp enough to cut—and still felt alive under his fingers.
Loving Dazai felt like loving someone already half gone. Not because he wasn’t here—he was, warm and breathing, in spite of it all—but because Chuuya knew how often Dazai tried not to be. Every time it happened, Chuuya felt the loss before the outcome, like his chest was bracing for an impact that never quite came.
or: the day after another failed overdose, dazai buries his head and sleeps.
Whumpuary 2026 - Day twenty-three - Numb, Wrist-grabbing
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- Part 12 of Whumpuary 2026
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09 Jul 2026
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A Failed Language for Wanting by anatomyofacynic
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
15 Dec 2025
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“Dazai. What the hell are you saying. Why?”
Dazai’s mouth opened, then closed again. He hadn’t thought that far.
Because you look uncomfortable. Because I don’t know how to help. Because I keep wanting to touch you and I don’t know where that impulse is coming from.
None of those felt safe to say.
“So Chuuya will stop being miserable,” Dazai said instead, defaulting to insult as camouflage.
Chuuya snorted. “You’re one to talk.”
Dazai glanced down. “I’m always miserable. It’s different.”
or: when chuuya doesn’t show up for a mission, dazai goes looking for him and does what he does best: pokes, prods, and pushes. but chuuya doesn’t need a fight, and dazai is left with the harsh reality that his confusing, inconvenient feelings don’t come with an instruction manual.
Depress December 2025 - Day five - “That doesn’t fucking help.”
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- Part 1 of Depress December 2025
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09 Jul 2026
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Dazai comes to Chuuya like a ghost, all hollowed-out eyes and borrowed breath. Chuuya falls apart about it, quietly, the way he always does, and answers the only way he knows how: with hands, warmth, and a body that won’t move away.
(or: dazai shows up bruised and gone behind the eyes. chuuya doesn’t ask who did it. he just holds him.)
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- Part 3 of a cavity called February
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05 Jul 2026
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what you take and where you go by anatomyofacynic
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
08 Feb 2026
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Withdrawal is ugly, humiliating, and private—exactly the kind of thing Dazai thinks he can handle alone. Chuuya disagrees.
Feveruary 2026 - Day seven - “Did you seriously think I didn’t notice?”
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- Part 4 of Feveruary 2026
- Part 8 of the dove is on morphine
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05 Jul 2026